Party

Lucia 

Lucia

The disco lights flooded the floor as we stepped inside the room after going through some security checking devised by some of the guys from college. All they did during security check was to grope and palm my intimate parts and touch and graze their hands over my neck and hips. It was disgusting when I swat away their hands and ducked behind Calvin, one of the guys leaned down and spoke with a smirk growing on his face that sent terrifying chills over my spine. 

" Don't be sacred of us little princess, we are very good boys, " then another guy pointed my hand gripping Calvin's ones and said, 

" We would take good care of you, unlike your boyfriend. We would allow you to grip any part of us you'd like to hold." 

Calvin and his friends sneered over the comment and were about to get into a physical fight but were abruptly stopped by the most popular person in the school, Minerva Floquent. 

She walked exquisitely, waving her blonde hair and shrugging off a red velvet shiny scarf from her neck and throwing it over the neck of one of the college guys and tugging him towards her. 

Mesmerized by her elegance and enchanting beauty, boys stopped their quarrel and began to provide her with a way to get in. While passing she looked down at me, glanced at my costume over and scoffed at my presence as she locked arms with one of the college guys. 

Minerva floquent was a popular blonde in school, dating a college guy and there was nothing about her that was flawed. Her confidence and intelligence never failed to impress me. She always outstood everyone in studies and beauty simultaneously. I admire her so much. 

But I guess I will be the one to keep admiring her all my life. 

During these self-doubt situations I wish I had Meredith with me, she would have boosted me and pushed me to enjoy the night. My lack of socializing experience and communicative skills always put me back into my room sprawled in the dorm with books to hang out with. 

I used to stay in my room because there was no reason for me to go out and explore. Now I have Calvin who always wanted me to come out of my dorm and explore the world with him. To be honest I don't like to be around people, watch them and get along with them. But more than just for Calvin I want to get out of the bubble to live my life. I will never know what it is to drown if I don't get out when it rains. 

I know I have to push my boundaries and step out of my zone to be with people around me but I guess the guy I am standing with will make everything worth it. 

Unfortunately, I don't have Meredith with me now due to her family emergency. Calvin promised to stay with me all through the night and planned to give me the best day of my life after all it is our day. 

That's what I planned today to get out of my comfort zone and be the best girlfriend for him who has shown so much love in these past two years. 

We skimmed through the drunken crowd and reached the bar with our hands intertwined. We place ourselves on the barstool while Calvin grabs a drink for us. 

"Here is the first time for your alcohol history cheers. " He raises his glasses in the air. I laugh at his toast. Keeping jokes apart I pass my drink midway in the air contemplating my choices. 

Watching my hesitation, Calvin placed his hand on my thigh urging me to meet his eyes. 

"I know it is illegal for you to drink while you are just 16 and alcohol is pretty common here since we all are 18 and some of them here are college people. So it wouldn't be a big issue if you drink some. If you don't want it then no pressure just don't. So don't force yourself so much. I always got your back. " He pulled a mango juice from under the table and placed it in front of us. 

My heart swelled at his care and affection. It still amazes me how he takes time and makes efforts that would make me feel safe and comfortable around him. 

We moved towards a couch where some of his classmates and some college guys slouched over talking about random things. Calvin made me sit on his lap caging me between his arms. Occasionally he would steal kisses and continue to assure me with reassuring squeezes and soft peckings. 

Calvin wanted us to be sure before we take the important step in our relationship. It wouldn't be his first time and he assured me that he would wait will until I am ready to do it with him. 

And that's what happened during my 16th birthday. I felt like it was the right time and Calvin is one of the few persons in my life who cared about me. More than anyone ever did. I couldn't find a reason not to do it with him. 

Having sex for the very first isn't a very pleasurable experience for me. But Calvin helped me through it with his soothing words and caring touches he led me to the end. It was more painful than I could ever put into words. I was happy that he enjoyed it. It has been nearly 2 months since my birthday. 

So I might have planned a little surprise for us near the lake for our second experience under the moonlight. All we have to do is leave this party sober and get into action. 

But it seems impossible with the number of drinks he has been drinking.

It was almost past 9 when Calvin excused himself to use the loo and left me alone with his friends. He asked them to talk with me and keep me from being bored. They did talk to me. They talked and I listened. 

At a certain point, I lost track of time and any idea what they were talking about and I decided to search for Calvin through the party. I checked every toilet downstairs and he was nowhere to be seen. Hence I ventured upstairs to search for him. 

I had to mentally prepare myself not to stomp over any person making out on the stairs and reach the top floor. I checked the first three rooms and ended up not having any clue of finding him. 

That's when the guy from college who was a part of security checking located me in the crowd and started walking towards me with the same smirk. As the distance grew smaller, the more anxious and scared I became. 

I don't have Calvin now to duck behind or people to physically barricade myself from him. I decided to get away from him. I pushed through people who were drunkenly bouncing their bodies and rubbing against each other according to the music and entered the last room on the floor and locked the door behind me. 

Then I heard some crashing sounds from the adjacent room, and I heard a familiar voice. 

"Minerva ah fucking god, you feel so good baby, no one ever ah -" 

"Calvin ah keep going." 

I froze. 

What the hell! 

" No one ever made me feel like this ah I am so close Minerva." I heard him moaning and grunting her name repeatedly. 

Tears stung my eyes and I couldn't move away from the spot. I am pushing myself to open the goddamn door and leave. But I physically couldn't. 

How could he! 

Is this why he wasn't bothered when we haven't had sex after our first time? 

Was I so bad? 

Because he wasn't waiting for me he was getting laid with someone who is so much better than me in every way possible. 

Everything happened between us during our first time, each one of his words, his touches and his promises everything came crashing down on me. 

I couldn't physically stand there, my legs gave out when all the agony and hurt crashed my heart and emotions overwhelmed my entire body. 

I fell on the ground with a thud accidentally knocking the nearby table with my hands. My hands flew to my mouth to cover my sobbings. I let out a muffled scream as I pushed myself out of the room crashing myself against the railing of the stairs curling my knees up to my chest. 

I didn't give a fuck who watched all I could think was about the betrayal. Soon after I crashed down the door opened. 

I slowly looked up to meet Calvin searching over the crowd and turned to see me sitting near the door like fucking pathetic human. 

His hair was dishevelled, his flannel shirt wide open revealing his white t-shirt underneath and his belts were undone. 

I looked up and met his eyes. He was shocked to see me there and raised his hands to say something when I noticed Minerva coming behind him combing her hair back in place and palming her party dress to make it look normal. 

"This isn't what you think. I know what you think. But I can explain, " Calvin blabbered in panic. I am not good at reading people, I try to decipher how they feel about the situation. I just swear I wish he would feel disgusted and guilty over his actions. 

But all I could see was his shock and panic through his actions. 

Minerva left without a word or a glance towards us. 

I pushed myself from the floor. I raised my hand to stop him from making some lame excuses that wouldn't even matter. I heard them what else I would want to know. 

"I am sorry baby.. " 

"Don't fucking call me that, " I sneered at him. 

"I am leaving, "I said and started moving away. 

He held my wrist to stop me from leaving. 

"Just let me go and I need to be alone. You go and fuck her. " I seethed at him. 

" Baby-" He whispered. 

" Don't call me that. You have no fucking rights to call me that, you fucking cheater, "I pulled away from him and pushed through the crowds away from this drama and ran to the only place that will keep me calm now ,the lake.