chapter 47

Z A R A

"I don't have the answer to that, my love," Alejandro answers. "You'll only find out after you pull the trigger."

"You call me 'my love', yet those words don't hold any meaning for you. Why?" My voice cracks.

I'm so tired. I'm so very tired. He picks up his bloodied hand, covered in the aftermath of torture that he endured, and gently places it against my cheek. I lean into his hand and squeeze my eyes shut, letting a few tears slip out.

I shove the tip of the gun further against his Adam's apple, my hand shaking over the trigger. I let out a sad chuckle. Why is this so hard? I should be able to pull this trigger with no problem. This man... he did me no good, no good at all. Then, why? Why is it so difficult to end the part of my life that's causing me suffering?

"I can't do it," I whisper loud enough for only Alejandro to hear. "I can't..." Yet his eyes give away nothing, he's accepted the fate that his death is from my hands.

"What's taking you so long, Zara?" Philip interr