River’s POV
I opened the door. And there he was. Daniel Wellington. Standing on my front step like this was something normal. Like we weren’t a complete mess. Like he hadn’t called what we did last night a mistake and watched me walk out without a blink. He held something in his hand. A black short. Mine. I blinked, still wet from the shower, towel wrapped around my hips, water dripping down my back. My hair was sticking to my forehead. I was half-naked. And barefoot. Of course. “Really?” I asked. Daniel lifted the short like it was some kind of peace offering. “You left this.” “That couldn’t wait until tomorrow?” He stared at me for a second. “You left it on my bedroom floor.” The way he said that, calm, sharp, a little too direct, made my stomach twist. I stepped back without saying anything and left the door open. If he was going to come in, let him. If not, let the breeze slam the door on him. He stepped inside. Just like that. Like it meant nothing. I turned and walked toward the living room, not even caring that my towel was loose. If he was going to act like last night didn’t mean anything, I could pretend too. He followed me in. The short was still in his hand. I sat down on the arm of the couch and pulled the towel tighter around my waist. “You came all this way to return that?” I asked. He looked at the short in his hand like he’d forgotten he was holding it. “Yeah,” he said. “And to check on you.” I raised a brow. “Check on me? What am I? A plant?” Daniel sighed, rubbing the back of his neck. “You ran out this morning. I didn’t like how we left things.” I laughed. Not because it was funny. But because it was ridiculous. “You mean after you told me what we did was a mistake?” He flinched, just a little. “I shouldn’t have said it like that.” I stood up and took the short from him. “But you still meant it.” Silence. The kind that sits heavy in the room. The kind that feels like it’s waiting for something to break. “I don’t know what I meant,” he said after a long moment. “Of course you don’t,” I muttered. “You’re good at not knowing.” Daniel looked around the room like he was stalling. His eyes landed on the blanket on the couch. The two mugs on the counter. The photo of me and Ethan from that beach trip we took in September. “Ethan moved out,” I said, catching his glance. “I figured,” Daniel said quietly. I walked toward the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of water. I needed something to hold. Something cold. “I guess you got what you wanted then,” I said. “No boyfriend in the picture. No distractions.” He followed me into the kitchen, stopping at the edge of the counter. “That’s not what I wanted.” I took a sip of water, letting it cool my throat. “Then what do you want, Mr. Wellington?” Silence again. This time it was longer. I could feel him thinking. I could feel him looking at me, like he was trying to find the right words. Or maybe trying to stop himself from saying the wrong ones. “I don’t know,” he said again. “You confuse me.” I turned to him. “You think I’m not confused too? You kissed me. Then you pulled away. Then you fucked me. Then you said it was a mistake. You show up at my house with a black short like it’s some apology gift. What exactly am I supposed to do with that?” He stepped closer. Not too close. Just enough. “I didn’t mean to hurt you.” “Too late.” He looked like he wanted to reach for me but didn’t. “You’re still wet,” he said suddenly. I blinked. “What?” He pointed to my chest. “From the shower. You’re dripping.” I looked down. A single drop rolled from my collarbone, down my stomach, and disappeared under the towel. Heat flushed my face, but I didn’t move. Daniel’s eyes followed it. Of course they did. “Do you want to stay for coffee?” I asked before I could stop myself. His gaze snapped back to mine. “Coffee?” “Yes. Coffee. You know… the brown thing that comes in mugs? You drink it when you’re tired or awkward or when you’re avoiding talking about something real?” Daniel gave a small, dry smile. “Sure. Coffee.” I turned and walked to the counter. I didn’t have fancy stuff—just an old coffee maker that groaned when it brewed—but it would do. I poured water in, added grounds, and pressed the button. It started hissing like it was angry to be woken up. Daniel stood behind me, quiet. “You can sit,” I said over my shoulder. He sat. The silence was weird now. Not heavy. Not sharp. Just awkward. Like we were two people pretending we hadn’t been naked together last night. Pretending this was normal. I grabbed two mugs and placed them on the counter. “I didn’t think I’d see you again after this morning,” I said softly. Daniel looked at me. “Neither did I.” “But here you are.” “Yeah.” The coffee finished brewing. I poured it and handed him a mug. “your coffee black?” I asked. He nodded. We stood there, sipping coffee like strangers. Like we didn’t know what the other tasted like. Like he hadn’t kissed my ribs and whispered things that still echoed in my chest. He put the mug down. “I’m sorry.” My eyes lifted. “I don’t know how to handle this,” he went on. “You were just a kid when I met you. And now—” “I’m not a kid now,” I cut in. “I know,” he said quickly. “Believe me, I know. Last night proved that.” The