Chapter 1

My backpack was still in the car when Mom dragged me to the cistern.

The driver had barely wished me a happy Thanksgiving before she caught my wrist and led me behind the estate. A child was crying underground. I glanced through the opening, narrowed by an old metal frame, and stepped back.

Pain pulled across the incision beneath my coat. When I covered it, Mom tugged my hand away.

“Stand still. Owen is waiting.”

A man in a volunteer rescue jacket was reporting our location over his radio. He stepped between us.

“Mrs. Moretti, the specialist team is coming. We haven’t assessed the space.”

“How long will that take? Can you promise Owen has that long?”

My father ran the Moretti crime family. Several of his guards stood nearby with families who had come for dinner. Owen’s grandmother was crying in a chair while someone called his name through the opening.

Mom pushed me forward.

“Lily is eighteen. She’s small enough, and she wants to help.”

The volunteer looked at the hand I had pressed against my side again.

“Are you hurt?”

Before I could answer, Mom tightened her grip.

“She’s stiff from the drive. Lily, tell him you can do this.”

“I can’t breathe in places like that.”

He moved me behind him.

“Then you’re staying here. Everyone needs to step away from the opening.”

Mom held out her hand for her purse.

The moment I saw the black ledger, I stopped trying to explain.

Four years earlier, fifteen of my father’s men and employees had died rescuing Serena from a fire at her high school graduation party. My sister had been eighteen. I had been fourteen when Mom began recording what I owed their families.

Receipts protruded between the pages. One was from the private clinic where Dad had arranged my surgery last month.

The kidney went to the son of another man who had died saving Serena. Mom called it one more debt settled. When I asked to postpone the surgery, she opened the ledger in front of me.

She stood beside me while I signed the consent forms. Afterward, she told me the family had paid for everything, so I should be grateful. She also told me to keep the details from anyone at college.

When I asked to stay home until the incision healed, she wrote on the back of the bill:

Lily refused her responsibilities and demanded additional care.

That evening, I returned to campus with a fever. I never asked her for more pain medication.

Now she opened the ledger to Owen’s family.

“His father ran into that house knowing he had a baby at home,” she said. “Will you let his son die here?”

“He went in for Serena.”

I caught the volunteer’s sleeve as soon as I said it.

Mom uncapped her pen.

“Your sister still has nightmares. Must you make her relive it?”

A woman beside her sighed.

“It’s Thanksgiving, Lily. Don’t upset your mother.”

I watched the pen touch the page.

“Please don’t write that. I’ll help.”

The volunteer kept a hand on my shoulder.

“You can refuse. You don’t have to earn your way out of this.”

Mom began writing.

“Refused to help Owen. Caused further distress to his father’s family.”

I reached for her wrist, but she peeled my fingers away.

“I said I would, Mom.”

Owen screamed for his grandmother. As the volunteer turned toward the opening, Mom signaled a guard to bring over a coil of rope from the groundskeeper’s shed.

The volunteer caught them fastening it around me. He clipped a work light to my coat as he tried to pull me away from the rim.

“Stop. She has no training.”

A guard stepped into his path.

“Take your hands off Mrs. Moretti.”

The man immediately raised his radio, requesting police as well as the rescue team. Mom kept pushing me toward the opening.

“Go down and stay with him. He’s five.”

I tried to brace myself against the rim, but she pressed my shoulders down until I slipped beneath the frame. The wall scraped my incision, and I cried out.

The volunteer seized the rope above me, stopping my fall. He braced himself as the guard argued with him.

“Lily, find somewhere to put your feet. We’re getting you back up.”

I looked toward Mom. She was standing beside him, still holding her pen.

“I can reach him,” I pleaded. “Please don’t let her write any more.”

I reached for the little work light clipped to my coat. My fingers slipped twice before I found the switch. Above me, Mom was insisting they lower me far enough to reach Owen.

The beam swept across the wet wall. I tried to steady my breathing and looked for him.

A small voice rose from the darkness.

“Lily? Did you come to get me?”