chapter 1

I'm doing it again. Yep, I am totally in my room thinking about my explosive night with Skinner...

"Come here, baby." He groaned jerking off sitting on my bed. I slowly walk to him and he grabs my hand making me jerk him off his hand over mine. "Just like that, fuck." He looks up at me and let's go of my hand putting his hands in my hair kissing me. I step back pulling my hands up.

"I don't know what I am doing right now." I back track all the way back to the door. "What are we doing?" I ask and I try to process everything that just happened in the last several minutes.

"You're in your head." He stood up not caring he is naked and walks to me, he reaches out closing the door behind me and then pins me there with his forearm to my throat. He insisted on driving me home and when I was opening my door, I kissed him and we made out and I stripped him as we walked back here. "Get out of it." He orders, then he kisses me once more.

My whole body lights up under his touch he pulls his forearm off my throat and pulls my hair deepening the kiss. I wrap my hands around his neck and feel his muscles against my hand, he thrusts his front into me making me gasp. He slowly pulls away us both breathing heavily and I stare into his brown eyes.

"Don't think, not tonight," He shakes his head and after getting what he means I nod. He puts both of his hands by either side of my head and I feel his breath against my neck and my breathing hitches. "I bet you taste so good." He whispers then he picks me up making me wrap my legs around his waist.

He starts kissing me and I easily melt into him and I moan feeling his erection pressing against my center.

"Taylor!" I hear a yell startling me from my day dream. I get up off my bean bag with my book I was not reading in my hand, I throw it onto my bed and leave the room. Emma lives with me now; we go to the club together on weekends now although I have been thinking about quitting lately.

"Is everything ok?" I ask walking into the kitchen and I see her standing at the front door with it open, I see a man standing there wearing glasses.

"Says he has a delivery for you, he wouldn't give it to me." She explains and I shrug walking up to the man.

"Here you go ma'am." He says simply, a hood covering his features I slowly take the envelope from him and he walks away so I shut the door.

"That was weird." Emma muttered and I turn around nodding. I looked down at the envelope in my hands it was a basic white envelope no name or anything on it, weird. "Are you going to open it?" She asks and I shake my head.

"I don't know if I should." I answer and she nods. I hear my phone ringing so I dash back to my room to see Grace's name flashing across my screen. I swipe across it answering it closing my bedroom door putting it on speaker.

"Hey." She greets and I smile. "Are you meeting me for lunch?" She asks.

"Of course." I answer and I look at my clock seeing I'm a little late to be getting ready and I pull out my usual hoodie and leggings slipping those on. "How are the kids?" I asked.

"JJ is good has practice tonight, Kallie is a little princess, Luca has been having jealousy problems because of JJ doing baseball and everything." She goes on about her little angels as usual and I smile, I'm happy for her. "Oh, and they are all wondering when Auntie T can come see them." She sings and I laugh.

"I still get daily phone calls from JJ telling me about girls." I say and she scoffs.

"I know." She sighs. "Hey maybe we can talk in a bit? I need to get ready." She asks.

"Yeah, for sure. See you at the diner." I agree.

"Okay." I hear the phone click.

I get ready and I grab the envelope shoving it into the pack of my leggings I grab my wallet and keys. I head to Emma's room but she wasn't there so I go to the living room. I see her sitting there watching a movie.

"Hey. I'm going to eat with Grace. Do you maybe want to come?" I ask.

"Sure." She answers she gets up and we quickly make our way out the door and we head down the street to the little diner on the corner.

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I walk in we go to a booth and sit down, Emma across from me. I pull out the envelope and I start fiddling with it on the table.

"Are you thinking about it?" Emma asks looking at the envelope and I nod.

"I don't know if I should but something is telling me to open it." I answer and she nods. "How was last night?" I teased tilting my head and she scoffed waving at me.

"He couldn't even find my clit nevertheless get me off. He left and I finished myself." She explained and I grimaced.

"Damn, sorry babe." I say and she shrugs.

"That's what happens when you're drunk." She jokes making me laugh. The bells above the door chimed and I looked up seeing Grace, she looks around and we clock eyes. She quickly makes her way over and smiles at Emma taking a seat beside me.

"Hey, girl. How are you?" She asks and Emma shrugs.

"I'm fine, I guess. Are your kids driving you crazy yet?" She asks and Grace laughs.

"I think I'm lucky or something because they are not all that bad." She jokes and our usual server walks over.

"Hey ladies, what can I start you out with? Same thing?" She gestures to me and Grace and we laugh.

"Yes same." We both say.

"Ok diet cokes, order of jalapeno poppers. What about you?" She points to Emma.

"Sprite, thank you." She answers and the server writes it down a nod before dashing away.

"What is that?" Grace asks pointing to the envelope.

"Ok so get this." Emma starts. "This weird guy with sunglasses and a hood covering half his face was at the door, said he had a delivery for Taylor but wouldn't give it to me." Emma explains and Grace looks at me before looking back at her.

"That's odd." She trails off and I nod holding up the envelope.

"I took it he left and I haven't opened it." I explain.

"Open it." Grace says as the server gives us our drinks with the poppers and me and Grace look at her arching a brow.

"I put in the poppers when I saw you walk in." She explains and I smile, she nods walking away.

"Did you hear me? You should open you clearly kept it for a reason." Grace says sipping of her soda and I nod.

"I guess." I trail off and I pick it up holding it to the light but I can't make out anything in it. I put it down and I slowly peeled off the top, I open it and see a sheet of paper folded up inside. I open it and I hold it to where only I can see.