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“miss …hey miss”I slowly open my eyes but immediately shut them when my eyes make contact with really bright blinding lights .“Miss are you okay “ a voice asks me again ,the voice I immediately recognizes as that of a man is laced with concern,my nerves come alive once again and I suddenly feel the coolness of the hard concrete under my back ,my whole body that had been humming with numbness buzzed to life with pain .“o..o…uch”the words wheeze past my lips with maximum efforts ,I feel my lungs caving in with much difficulty ,the throbbing and the numbness taking over my senses Who am I What the hell is going on What is happening“oh mi ... .ss, miss are you okay” the man's voice sounds again bringing more of my senses alive ,the more the seconds go by the more things come back to me .My name is Alexandra Ross ,I am 23 years old ,I was just coming from a club where I left my best friend who was lying to my face ,but it's not her fault because she is losing her grip on realit
“Enmeshment”“That is what Mia has “he says calmly, his eyes bored into mine .“What is that “Ryan's expression was serious. "What I am about to explain to you. Is Something that might help you understand what's going on with Mia,so you can understand her reasons for do what she did “I nodded, intrigued. “So explain it to me “Ryan took a deep breath. “Enmeshment. It's a psychological concept that describes a situation where two or more people become overly involved in each other's lives. They lose their sense of identity and autonomy, and their boundaries become blurred."I frowned, trying to understand. "What do you mean?"Ryan's eyes locked onto mine. "In the case of you and Mia, it means that Mia has become so close that she is no longer sure where one of you ends and the other begins. You're like two threads that have become tangled together."I felt a pang of guilt, is that how she has been feeling all this while .Ryan's expression was gentle. "Enmeshment can be unhealthy,
Security guards rushed towards the scene, trying to break up the fight between Anastasia and I. Ryan quickly grabbed my hand and Mia's hand ,dragging us away from the commotion and Anastasia screaming about her broken nose and hair loss courtesy of me . "Come on, let's get out of here," he says ,his voice firm but calm. We follow him to a quiet alleyway behind the club, where we collapse against the wall, panting. Mia looked up at Ryan, a mischievous glint in her eye. "Thanks for saving us, Ryan. I owe you one “ Ryan smiles, his eyes crinkling at the corners. "No problem, Mia. But maybe next time, you can avoid getting into fights, huh?" Mia grinned. "No promises." “At least my plan was working great till David showed up “Mia says, kicking a can in anger . Ryan's eyes flicked to me, and I felt a surge of embarrassment. “What plan?" I repeat my question when Mia is still and nobody answers me , my voice sharp. "What plan,What do you mean?" “Umm,I…I…”Mia stammers out of control w
“Tell me now David , what the fuck are you doing with these bitches “she shrieks as she glares at me ,, her high pitched voice as annoying as ever . I return the glare hoping she gets the message that she doesn't scare me , she always tried to intimidate me before and I admit it sometimes worked but not anymore. “The only bitch I see here is you , Anastasia” I retorted to which Mia shouts oh snap dramatically making Anastasia scoff . “Wow I always knew you both were losers but please don't show it to the rest “she says with a dismissive hair flip . Mia and I look at each other before laughing , Anastasia looks confused as everyone else but we understand each other perfectly, nothing she says would affect us when we are both together. “Oh really thanks for the advice ,but I hope you start taking your own advice soon because it's obvious you have been broadcasting your stupidity since you were a child “mia comment which makes me laugh and I turn and notice both Ryan and David tryi
I hesitated, unsure of what to say. A part of me wanted to forget about David and move on, but another part of me wanted closure, wanted to know why he had hurt me so badly.Ryan's expression turned serious. "Lexi, I don't think that's a good idea. He's not good for you."I felt a surge of defensiveness. "You don't even know him," I say, which makes Ryan give me a weird look ,probably because of my weird outburst .Ryan took a step closer to me. "I don't need to know him to see the way he's affecting you. You deserve better than someone who's going to hurt you like that."I looked up at him, feeling a little bit between the lines of fuzzy and uncomfortable. Why was he being so protective of me?But before I could ask him, I saw David waiting for me by the corner of the club, his eyes fixed on me.I took a deep breath, feeling a sense of determination wash over me. "I need to go talk to him, just for some closure ," I said, my voice firm.Ryan's eyes narrowed. "Lexi, don't-"But I was
'Keep thinking I seeing water You playing tricks on me in the sun See your shadow in the courtyard Stay until the day is done .The dessert doesn't end The rain don't fall And I can't pretendI don't know what you are Cause I know what you are You are You are You are ' I sing silently as I make my way into the crowd trying to get to mia to dance or more like get away from the awkward situation with Ryan ,I know that I am pretty much exaggerating the who thing but I can't help but feel like I am being pushed into the ocean with a 50kg weight attached to my leg about the possibility of moving on from my ex .By the time I make it to Mia I realize that she is busy dancing with a guy that she looked really interested in even though I know she will probably get bored in the next five minutes ."I have decided to dance " I say tapping her shoulder, she turns to face me but looks clueless."What did you say?" she shouts, making me roll my eyes at the fact that has decided to go de
"The noise is so loud " I shout at Mia who is already looking jittery with excitement ."Isn't this fun she hits me while she laughs already acting as if she is drunk without having a sip of alcohol already . It is quite obvious that she doesn't need alcohol or to get drunk; she is naturally high without the drugs to go with it ."Remember the plan you promised thag you would follow " I ask and she nods like a child listening to a teacher giving instructions"Stay close to each other ""Don't leave my drink around and if I did I should forget about the drink ""Don't take drink from strangers or Allow them to buy me a drink ""Always be aware of my surroundings ""If I want to leave with a guyI should call you make sure we leave at the same time ""Keep your number and the police on speed dial"" And Use protection" she says with an eye roll but I know she is happy that I am here to remind her to take care of herself."Anything else I should write down in the 100 things to do in a cl
"no, no , no " "For the last time , I am not doing this "I tell Mia, flinging one of her dresses on the bed. "My baby " she shouts jumping on the bed to grab as if she was reaching out to someone that was about to fall off a cliff . "Why am I doing this again? " I ask ignoring her dramatics ,as she holds her dress close to her chest like it was a baby,she gives me a quick glare before rocking it like a baby . "To get drunk and hopefully laid , have you forgotten" "A normal home drinking isn't enough to get rid of the shittiness you have obviously been having this week or maybe it has been there for a month, because the weeks leading up to this disaster were not that pretty either "she says thoughtfully tapping her hand against her chin while I roll my eyes . "If we are talking about this critically ,my whole year has been shitty ... Scratch that my whole life has been a whole lot of what you call bullshit " "Why was I even brought into this world my life is worse that a horror
"What do you mean it's happening again?" Mia asked, her brows furrowed in concern. But all I could do was cry out in frustration. I shoved my chair back forcefully, the legs scraping annoyingly against the floor before it toppled over with a loud clatter.“I don’t know, Mia! I don’t fucking know!” I spat, my voice raw with emotion.“All I know is I feel really shitty right now when I’m supposed to feel fine.” My outburst startled both Mia and myself. I was on the brink of losing my composure, yet I struggled to articulate why. The confusion weighed heavily on my chest.“Calm down, Lexi. Just talk to me. We’ll work this out, okay?” “Just like we always do,” she reassured, moving closer to me. She placed a gentle hand on my shoulder, giving it a comforting squeeze that warmed my fraying nerves.Letting out a loud sigh, I allowed the tension in my body to ease slightly. I walked back to my chair and sank into it, while Mia mirrored my movements, her eyes fixed on me, silently urging me