Chapter 1

Eleven, a young 18-year-old girl who lives in fear, her life feels dark and crowded like hell. Even though she doesn't know what it's like to live in the real hell, but living with her alcoholic father makes her believe that hell will be better than the place she calls home.

At her age Eleven should be having fun with her friends, hanging out and shopping at the mall like a teenage girl her age. Know a lot of men and date. Spending her teenage years with full of happiness and joy. But what happened to her was inversely proportional to the world she should have felt, because her father forced Eleven to stay at home.

Her father doesn't allow Eleven to leave the house, other than to shop at the supermarket with him. Eleven grows into a quiet girl, her movements are unpredictable, as well as her thoughts. It all started when her mother died when she was 15 years old. Yes, it was only 3 years since her mother left her, but her father had done so many bad things to her, which traumatized her with men.

The first incident occurred when Eleven came home from school, when she was only 16 years old, a year after her mother died. Just imagine, they should still be in mourning at that time, but not with her father. At that time, it was raining heavily, Eleven, who had forgotten to bring her umbrella in her bag, was forced to take shelter at the bus stop until the rain subsided a little. It wasn't that far from the bus stop to the flat, but she only had two uniforms to change between, if she got her uniform wet then, that meant she couldn't come to school tomorrow.

Eleven's family's finances are far from decent, they only live on the remaining property that their mother has, her father, Thomas does not work, he only spends his wife's money buying alcohol and gambling. When it was getting dark, Eleven, who had been waiting for too long, was even more afraid. She knew her father would be furious if she came home late. So she decided to run to her flat, not caring if the heavy rain at that time drenched her body, she hoped her father would understand.

But what she expected turned out to be just bullshits. When she entered her house, she saw her father sitting in front of the TV with a bottle of alcohol in his hand.

"I'm at home, dad, sorry for coming home late, it was pouring rain outside, I took shelter at the bus stop until the rain stopped but apparently the rain hasn't stopped until now, so I decided to run home" Eleven said and her father just looked at his daughter.

At first Eleven didn't feel anything from her father's gaze on her, but when her father got up from his chair and slowly approached Eleven with his red eyes like an intoxicated person, Eleven felt very scared. She was sure her father would be mad at her, but so far her father had never snapped at her.

"Dad.. you scared me, I'm sorry" Eleven said but her father still didn't answer anything, he still approached his daughter and stood right in front of Eleven, looking at Eleven with a sharp gaze filled with a million meanings.

“You came home drenched, you know what, your uniform will show what you're wearing underneath if it gets wet. I can even clearly see the color of the bra you're wearing now” Her father said and Eleven who was wide-eyed immediately covered her chest with both hands.

“Why are you covering it in front of me? I'm your father, you should cover your breasts when you run in the rain. How many men have seen your boobs huh? It seems you don't feel embarrassed if other men see it. Are you happy to share?” Her father's words only made Eleven speechless, her eyes began to tremble and slowly tears flowed down her cheeks.

She never thought her father could say that to her, the only daughter she had. Eleven couldn't do anything at that time, her father was quite big and tall. Eleven, who is only 16 years old, has a small body, even though she is tall among her friends, her body is well-proportioned, her face is small with thick eyebrows, beautiful eyes and plump red lips, her rosie cheeks also make her face look perfect. Her honey brown hair looks beautiful framing Eleven's tiny face.

When her father put his hand on Eleven's cheek, she could feel the warmth of his father's hand, but there was also a sense of fear inside her. She didn't know what her father would do to her then. What will happen to her that night.

“El, you have a pretty face like your mother. But unfortunately, your mother is a good woman, unlike you” Her father said.

Eleven knows that her father is drunk, his words don't make any sense and his mouth also smells of alcohol, very strong. Eleven tries to avoid her father. She removed her father's hand from her cheek and stepped back.

"I have to take a shower, I could get sick if I stay soaked for too long like this" Eleven said and ran to her room, she locked her bedroom door for fear that her father would follow her and do something to her.

She leaned her body against the door of her room and slumped down on the floor, she brought her knees to her chest and cried. That day was the first time for Eleven to be treated like that by her own father. She was so frightened that her hands were shaking. What her father said made her not think that her father could say something like that. His words seemed to corner Eleven and think of his daughter as a naughty girl.

After taking a shower and changing clothes, Eleven heard her father screaming from outside her room. She’s still scared but if she doesn't come out, her father will get mad at her even more. So Eleven decided to go out and meet her father who was standing in front of the dining table.

"Haven't you prepared dinner yet? Aren't you hungry huh!" Her father snapped at her.

"I'm sorry dad, I'll prepare it now" Eleven immediately went to the kitchen and opened the fridge.

She stood in front of her fridge looking at the ingredients in there, but she couldn't find anything to eat except sausages and eggs. But when she turned around quickly her father pushed her against the fridge and attempted to kiss her. Of course that shocked Eleven, she tried her best to push her father's body, she cried and asked her father to stop. But instead of stopping her father just got wilder, he couldn't kiss Eleven because she kept struggling, so her father immediately grabbed her daughter's hands and brought her above her head with only one hand. Just imagine how strong her father was back then.

Because Eleven continued to rebel, making it difficult for her father to touch her, finally her father threw his hand to Eleven's smooth cheek tightly, the slap made Eleven fall to the floor. She felt her cheek hurt so bad, she just cried and tried to crawl backwards away from her father. But her father easily pulled Eleven's feet and sat on it.

"Dad please.. please don't do this, you're drunk, please.. please dad" Eleven said, but again her father didn't hear those words. He brought Eleven's hands to the sides of her head and held them down.

Then he easily dived his face into his daughter's neck, Eleven continued to struggle, she felt very scared but couldn't do anything because her father's strength was much stronger than hers.

"Dad.. no please.. please stop !!" Eleven said.

Her father's kisses continued to descend until they stopped in front of her breasts, when her father started kissing Eleven's breasts, that's when she felt her world was shattered. The only family she had was now gone with her, she was alone, she had no one else in her life. She hate her father so much.

The kiss changed, her father started licking Eleven's breasts and sucking them many times, making Eleven just bite her lips and turn her face away. Hers legs kept struggling to break free but the more she struggled, her father's grip tightened her hands.

Her father did that for a long time, he took turns sucking both of Eleven's breasts, then pulled his body and looked at Eleven who was still crying in front of him.

“You are my daughter, but you are very seductive from your mother. Even your boobs are much tastier than hers. Never show this to anyone, you are mine now, got it!” Her father said and Eleven was silent as her father got up and left her there on the cold and dirty kitchen floor.

That day, that night was the worst night of Eleven's life, like a nightmare. She just curled up and cried while holding her wet clothes because of what her father did to her.