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t h i r t y : it's time
“Iced Matcha Latte for Gen,” Sarah calls.
I didn’t even know what Matcha was. I just googled it while waiting for my drink, but I felt like I needed a change. I’m not the Caramel Macchiato Genevieve anymore. It’s weird to say, but it’s true.
Crushed tea leaves.
The color puts me off, but I’ll try it. I’ve already invested $4.50 into the new me.
And Sarah didn’t even add a demeaning nickname to my cup. Progress?
I think she moved onto a new victim to torment. I don’t have any fight left in me.
I sip the drink slowly, and it’s pleasantly sweet. A little green tasting… don’t ask. It tastes like nature, but not in a gross way. Starting up the car, I head into the city.
Approaching the office building that I had a key to just a few months ago, I sigh. I hate awkward interactions, but it’s time. I buzz the gate, stating my name. I was skeptical about if they would remember me, but the guard let me right in.
I park in my usual
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