heat came back. But not the good kind. “Is that all I am to you now?” I asked. “Some grown-up moment you regret?” “No.” “Then what?” He opened his mouth, closed it, then finally said, “You were always Elliot’s best friend. I saw you grow up. You were part of my house, my world. Somewhere along the way, I started seeing you differently. I tried not to but it was hard And I didn’t know what to do with that.” I swallowed. Hard. “I never stopped thinking about you,” he added. “Even when I tried.” I set my mug down next to his. The counter felt cool under my fingertips. “Then why push me away?” “Because I don’t want to be the mistake you regret later.” I looked at him. Really looked. His eyes weren’t cold now. They were tired. Sad. “You weren’t a mistake,” I whispered. “You were the one thing I wanted that actually happened. Even if it was messy. Even if it ended the second it began.” Daniel stood slowly and walked around the counter. We were close again. Close enough that I could smell his cologne and the faint scent of my own skin still on his shirt. He reached up and touched my cheek. Light. Careful. “I don’t want to hurt you again.” “Then don’t,” I whispered. His hand dropped. “I should go.” Of course he should. That’s what he always does. Leave before it gets too real. He walked toward the door. “Daniel,” I called him by his first name before he opened it. He stopped. Turned. “You’re still confusing. You’re probably going to break me again.” “I know.” “But I still want to know what happens next.” He smiled. Just a little. The kind of smile that says me too. Then he opened the door, stepped out, and was gone.River’s POV“I want you badly,” I whispered, my hand still pressed against him.Daniel didn’t move.He stood in the doorway, breathing slow and tight, like he was weighing something dangerous.Then, finally, he spoke.“Inside,” he said. His voice was low. Firm. Final.I followed him in.The door shut behind me with a soft click.He didn’t touch me right away. He walked past me like nothing had happened, his back straight, shoulders tense. His voice stayed calm.“Shoes off.”I kicked them off quickly.He turned to me, eyes sharp now, darker than I’d ever seen them.“Jacket.”I peeled it off. My hands shook, but not from fear.From the heat.The need.I dropped it to the floor without thinking.Daniel stepped close. His hand came up, brushing the side of my face—not soft, but slow. His thumb dragged across my lower lip, and I trembled under the weight of his stare.“You’ve been thinking about this,” he said.I nodded.“Say it.”“I’ve been thinking about this. About you. For years.”His
River’s POV“Drink first. Questions later.” Noah handed me a red cup when I walked in.Lights flashed from the ceiling. The music was bass-heavy and fast. People laughed and shouted and danced like none of them had early morning classes tomorrow. The party was louder than I expected.I wasn’t even sure whose apartment this was.“Drink beautiful” “Don’t call me beautiful,” I said, taking the cup anyway.He threw an arm around my shoulder. “Drink up. Tonight we forget everything.”I didn’t ask what was in it. I just drank.It burned a little going down, but it didn’t take long before the heat spread through my chest, then my arms, then my head.Someone passed me a joint later, and I took a hit because it felt easier than saying no.Now I was warm and light and floating through this party like I didn’t have a heartache tucked deep in my chest.Noah was spinning in circles near the couch, laughing about something. I sat on the floor, leaning against the arm of the couch, another cup in m
Elliot’s POVLuciana was sitting in the passenger seat, legs tucked under her, sipping the last of her morning coffee. Her curls were tied back in a loose bun, and the soft morning light made her skin glow. We had music playing low from the car speakers—some calm acoustic playlist she liked. I didn’t mind it. It fit the mood.“I’ll be back in five,” I said, grabbing my jacket from the back seat.Luciana glanced at me, one brow raised. “Six.”I laughed. “I’m just letting him know we’re driving out today. It’s not a whole conversation.”She leaned her head against the headrest. “Sure. I’ll still be here when you get back. Me and my sad little coffee.”“Want a refill?”“Only if you want to stop at a gas station every thirty minutes.”I held my hands up. “Good point.”The building wasn’t far. Just a short walk across the lot and up the steps. Daniel—my dad—had his office on the second floor of the admin wing. Third door on the left. Always the same.The hallway smelled like old paper and
River’s POVThe sun came up like it always did.Too bright. Too fast. Too warm for how cold I felt inside.I didn’t sleep. I rolled from one side of the bed to the other, then to the couch, and then back again. Every hour passed slowly and heavy, like my bones had turned to stone.By the time I actually got up, my head felt foggy and my chest tight. My reflection looked like I’d fought a pillow and lost—hair a mess, eyes dull, skin pale in a way that reminded me of winter mornings.I didn’t bother fixing much. I pulled on jeans and a black T-shirt. Threw my grey hoodie over it. No cologne, no fuss. I didn’t feel like pretending today.I made toast and didn’t eat it. Brushed my teeth. Packed my bag. Left the house.The campus was already buzzing when I got there.People laughed in groups near the coffee truck. Someone played acoustic guitar near the big oak tree. Girls passed flyers for something about open mic night, and two guys walked by loudly debating a Marvel theory.Everything l
