My shoulders are burning in anger and I feel every single pain literally eating up my skin. I grunt, not been able to hold my voice any longer as I scream and breathe hardly.I do not want Dane to come and find me in this current situation, I don't need him and I do not want to have make him think that I need him. It is enough that I am already going through this pain, but to know that he is here is. This something else that I do not want to play with. I'm tired of feeling this way and I'm tired of thinking like this. I stand on my feet even when Gina is trying her best to put me in a single position. She looks at me and knows that I am going through. I will not allow myself to look like a failure in front of him. I don't even care what he thinks about me in this moment. At this point, I think I should not even come close to him.The moment I get on my feet is the moment I hear the incoming sound of people. I can already tell that he is on his way. I can sense it. It is like, the w
I don't know what to say right now after what I've just heard from him Dane.The Dane I'm speaking to is the same one never tells me what he feels and never speaks on his mind.I'm having a hard time trying to understand if this is real aa I look at him wondering he could say it.I wonder to myself but there is no way I can find out if this is how he really feels, except by the fact that he's really saying it. I can't believe you. I say to him even when I decided I wasn't going to say anything to him. I don't know how the word escaped from my lips. But I've said it and it's out.“I'm not lying to you.” I will not force you to understand but I was carrying many responsibility upon my shoulders and if if I begin to make provision for you, even after the loss my pack.I would seem inadequate for the role that I am to lead.“I know it's it's horrible to understand this, but I had to be harsh to you.” I had to be that way because that is the only way I could be a role model. And they say
I'm fuming when I storm back into the area where Dane is not present. Rose followed me and she can definitely see that I am pissed off. She probably knows how I feel right now, even if I don't know how to put it into words. And I don't think anyone will be able to understand what Danes presence is actually doing to me. He stops me from thinking rationally and do I not want that. It makes me just want to succumb to the feeling of listening to what he tells me and listening to what he thinks is right and what he thinks is wrong. And I've had enough of that. I've had enough of being told what to do and when to do it. It's a crippling feeling that I do not want to ever feel anymore. Also. i do not care how long he stays here why he needs to be here anyway. All I know is that this situation wasn't easing. At this moment, I take time and just kind of fight with my emotions. I just close my eyes, trying to hold myself because I do not want to be out of control just for the sole reason o
Dane slowly begins to walk to her. And when she sees his facial appearances. Finally, in delight Igasp when I see him and you were taller, longer with him. I can sense the aura of his presence. I know everything that has to do with him. And time and time again. I always make myself believe that he doesn't have such an entitlement in my life. I take my eyes away, try my best not to look like I am. In or that is right here with me. But it has happened already. “Maria.” He says to me, I've heard him say my name before but this time it sounds as if it's meant to be it's carrying an element of something that I cannot really explain. I wonder what is behind it? Yes, I say to him even when? A time ago I was just angry with him. I'm tired of him. “Finally, now, I hope I can talk to you.” He says and I wonder how long he has been trying to talk to me because of how he looks around hoping that there's nobody to stop us from speaking together. I also wonder if I want to listen to him. The
If loving you means I have to look at you every day and remember how much it cost? My brother's left this world and I would never see him again. So maybe you did not remember that Maria. Or maybe you forgot.Maybe you felt it's inconsequential to you. But it's not inconsequential to me. I've lost enough I've really lost enough. I do not deserve to lose any more person in my life, especially you. “You are the boundary to all of this when I look at you.” I think about how it is an abomination to be in love with you.Don’t you see that you are my limit? Do you understand it now? Should I continue to make you understand how critical my position is? He says to me and I do understand it now. “I understand why he had to be away from you understand what it meant.” Yes, I did make it very hard to do be a part of his life. Knowingly or unknowingly everything that has happened now. He really doesn't deserve it but it has already happened.It is insane how he is shedding more lights to the obvi
He pushes me to the wall till I have nowhere to go and the kiss deepens. Carefully, his hands grabs my waist and my chest comes in contact with his body. Dane puts his hands over my chin and makes me gaze at him. I missed you. He says and I wonder if I heard the right thing. Is it true? I am speechless and I do not have an answer for him right now. You did? I say to him and he steps away from me when he sees my injury. "Your arm." He says and his attention drifts to it. "It's healing." I reply and wonder why my voice is so low even when I used to feel intense anger for him. "It's my fault." He says to me and look at my eyes. It's not your fault. I say to him and we both hear incoming footsteps coming. Come. He says and grabs my hands to go to another place. “I'm not sure of where it takes me to as he holds my hand, but I know that no one is there.” It is just us staring at each other and longing to have another kiss with one another. Right before he kisses me so, he gazes in
I and Dane get into the room where everyone is busy socializing, and I can see Rose and Michael immediately stare at me. Georgina, on the other hand as a mouth open as they see me and him walk together into the room. I do my best to take my face away from them because they will surely make it seem as if I've made such a abominable thing. I mean, I understood that I was angry at him. And I said a lot about well that was true. I definitely was angry. at him. But right now we are both standing at a good place and I will not continue to hold on to the way I felt earlier because that has changed. It is not the way I feel right now anymore for some reasons, I can even hear the way Georgina is giggling as we walk towards them. I take a look at Dane and I can see how dominating his eyes are.It did not matter how many strong people were available in a room. The only thing that mattered was that is too strongly and proudly and he did it in the most admirable way ever wherever you went to.
I continued to train with Rose and remembering what she told me the last time and I take this more passionately than I've ever done before. At this point, I'm taking this training passionately because there's just an uplift and from what I used to know about myself, and what I know now. I take it very seriously, the fact that I have never had a shoulder to support me and the second fact is that I've just seen a piece of my parent and it gives me such awareness that I've never once had before. And I am focused on getting revenge and safeguarding everyone. Everyone that needs to be safeguarded, no matter. What do I know about the situation? That is all that mattered, right? So, I have to train and become stronger. After training for six hours, I head out of training room to clean myself up.