Perhaps I was feeling differently because today was the first day of the month. Perhaps I was feeling weightless because my WAEC exams were starting soon. Perhaps I was tired of thinking too much about God. I really don't know what was wrong with my mind.
Today, I decided to take a look at a magazine in Dad's house. I think the magazine belongs to Sarah because it was a Christian magazine. As we all know, Dad is an agnostic so am I.
Inside the magazine was an article written by a Mormon who had spent months in Puerto Rico and a state in the United States of America called Washington. I was hoping to write a long entry today detailing my expectations for the new month but I am too tired because of tomorrow's trip. Dad, Stacy, Rita and I are going to a special place in town and I am overjoyed with the thoughts of meeting new people. I will leave you with the article of Elder Wyatt Martin.
Here is what he wrote in the article:
My name is Elder Ma
Dad ran to a wooden box and hit it so hard that it broke. We were all tensed to see his next reaction. Stacy was in the middle of the room, smoking while Rita was focused on pleasing Dad by giving him whatever he wanted. I was just somewhere in the wide room, watching the whole drama."Where is it?" Dad asked."Check the other wallet," Rita replied."But I can't find anything there."Dad saw nothing as he took a good look at the other wallet inside the wooden box. Carefully, he took hold of the third wallet and opened it."Turn it around," Rita advised.A huge smile appeared on Dad's face as he found what he was looking for in the wallet."Finally!" Stacy whispered, throwing the half-eaten cigarette on the floor. The smell of the smoke nearly choked me but I was able to cover my nose properly before it affected me."So what do we do now?" Rita asked."We destroy i
A window opened in the silent room. A bell clanged in the dark room. A short woman's voice sang out impatiently:"It is time to get out from your morning slumber!"A roar of thunder followed suddenly. Dried feet ran from one end of the room to another, swishing across the wooden floor until the short woman's voice ceased abruptly."Today, we will be seeing something unique. Something that has never been seen before in the open. Prepare your eyes for you will be marvelled when you come in contact with the awesome nature of God.""Okay," a sleepy mumble came out from a young woman.The beds were stacked together and I woke up from dream. It was a strange vision.
Dad usually takes a ride to get me lunch whenever he feels like I am very pissed. After the incident that happened on the second of April everything changed. He didn't look at me as often as I wanted and he was serious when he told me I was no longer a part of the agnostic club. It was a shock to me when he raised his voice and banished me from the group I was starting to see as my home. Banishment meant I no longer had the easy pass to attend any of their meetings. It meant there was nothing I shared with Rita, Stacy and him.I felt totally useless today as I remembered the picture he was burning. I felt totally shaken as I remembered the dream I had on the fourth of April. I know I spent a great deal of time on the month of March writing long meaningless entries because it meant a lot to me. March was a month where I was hoping my silent march to a new dawn would finally be made possible but as they say, you never can tell when your bell is up. You never can tell when
Absurdism is a philosophy which holds that the universe is chaotic and irrational and that any attempt to impose order will ultimately fail.Before Aunty Matilda visited today, I had an argument with Goodness over the phone. It started when I told him that I firmly believed that some people knew too much to the extent that they are unable to accept that they actually know nothing. Goodness said my statement was false. He said when you know too much, you are aware of the infinity you do not know. Hence, the realisation that you know nothing at all.I wasn't ready to accept defeat easily and I told him that his words only applied to humble people. After that, I asked him what will result when pride comes in the mind of knowledgeable people. I asked him how many knowledgeable people choose to accept the truth that they don't know. Then I told him that very few if not zero choose to accept the undeniable truth that we are all limited thinkers. We ended the call by no
After spending time with Aunty Matilda and thinking about the magazine written by Elder Wyatt Martin, I felt moved to take my first step in reaching out to the being who claimed to be the creator of mankind. The first thing I did was to pay a visit to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. A church which sat proudly at the centre of Port-Harcourt. Its walls shimmering with hope."Hey Perer! How are you doing?""I am good. Do I know you from somewhere?"The intruder who was invading my privacy formed a smile on his face."I don't think we have met before but I have seen your Dad's wife here sometimes. I remember her saying her name was Sarah. It is good to know that you are doing well. To introduce myself, my name is Elder Moses! I live in Benue State in the Northern part of Nigeria! I love cooking and the outdoors. I also love playing sports! What do you love to do?"I was surprised at t
Sarah felt thoroughly empty and guilty today. She couldn't force herself to do anything, not even prayer. She looked like someone who had lost a child after a heavy fall. She was silent."Was there something bad that I did to you?"That was Dad's voice."It is your wife. I feel guilty for taking you away from her," Sarah said."It is not your fault. I am the one who made that decision not you.""I am still at fault for luring you away from your marriage. What was I thinking!"Dad dried Sarah's eyes. "Don't be too hard on yourself. It is not your fault that I am out of my marriage. My wife just doesn't value me the same way that you value me. She doesn't wants to know how I feel about certain issues. She is just too selfish and possessive."Sarah's voice went flat. "But she is still your wife. You are still married to her. She is still the mother of your children. Just take a good look at me. Do I look like a first wife to you? D
Sarah sat up in the hospital bed when I arrived; she was feeling much better than the way I met her yesterday. Some people say that it is a taboo for a man to beat his wife, others say it is a way to achieve respect from a stubborn wife. For me, Sarah was only doing the right thing.Yes! Marriage can be pretty difficult sometimes. The husband may annoy the wife and the wife may make a fool out of the husband but still, it is good for them to still stay together.Dad's relationship with Sarah has brought a lot of problems in our family and I am one of those few people who still wanted Dad and Mum to get back as one. I am one of those few people who still hoped that a day would come when Dad and Mum will be laughing in front of us and expressing their love for each other. Do you think I am crazy for wishing for my parents to be together? I know I am not crazy for wishing such a beautiful thing to happen. Yes! Sarah would have to go. She was the wrong variable in th
"Do you always talk about bible stuff all the time?" I asked Elder Moses. Again, I was standing in front of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints."Not always!" Elder Moses replied. "I just know it is important. I am also a missionary so scriptures are a big part of my life right now.""I saw a movie today. It was about the struggle of a Mormon in a foreign land.""I have seen that movie too. I love the movie! I watched it with my family a few months ago! It is so good! I find it so amazing how they were able to help so many people see the truth about our church. When they moved to the village, they weren't very welcome. But God had placed them there to soften the hearts of the people. What did you like about the movie?""Patience, love and hard work!""That is so true! It was kind of unfair how people treated them at first. A lot of people do that before they get to know what we actually believe. I am glad you enjoyed the movie! I can re