The impact 2

I heard voices that caused me to swim in and out of consciousness.

I opened my eyes to blinding bright lights, then immediately closed them. Only to have someone forcing both my eyelids open to shine lights in them.

I tried to push the person away, but my hands and body overall felt heavy.

I could hear intangible voices, then the feeling of being moved.

I didn't feel like myself. It felt as if I was floating.

I looked around the room to see where I was, then I remembered.

Nick, oh God Nick.

I tried to talk, to ask for him, only to find that a tube of some sort was in my mouth. One which wasn't there when I just came to the hospital.

Tears burnt my eyes as I thought of the worst.

'Like, why do I have a tube down my throat?'

'Was Nick ok?'

I closed my eyes again, willing my tears to stop, telling myself that Nick was ok, he had to be ok.

He can't just leave me like this. I can't lose him, not now.

He's my sanity. I can't go through this again.

Why does life have to be this cruel to me?