CHAPTER TWO HUNDRED AND ONE

Sarah

Being back in the pack is difficult in a way that I never imagined it would be.

It is everything I wanted. This is everything I wanted. And I’m grateful Lucas and I have decided to heal together. I know this was ultimately the right decision for both of us. It’s just…

I move from beneath his touch. Lucas and I went back to sleeping in the same bed together right away.

I feel safer that way. I’m a comfort to him. And it feels so natural and yet so strange at the same time.

I sit up with my knees brought to my chest. I watch my sleeping mate. He breathes slowly, like he’s caught in some dream.

My mind flashes back to him with Carmine. Out of my control, I imagine what they did together. I think of her hands on him. His hands on her.

The trauma Lucas went through is clear. If he had been in his right mind, I know for sure he wouldn’t have wanted it. He wouldn’t have chosen this.

Still, I went through so much. The pain was overwhelming. And this isn’t as easy as just choos