Right before the teacher comes into the class, he's about to say whatever he was gonna say, and I make sure not to break eye contact with him. He now is by my side definitely knowing that there's something different about the way I carry myself. And it's all about the confidence. It's all about the fact that I've been through enough to not get agitated by school boys, or whatever they think they've got going on. They do not in any sort of way, make me feel less of what I am. I feel powerful and just wish that I felt more of this way when I'm amidst the pack members, based on the rest of the pack members treat me like I'm some scallywag some opposition of course, as usual, and always slide back.I always slumped my shoulders and allow them to belittle me. If I could have a spark off his confidence while being in the midst of Dane.I will surely have something to say out loud to that arrogance if his without popping my head in between, it will do great for my esteem. I wish for that
At this point in time I am angry, every bit of my body, mind and flesh is filled with anger and I definitely want to ruin everything that stands in my way. I'm holding onto my fist so tightly because I feel as if I could drag down the pillars of the school and make it fall down to pieces. I'm holding my anger in so bad, so bad that I am trying to tell myself that it did not have to turn into our work. And I could control myself and control the way I reciprocate anger and things that affect me. I'm telling myself all of these amazing things that I do not even care to hear because all I want to see is something horrible happen to know other than the one who keeps doing things to hurt me and make me angry. Does he have no sense at all? He continues to make everything so upsetting to me. And at this point, I want to break everything. I close my eyes immediately and as I'm closing my eyes, I begin to open them slowly. The moment it opens, Georgina walk in that moment and she cares wit
All because of what has happened, the school is shut down and everyone is leaving for the day. I cannot believe that I have been sent on for school and I am already preparing to head back home. I've already made up my mind to go to go back with Georgina since I've already told Dane to come pick me back by three. I know I should definitely tell him all the change in plans because of his rule be but if I definitely possess the sort of power that I think I possess, then I need space.I don’t care what they anyone tells me based in n legend of the pack members, nor anything they have to say to me. I definitely am something bigger than any of them can imagine. And I should rule them with an iron fist. Yes, I know that sounds crazy, like literally iron Fist. This isn't something that should be said but at this moment. I know there is no reason no reason within my fingers why I should accept what they think I should act like. The way they talk to me and look down upon me. I don't have t
There it is. I see Dane’s car pulling up and it's right in front of Georgina's house. I'm tighten my hands as I watch him pull out of the car and immediately, he begins to head towards me. I will not lie there is fear on my face because I'm not sure what he's about to do. I don't know whether he's about to scold me whether he is about to ban me for life. I'm supposed to stand on my feet in confidence and try to show him that he cannot be be me around them not a child. And he should tell what to do and what not to do. I can see the fine lines of anger on his forehead as he walks towards me and pulls me me with one of his strong hands without even giving me time to even speak or say anything for my own aid. He drags me out from Georgina's front porch and pulls me into the car. He slams the door and enters into the car. I literally am waiting for him to say a word because if he is angry, he should say all of it but then he doesn't say a word. He doesn't show anything too serious abo
My heart is already beating. I don't know why but the moment I open my eyes and look onto the ceiling I just don't want to get out of i.And that there is no need for me to let out another bit of my energy because I've come so far to be disappointed. And even when I feel as if I've struck something, something that looks like healing. It isn't. Oftentimes, I feel so confident like I'm at 95% but when but when in reality of exposes where I am comes, it back to me. I feel alone. “Tired, frustrated.” Words cannot express how I feel at this moment. There is a slight knock at the door when I'm busy in my morning thoughts that wish to cripple me. At least that is what they're good for. I raise myself up from the bed and push the blankets away. I do not bother to change into something the night before because of how horrible I feel. I'm just in the same position as I head to the door and I open it. For some reasons, I am not surprised by the person standing right in front of me. He look
He lets me go the moment he sees what I have turned to. I can already guess what he has seen.I have been so stupid with myself, vulnerable in front of me, but I did not think that my powers will show up once again, while I'm busy in act which it is no as I expected. It just happened. It looks to me. There's no word that has escaped from his mouth. And I bet because he's trying to understand what the hell I am and why I am the way I am. I cannot even begin to explain what I think it is. I wonder if it is fear or shock that is in his eyes as he looks at me. Then, he takes his finger slowly lifts it up to my face and touches to glow on my forehead. It touches it and there is this look in his eyes that gives off the hair of infatuation of admiration and just surprised of what he's saying it makes it feel as if what he's seeing right now is splendid.“It is beautiful. “And I'm looking short of it. He then takes a look into my eyes. I don't think I'm aware of I say to him, and this is
“When you are ready to talk about what that means to you, then maybe I will be ready too.“To talk about what we mean to each other and why you think we must stay together to be attracted to one another.”I'm not saying we have to be attracted to one another. “I'm just trying to activate…” He says, and I stop him from speaking.Activate, whatever! I really don't care what word you use to put it in. It is the same thing that you think you even gave a right to. It may not matter to you because you're a guy or maybe it's a guy code or whatsoever but I really do value myself. “It may not seem so because I've tried to kill myself on many occasions, but I love myself so much that I will not watch myself.”“Go, hop and jump around life alone doing god knows what just to survive.” “So, I'm just going to say to you I do not trust this thing that you think is going to set me apart from others.”“Yes, even after all of these they have shown me I don't know what to believe.” I say to him and I
So, after listening to their conversation for about a minute, I can see that there is silence between the both of them and at this point, they're both waiting for the next person to say the wrong thing. And neither of them wants to be the one who's bold enough to put what they feel in their mind out there. I believe it is time they deserve privacy and I should have given it since the very beginning of their conversation. In fact, it feels like Elena hates me and has been pretending. I simply cannot blame her for pretending to like me. I mean, I don't even know myself enough to like myself. So, hoping that someone else is able to manage my presence here is unbelievable. I can understand it. I've come here and I've stolen what used to be a hers and honestly it is an impeccable thought. How could I think so? I wonder to myself. Am I really capable of taking something that belongs to someone else? Especially when all the things I've ever wanted has never come to me? It is such