CHAPTER 4

Life goes on, it won't stop just because you're sad or broken. At kahit nasasaktan ako, nagpatuloy parin ako.

I've never been like this, hindi ako kailanman naghabol, hindi ako naghabol kasi lahat ng gusto ko madali ko lang nakukuha kung nanaisin ko.

Kayang kaya kong magpaikot ng isang tao para sa sarili kong kasiyahan.

Pero pagdating kay Luhennce, handa akong maging sakim. Para sa kaniya, handa akong maging tanga.

"Miss Amanda?"

"Yes?"

"Meeting at 3 o'clock miss."

"Thanks!"  I nodded at her before fixing my dress.

Tiningnan ko ang oras at ilang minuto nalang ang natitira at magsisimula na ang meeting ko. Kailangan ko ng matapos, ng makaalis agad ako at magawa na ang paulit ulit kong gustong gawin.

The meeting lasted for almost one and half hour. After that ay nagmadali na akong umalis, letting my secretary handle things for me. I'll pay her double for that.

I received a message from my tracker, nasa school pa si Luhenn. Good thing, maaabutan ko ang paglabas niya. Silly Amanda, its becoming your habit to see his annoyed face. Tanggap ko na 'yon kesa nung limang taon na kahit anino niya, hindi ko nakita.

To hun:

Hey! Can we go out for a coffee after your class?

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Just 30 mins, my treat.

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Okay, 20 minutes? Just a coffee nearby .

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10 minutes? Madali lang promise.

Sunod sunod ang text messages ko sa kaniya, pero kahit isa'y wala siyang nireplayan. Nakakainis! Kahit manlang sana magreply siya ng ayaw niya!

I tried calling him but he didn't picked up. Mabilis akong nagmaneho paputang Dastan. With my sunglasses on, I walked out of my car and leaned on it, waiting to see him. Pinagtitinginan na ako ng mga estudyante, but that doesn't bother me...I'm busy looking for my man.

My heart almost jump when I saw him, hands on his pocket...wearing his uniform as a professor. He looks really hot with his glasses. Some girls like guys who completely have that badass styles, but me...Luhennce is my totally type. Serious, bookworm, smart and charismatic.

The smile on my face vanished, as my brows shut. My lips pursed as I watched him slightly let out a smile while talking to someone. I might accept it if he's with Mitsuika, but he's not.

I guess that woman he's having a good time talking to, is one of the faculty.

She looks infatuated with Luhennce and that is not a good idea, as much as possible...I don't want anyone to take him away from me.

Mabilis akong naglakad para harangan silang dalawa. Ang ngiti sa labi ng babae, ay unti-unting mawala ng mapansin niyang nakaharang ako sa kanila. Luhennce eyes settled on me and his calm face becomes tensed as his eyes glared at me.

"Hi hun! Have you forget what we talked about?" Nilingon ko naman ang babae at mukhang napapahiya na siya sa akin.

"Who is she? A friend? Or another woman, you wanna bet at. She's not even your type."

"Amanda," mariin at nagbabantang suway ni Luhennce sa akin, pero tinaasan ko lamang siya ng kilay at nilingon muli ang babae.

"A-I have to g-go Luhennce..." Mabilis na itong tumalikod and when luhennce's about to chase after her, I immediately grab his hand to stop him.

"What the fuck are you doing Amanda?!"

"What? I am just making her know that you're mine."

"I am not yours Amanda!"

"I owned you Luhennce." Mariin na sabi ko.

"You owned me yes! But it was all in the past now! I am not yours anymore so move on!"

"You're still mine Luhennce, all mine...and you can't just tell me about moving on over you cause I won't. You'll not gonna like it if you keep on pushing me away...I can be a bitch you always thought I am." Humalukipkip ako sa harapan niya at matapang siyang hinarap, nanghahamon at naniniguro na kayang kaya kong gawin lahat ng gusto ko.

Things will go on my way Luhennce, if you want to make things hard for me...I'll find way to make it easier.

He ruffles his hair out of frustration. It

"Now you sounds like you're going to blackmail me? That's too cliche Amanda! Stop with your childish acts and accept whatever shit happened between us! You ruined us! So better shut the fuck up and leave me the fuck alone!" I was stiffed the moment he was throwing me those words while pointing me. Gigil na gigil siya sa akin ngunit hindi ako masyadong nagpatinag. He was about to leave me when I made him stop without even moving.

"To blackmail you isn't included on my plan on getting you back Luhennce...but if you'll keep pushing me away, you know how cruel I can be. And when I becomes cruel, everyone around you will suffer on my wrath."

This whole conversation makes me shattered millionth times. Kahit anong tapang at kasamaan ang ipakita ko sa kaniya ngayon, deep inside me I was hurt, in pain and suffering.

"Stop it Amanda, we're over! Gaano ba kahirap intindihin 'yon?"

"Yes we were, but I am here to fix everything!  I want you back, all I want  is a chance to prove myself to you. Just one chance to fix what I've ruined. I know you still love me, you're just mad Luhennce...so please...I am begging you, please give me a chance. Don't leave me again, like how you left me without knowing my reason." Napayuko na ako, I don't want him to see my eyes. I never cried in front of him. Siguro kung may pagkakataon na nakita niya akong umiyak? Noong lasing ako. 

"Do whatever you wanted to do, you want to ruin me? To show me how cruel you are? Go on, I am so full of your bullshits that I am starting to get used to it. Go on Amanda! The floor is all yours, I am not even bothered." Pagkasabi niya noon ay mabilis siya naglakad papalayo at lumapit sa natitiyak ko'y kotse niya.

Galit na galit akong pinanood siyang magmaneho palayo. My hands fisted as I stomped my feet on the ground because of irritation. Ramdam ko ang pangingilid ng luha ko kaya agad kong sinuot ang sunglasses ko to hide it.

I pursed my lips as my jaw tightened.

Let's see how long could you take Luhennce. Kung hindi kita makuha sa pakiusapan, kukunin kita sa paraang hinding hindi mo na mahihindian.

I am not called  bitch for nothing.

Malas ng mga babaeng lalapit at aakit sa'yo.