LOGINCHAPTER FIFTY EIGHTPOV: MarcusSix months.Six months of Sundays.Six months of Catherine at the table learning what the table was. Not being told — she’d been told before she came the first time and she’d understood before she sat down. Learning in the other way. The accumulative way. The way you learned things that mattered by being present for them over time.She’d been present.Every Sunday.Without fail.She brought something different every time. Not always food — sometimes a specific tea she’d found. A book she thought Zara would like. A wooden thing for Marcus James that had arrived in a bag with no ceremony and which he had assessed for three minutes and then accepted into the rotation of wooden things with the expression.The rosemary was still on the windowsill.Had been there six months.The kitchen smelled like something was about to happen.Always.She was not like anyone he’d been with before.He’d been with people. Not many — he hadn’t been a person who moved through
CHAPTER FIFTY SEVENPOV: SandyShe noticed on Wednesday.Marcus came for dinner on Wednesdays sometimes. Not always. When he came on Wednesdays it was usually because something was happening that he was processing through proximity and food. He didn’t say what the something was. He just appeared and ate and talked about things adjacent to the something and eventually went home.She’d been watching this pattern since she was old enough to watch patterns.Wednesday this week he came and he was different.Not obviously different. Her parents didn’t notice. Marcus James was two and a half and was at the stage of noticing things at three in the morning and not noticing things that were in front of him, so he didn’t notice.But Sandy noticed.She noticed because Marcus was slightly too loud. Marcus was always loud but this was the performative loud of someone who was managing something rather than the natural loud of someone simply being themselves.She noticed because he kept checking his
CHAPTER FIFTY SIXPOV: ZaraThey found it in May.Not dramatically. Not the way houses appeared in films — the door opening and the light and the knowing immediately. It took six weeks of looking and seven viewings and two near-misses and one house they’d almost convinced themselves into before Sandy had stood in the kitchen and said no with the considered expression and they’d both known she was right.The seventh one.Semi-detached. A quiet street in Hackney. A garden that needed work. A kitchen that was larger than Marcus’s by exactly enough. A room for Sandy with a south-facing window. A room for Marcus James with a north-facing window that got the specific grey morning light he’d been assessed at. A room that could be an office. A room that could be other things.A dining room with space for a bigger table.They walked through it twice on the day.Sandy was last to come downstairs.She’d been upstairs for seven minutes.She appeared at the bottom of the stairs.Looked at them.“Y
CHAPTER FIFTY FIVEPOV: MarcusHe’d known for two months.Not because they’d told him. Because he paid attention and because some things announced themselves before anyone said them out loud. The way Zara had been looking at the house lately — the specific look of someone measuring something. The way Damon had been quiet in a different register than his usual quiet. The way Sandy had started keeping her drawings in stacks instead of spreading them across the table because there was no longer enough table for the spreading.He’d known.He’d been waiting for them to tell him.He’d been cooking for two months while knowing.Sunday.After dinner.Zara’s face when she looked at him said now.He put the kettle on.Made tea.Brought it to the table.Sat.Looked at them.“Tell me,” he said.Zara looked at Damon.Damon looked at Marcus.“We’ve been thinking about moving,” Zara said.Marcus looked at his tea.He’d rehearsed this moment.Not dramatically. Just, he’d thought about what he’d say.
CHAPTER FIFTY FOUR POV: Damon The drive home was long. Five hours. Edinburgh to London on a Saturday in March with two children in the back and Marcus in the front passenger seat because Marcus had decided this was his seat and had been in it since the first family road trip and had never vacated the position. Sandy was reading. Marcus James was asleep with the bear. Rosie was looking out the window. He drove. Zara was in the middle row with the children. He could see her in the rearview mirror occasionally reading something on her phone, watching the road, the specific quality of her presence that had been beside him for seven years and that he still noticed every time. The way it should be. The way he intended it to stay. Somewhere past Newcastle. Sandy put her book down. Looked at Rosie. “You’re thinking,” Sandy said. “I’m always thinking,” Rosie said. “About the building,” Sandy said. “Yes,” Rosie said. “What about it,” Sandy said. Rosie looked out the window.
CHAPTER FIFTY THREE POV: Rosie She’d been drawing the building for a year. From the photograph on Sandy’s fridge. From the pictures Isla sent. From the architectural drawings Sandy had shown her that Isla had emailed specifically because Sandy had asked specifically and Isla had said yes immediately. She had twelve drawings of it. Different angles. Different light. Different details focused on — the entrance, the windows, the plaque, the relationship between the old stone and the new glass panels Isla had added to the east side. She knew the building better than most buildings she’d visited. She hadn’t visited this one. Until today. Edinburgh by train. She’d been on trains before. To see her nan in Bristol. To London once with school. But this train felt different because the destination was different. Because the destination had been living in her folder for a year and was about to stop being drawings and start being real. She sat with Sandy. Sandy was reading. Sandy read







