Mag-log inRudela,
Living with an empty stomach and keeping silent without complaint were skills every child of the slum learned early. When they wanted to cry, they simply could not. Tears never put food on the table. What those years did teach them was a deep fear of death and of losing the means to keep a full belly. Kyle stepped out of the bathroom looking as handsome as ever. Dark black hair, warm brown eyes, and the Beta wolf that had declared its love for my wolf ten years ago. He saw me sitting on the floor with red eyes, and his expression changed at once. Familiar panic and concern tightened every line of his face. “Rudela. What’s wrong? Are you hurt?” He paid no attention to the peanut shells and crumbs scattered across the floor. His knees hit the boards hard as he dropped down and gently gathered me into his arms. He held me closer. “What’s wrong? Did you cry?” I said nothing. I only shook my head. I could not understand what I had seen. I could not believe that the man who had shown me so much tenderness, who had told me I was the most important person in his world, who had made me feel I mattered when the rest of the pack tried to crush my spirit, could do something cruel like this to me. I buried my face against his chest, fighting not to sob aloud. I wanted to wake up from this nightmare, from this unbearable agony of betrayal. Slowly I reached for the mark on his neck—the warm, electric, throbbing mark that had always stood as proof of our love, our trust, and our loyalty. He let me mark him right after he marked me to show his loyalty the same way I did. He flinched at my touch. A low laugh rumbled from his throat, followed by a feverish grin. “You’re getting greedy lately, my love. But tomorrow I have a very important meeting. As a newbie I have to be there.” My body trembled at the lie. A broken laugh echoed inside my head, yet no sound left my lips. Even though I was no light weight, he lifted me without effort and carried me to the bed. After he tucked the blanket around me, he looked down with the same soft affection I had once taken as a blessing from the Moon Goddess herself. “Sleep tight. You don’t have to wake up early.” He pressed a kiss to my forehead and left the bedroom, work phone in hand. I reached for my own phone and checked the pictures. They were real. Too real to ignore. I did not know whether a heart made a sound when it shattered, but I felt it—like fragile glass breaking into sharp pieces. I stared at the ceiling. The cold, unplastered surface. The old bulb that still collected spider webs and dust no matter how often I cleaned it. The wardrobe I had scavenged from the donation pile and repaired with two weeks of my wages. Every object in this two-room apartment stood as a silent witness. The days I had gone without food for three nights so I could pay his father’s medical bills. The meat bun I had bought for fifty cents and carefully saved for Kyle before one of his supposed interviews. The month I broke my leg and had no money for a hospital, so I bound it with a bamboo stick and strips of old cloth. All of it had happened while he was working, earning promotions, and lying to my face. He had claimed to walk the entire pack every day searching for work. I had ached for him, believing he had tried for four long years without success. Now the memory felt like a cruel joke. Each morning he had left after eating the meals I bought with my hard-earned money, promising to find a job soon and make me happy, while he was already earning millions. What had I done wrong to deserve this? What had made him treat me with such cruelty? I had believed that starving and being beaten by strangers were the worst pains the world could offer. I had thought begging on the street for a glass of water was the deepest humiliation. I had never imagined anything could cut deeper. "Please, I prayed silently. Let this be a nightmare. When I open my eyes again, let it all have been a dream. Tears soaked the pillow. My eyes finally closed. He did not return to the bed that night. For the first time, the thought of him left me too exhausted to care. In the morning the other side of the mattress was cold. A note waited on the broken nightstand. “I made breakfast. Eat it once you are awake.” A familiar warmth spread through my chest. For a single second I forgot everything that had happened the night before. It felt like nothing more than a bad dream. I walked into the bathroom, washed my face, changed into an old tank top, and headed to the kitchen. The entire time I refused to think about it. Not until I unlocked my phone and found the photos still open on the screen. I had forgotten to close the app. I stared at the bank balance: two million dollars. Not two thousand. Not two hundred thousand. Two million. The egg on my plate suddenly tasted of nothing. Everything inside me protested against thinking any further. I scraped the leftovers into the trash and left for work. Although money had kept me from college, I had started at the herb shop eight years earlier. That job had been the only reason I managed to keep the household running. The wind chime rang as I stepped inside. Something in my expression must have shown, because the moment the owner looked at me his face changed. “Are you all right, Rudela? You look like you’ve aged ten years overnight.” Warner, an old retired healer who had once served the Alpha, studied me from head to toe. He had taught me about medicines and traditional herbs that worked better for werewolves than anything modern. I had used that knowledge to treat my in-laws myself so we never had to pay for outside help. I managed a thin smile but gave no answer. My head felt heavy. I walked straight to the bathroom, splashed cold water on my face, and prepared to start the day. I had just stepped into the main room when the back door slammed open. A strong scent of blood hit my nostrils. “Who is it?” Warner rushed toward the rear entrance, already furious. Lately wild foxes and other beasts had been roaming the poorer parts of the territory. “It’s a person’s scent, Boss,” I said, following close behind. “Not a wild animal.” “Grab the first-aid kit then!” I nodded. A different kind of fear crept in, pushing the earlier pain aside for the moment. When we reached the back corridor, both of us froze. A