I get shown the place where I'm supposed to rest after the elongated journey and at least, I am now put in the same place with Gina and it is good enough. I think to myself as we enter into the connecting surroundings and we're still blinded by the intricate look of this place, but then I will never forget what I saw when I was put in the center of that red circle. I definitely know what I saw. I didn’t know I would feel that familiarity that crawled around the moment I saw that is something I would never forget and in such a short while.I'm definitely not in my best right now, because I feel as if it has just moved away than I think it does. And the more I realize that this is a lot more than I think it is, I would understand. I don't even know how to go about it. It's just crazy right now. I think to myself, what exactly do I have in common with this place here?Where exactly in my memory did it show that I may have acquaintances or connection to this place? Did my parents come
Right before Irish and I can finish having a conversation. Rose steps in and she takes me away to speak to me further and I'm walking side by side with her as she takes me into another part of a place I'd never seen before. And then she is quiet. She looks over at me and it’s like she has a lot to say, there is a smile upon her face. But she hasn't said anything yet. I have to know. Michael told me that he told me that you were able to activate your powers by sleeping with Dane. Is there anything that ties you put him right now? She says to me and of course that question does catches me off guard. I wasn't expecting it. But and I'm so angry to feel anything for Dane right now. I'm so angry. I know I have to fight him in whatever circumstance I will deal with without even thinking twice. He made me feel as if I was a prisoner to him. Yes, maybe there was some form of attraction or whatsoever but I'll never forgive him for not allowing me to have a say over what I wanted to do. I a
After I have practiced and trained with Rose, I head out of the training vicinity to go and take my shower. I'm really tired. I feel sore at every part of my body and I don't even know how to tell or complain that I'm tired. Like, I cannot be tired about this. What is the essence of being tired when everything I'm doing right now is because of myself? If I stop fighting, and I give up because since I have done I fought to my own disadvantage, when I think about everything.I realize everything has turned very fast into something unusual. It leads to time. I was quite simple about what I had to do and what my future entailed. But right now I see that is definitely something else. I cannot continue to pretend as if it wasn't important, or it wasn't a hell of a job. It is a really great job I'm I'm definitely going to do my best because that is what it consists of. So, as I get into the shower and turn it on, I let the water slide from my hair and down to my body. The runs down from e
My shoulders are burning in anger and I feel every single pain literally eating up my skin. I grunt, not been able to hold my voice any longer as I scream and breathe hardly.I do not want Dane to come and find me in this current situation, I don't need him and I do not want to have make him think that I need him. It is enough that I am already going through this pain, but to know that he is here is. This something else that I do not want to play with. I'm tired of feeling this way and I'm tired of thinking like this. I stand on my feet even when Gina is trying her best to put me in a single position. She looks at me and knows that I am going through. I will not allow myself to look like a failure in front of him. I don't even care what he thinks about me in this moment. At this point, I think I should not even come close to him.The moment I get on my feet is the moment I hear the incoming sound of people. I can already tell that he is on his way. I can sense it. It is like, the w
I don't know what to say right now after what I've just heard from him Dane.The Dane I'm speaking to is the same one never tells me what he feels and never speaks on his mind.I'm having a hard time trying to understand if this is real aa I look at him wondering he could say it.I wonder to myself but there is no way I can find out if this is how he really feels, except by the fact that he's really saying it. I can't believe you. I say to him even when I decided I wasn't going to say anything to him. I don't know how the word escaped from my lips. But I've said it and it's out.“I'm not lying to you.” I will not force you to understand but I was carrying many responsibility upon my shoulders and if if I begin to make provision for you, even after the loss my pack.I would seem inadequate for the role that I am to lead.“I know it's it's horrible to understand this, but I had to be harsh to you.” I had to be that way because that is the only way I could be a role model. And they say
I'm fuming when I storm back into the area where Dane is not present. Rose followed me and she can definitely see that I am pissed off. She probably knows how I feel right now, even if I don't know how to put it into words. And I don't think anyone will be able to understand what Danes presence is actually doing to me. He stops me from thinking rationally and do I not want that. It makes me just want to succumb to the feeling of listening to what he tells me and listening to what he thinks is right and what he thinks is wrong. And I've had enough of that. I've had enough of being told what to do and when to do it. It's a crippling feeling that I do not want to ever feel anymore. Also. i do not care how long he stays here why he needs to be here anyway. All I know is that this situation wasn't easing. At this moment, I take time and just kind of fight with my emotions. I just close my eyes, trying to hold myself because I do not want to be out of control just for the sole reason o
Dane slowly begins to walk to her. And when she sees his facial appearances. Finally, in delight Igasp when I see him and you were taller, longer with him. I can sense the aura of his presence. I know everything that has to do with him. And time and time again. I always make myself believe that he doesn't have such an entitlement in my life. I take my eyes away, try my best not to look like I am. In or that is right here with me. But it has happened already. “Maria.” He says to me, I've heard him say my name before but this time it sounds as if it's meant to be it's carrying an element of something that I cannot really explain. I wonder what is behind it? Yes, I say to him even when? A time ago I was just angry with him. I'm tired of him. “Finally, now, I hope I can talk to you.” He says and I wonder how long he has been trying to talk to me because of how he looks around hoping that there's nobody to stop us from speaking together. I also wonder if I want to listen to him. The
If loving you means I have to look at you every day and remember how much it cost? My brother's left this world and I would never see him again. So maybe you did not remember that Maria. Or maybe you forgot.Maybe you felt it's inconsequential to you. But it's not inconsequential to me. I've lost enough I've really lost enough. I do not deserve to lose any more person in my life, especially you. “You are the boundary to all of this when I look at you.” I think about how it is an abomination to be in love with you.Don’t you see that you are my limit? Do you understand it now? Should I continue to make you understand how critical my position is? He says to me and I do understand it now. “I understand why he had to be away from you understand what it meant.” Yes, I did make it very hard to do be a part of his life. Knowingly or unknowingly everything that has happened now. He really doesn't deserve it but it has already happened.It is insane how he is shedding more lights to the obvi