Daniel’s POV The airport was loud like it always was. Horns. Engines. Rolling suitcases. A baby crying in the distance. The automatic doors opened and closed every few seconds, letting in cold air from outside. I stood beside the car, leaning on the door with my hands in my coat pockets. My eyes moved through the crowd. People rushed by—some excited, some tired, all heading somewhere. Then I saw him. Elliot. He walked through the doors with a suitcase dragging behind him and a wide grin on his face. He looked older than when I saw him last. Taller maybe. Or maybe just more grown-up. But he wasn’t alone. Beside him was a girl. She was small and soft-looking. Her black curls bounced gently as she walked. She wore a pale green coat that looked too thin for the weather, but she didn’t seem cold. Her smile was quiet. Her eyes were dark and warm. She didn’t talk much as they walked, but she looked around with curiosity, like everything was worth noticing. They reached me, and Ellio
River’s POVI was lying on the couch, scrolling through my phone. My thumb hovered over Grindr for a long second before I tapped it open.There he was.GlazedDonut69.Still online.Still flirty.GlazedDonut69: So? You wanna come over? I got wine, candles, and absolutely no expectations.TwinkSpiceLatte: Candles? What is this, The Bachelor?GlazedDonut69: Only if you give me the final rose.I smiled. It wasn’t a real smile, but it was close enough.I stared at the screen for a full minute. Then I typed:TwinkSpiceLatte: Send your address. I’ll be there in 20.The second I sent it, my heart did a weird thing in my chest. Not panic. Not excitement either. Just a tight little squeeze like are you really doing this?I was.I needed to feel something. Even if it wasn’t real.Even if it didn’t last.Even if it made me feel worse after.He lived in a small apartment not far from the university. I changed into a pair of jeans, a clean shirt, and sprayed cologne even though I wasn’t sure why.I
River’s POVI was halfway through wiping down the kitchen counter again, when my phone buzzed.Noah: soccer practice. 5pm. community field. don’t make that “I’m busy being sad and hot” excuse.I rolled my eyes and dropped the sponge into the sink.Me? Sad and hot?Well. Maybe just sad.The house was too quiet. Like it knew Ethan was gone.I looked around. The bookshelf was missing his comic book collection. The kitchen didn’t smell like his awful burnt popcorn. Even the couch cushion he always sat on had a weird dent I couldn’t fluff away.I had cleaned everything twice already. Maybe three times. The dishes. The bathroom mirror. I even dusted the top of the fridge. I’d never done that in my life.I sighed and leaned against the counter.There wasn’t anything left to clean.And nothing left to say.I walked into the living room. That one photo frame still sat on the shelf. The one from the beach last fall—me and Ethan, both sunburnt and smiling. I stared at it for a long time, thumb b
River’s POV I opened the door. And there he was. Daniel Wellington. Standing on my front step like this was something normal. Like we weren’t a complete mess. Like he hadn’t called what we did last night a mistake and watched me walk out without a blink. He held something in his hand. A black short. Mine. I blinked, still wet from the shower, towel wrapped around my hips, water dripping down my back. My hair was sticking to my forehead. I was half-naked. And barefoot. Of course. “Really?” I asked. Daniel lifted the short like it was some kind of peace offering. “You left this.” “That couldn’t wait until tomorrow?” He stared at me for a second. “You left it on my bedroom floor.” The way he said that, calm, sharp, a little too direct, made my stomach twist. I stepped back without saying anything and left the door open. If he was going to come in, let him. If not, let the breeze slam the door on him. He stepped inside. Just like that. Like it meant nothing. I turned and wa
River’s POVThe sun was already up when I opened my eyes.But I didn’t feel rested.I didn’t even remember falling asleep.The sheets were warm around me, but my chest felt cold. Empty.Daniel wasn’t in bed anymore. I could hear movement from somewhere else in the house — the quiet clink of a cup, the soft sound of water from the kitchen sink.I stared at the ceiling, trying to feel something.Anything.But I felt confused.Everything from last night rushed back like a wave crashing into me. His touch. His mouth. His hands on my skin. The way we didn’t speak when it was over. The way he looked at me like I was something he shouldn’t want.I sat up slowly, wrapping the sheet around my waist.I didn’t know what I was supposed to say now.“Thanks for the sex?”“Sorry we crossed every line?”“Should we act like strangers again?”I hated how quiet it was.Like we were both afraid to face it.Like silence would make it disappear.I got up and pulled on my clothes from the night before. My h