giant Lycan lay on the floor, a silver dagger buried in his lower left leg. “A Lycan in this pack?” Warner glanced at me with wary eyes. “Rudela, spray the scent blockers all over the room. Don’t let anyone pick up the Lycan scent.” I nodded, my throat tightening. We were a werewolf pack under the Lycan Kingdom, yet Lycans rarely visited the packs. Who was he? How had he ended up here?Rudela,It was around five in the morning when I woke up. The pale light of early dawn filtered through the thin curtains, casting soft shadows across the room. I had to prepare some breakfast for the guest and for us. My body felt heavy with exhaustion, the kind that settles deep into the bones after too many nights of restless sleep. I turned to get up. I froze when I saw Kyle standing there, eyes red, tears streaming down his face. My heart sank so sharply it felt like something inside me had cracked open. I abruptly pushed myself upward, sitting on the side of the bed, the sheets cool against my skin.“Kyle? What happened?” I was still unclear what was happening before me. Kyle had never cried, no matter what happened to him. Not when his father fell ill. Not when money was tight. Not even when the world seemed determined to break him. Now he was crying, and it freaked me out in a way that made my stomach twist.“Why are you crying? Is Mom okay? Did something happen?”He didn’t a
Rudela,Warner told me to go home after cleaning things up. I obliged and started cleaning the potion making moonstone bowl and the used bowls for carrying the herbs. The water ran cold over my hands as I scrubbed away the residue. The scent of crushed leaves still hung in the back room. I rinsed each bowl carefully and set them on the wooden counter.Warner came downstairs and walked into the kitchen area. He held out a few bank notes. “Rudela, here, take this money and buy some organic vegetables and meat from the local market. Tomorrow you do not have to work. Just cook for him.”I paused for a second. “I was thinking of asking you to give me a day off tomorrow. I have something important to do.”He paused for a moment and then muttered, “Then can you cook extra potions in your house and bring them here? He is a Lycan King. I dare not offend him.”“Alright,” I said quietly. “I will prepare some food and bring it here. But I am not coming to work tomorrow.”“Okay. Take your day off.
Rudela,“Give me water.”The voice was barely more than a whisper, yet the command in it made both Warner and me tremble. Authority lived inside those three words the way a blade lives inside its sheath, quiet, certain, and lethal if drawn. The tone itself demanded submission without forming the word.“Get a glass of water.” Warner moved at once, walking straight toward the Lycan King without hesitation.I could not move. My feet refused. This man… I had no word that fit him. He was not the dramatic male lead from stories, nor the sort of man who stole a heart at first glance. His appearance simply stopped thought. Before the idea “Oh God, he is handsome” could form, another rose first and stronger: How did God create him?Thick dark brows shadowed eyes the color of fresh blood, predator-red, unblinking, staring into the soul as though it already belonged to him. His skin was deeply tanned, stretched tight over muscle that looked forged rather than grown. A heavy beard framed a jaw sh
Rudela,We people from the slum rarely married the modern way. To have the Moon Priestess perform the ceremony and issue a marriage certificate cost around three thousand dollars. For those who could barely keep their stomachs full, it was far beyond reach.So soon after I turned eighteen and he turned twenty, we married in front of the elders and completed the basic marking ritual.Now, walking the bumpy roads, I realized one thing. I was grateful that in the last six years he had left me alone under the Moon Oracle and that I had never carried his child.A bitter smile touched my lips. Just yesterday I had been ready to sacrifice my life for him, dreaming he would always stand beside me.In the end I had been foolish enough to dream such a thing.“Rudela, let me shift. It will be faster,” my wolf whispered.“Okay.”We reached the shop not long after leaving. The door stood wide open and the backyard light was on.“Boss!” I called as I stepped inside. He lived on the second floor. Th
Rudela,By the time I returned home, it was already past eight in the evening. Kyle was in the kitchen, cooking eggs and rice. When the door opened, he turned.“Honey.” His voice was gentle, the familiar passionate one that could always make me feel feverish. “Are you alright? I have been calling you. Why didn’t you answer my call?”I took off my shoes and placed them on the shoe rack before entering the kitchen. The scent of expensive perfume hit my nostrils.“In the herb shop, we had an emergency. I had to go to the city to grab some herbs,” I said in a casual tone. I was surprised to hear my own voice. I did not sound like someone who was heartbroken and betrayed by the person she loved more than anyone.“Really? Are you exhausted? I have already filled the tub with warm water. Take a shower. I am cooking something special.”I glanced at the kitchen. There was beef, tomato, and potatoes. Behind them was steak-cut beef. The marbling of the meat said it all. It was expensive.Was he
Rudela, It took around half an hour of intense concentration to prepare the potion. Warner looked exhausted, but he did not give up. While he processed the medicine that needed to be applied, I cleaned the Lycan’s wound and carefully stitched it closed. “Rudela, don’t hit his nervous system. He might attack you,” he warned just before he placed the last ingredient, moon water, into the mixture. “I am being careful!” I answered, applying a bit of pressure on the skin. Within seconds, the Lycan’s left claw shot out and sank into my arm, the sharp tips digging deep into my flesh. I hissed in pain. My body trembled violently when a dangerous voice struck me. “Who are you? How dare you touch me without my permission?” The Lycan’s red eyes met mine and sent a terrifying jolt through me. “Don’t hurt her!” Warner hurried toward us. “It’s all right. She is a nurse here. A nurse is allowed to touch her male patients.” The Lycan groaned in irritation and then lay back down. Those red eyes







