ElianaI had no idea how I got to Dorian's place, with tears obscuring my vision the entire drive. I had to constantly wipe them with the bottom of my left palm. I dragged my feet up the steps, trying so hard to forget about Nicholas. His words stung so bad, and to worsen it, with every step I took, the soreness between my legs reminded me of how pretentious he was while he was fucking me.I rang the doorbell, then hugged myself after I dipped Robert's car keys inside my booty short pocket. A few seconds later, I heard a string of curses before the door was pulled open, revealing Dorian. The moment I saw him, my lips just began trembling, the emotions skyrocketing to a point of no control."Oh Ellie." He stepped outside, spreading his arms. I couldn't hold it in any longer, so I ran into his arms, burying my face into his chest as a wild tremor overtook me. Dorian didn't say a word as he rubbed my back, giving me time."I am so stupid," my voice cracked, the knot in the pit of my stom
Nicholas"Fuck." I banged my forehead with my palm repeatedly, my face contorting. I couldn't believe I had allowed my sexual desires to take over my ability to make sane decisions. For years, I had absolute control in matters of sex, no matter who I was fucking or how aroused I was. Yet for only a few minutes, all that control I had mastered eluded me."Damn it," I added in a bitter tone, leaning on my car seat. Just then, my phone rang on the passenger seat, with Robert's name flashing on the screen. I debated against taking it, but since he wasn't the one I was mad at, I reluctantly picked it up."Rob," I answered after clearing my throat."I hope it's not a bad time. If you are busy with work, I can call back later." He was always an understanding person, a quality that I struggled with. He was everything I wasn't, starting with being kind, loving, and every good quality one could think of."No, I actually got off early today." I rubbed my eyebrows."Alright, I gave Ellie my car,
Eliana"Coward," I spat, glaring at Nicholas as his jaw ticked."Watch your mouth," he warned in a flat voice, but unlike back at his cabin, I wasn't scared of him. Dorian had pumped into me another level of confidence I didn't have."Or what? Are you going to drag me out of the house to see a doctor? Well, be my guest; go on." I crossed my hands over my abdomen, tapping my foot on the area rug. Deep down, my chest was constricting as I struggled to push away his vile words that he had said to me after we had sex."Don't think for one second that I won't do that if by tomorrow I won't have them," he spat, making me tilt my head, trying to make sense of what he had turned into. A part of me refused to believe that he was the same person who had carried me, kissed me, and held me. The same man who had confessed how much he wanted me and how hard he found it to resist."For how long will you blame me?" I shook my head, lowering my eyes to the floor. I couldn't control the memories of the
NicholasI drove straight home after I left Ellie's place, my mind a jumbled mess of thoughts and unanswered questions. After taking a bath, I decided to take a nap in the hopes that my temples would stop throbbing. Ellie's eyes as she asked me to admit I didn't enjoy having sex with her seemed to haunt me. No matter how hard I tried to push her sorrowful face away, it stayed on the surface of my mind.Her words stuck with me, and I wished I could have said something. Maybe I should have admitted I was wrong for blaming her for something that was equally my doing. Instead, I added fuel to the fire by telling her to make sure I got the results the next day. As she sat down, trembling in her skin, all I wanted was to walk to her and hug her, but for some reason I couldn't."Fuck!" I swore, turning on the bed to lay on my back, head on my crossed hands, and eyes tightly closed. My phone vibrated on the bedside table at that minute. Allan's name flashed on the screen, making me let out a
ElianaMonday couldn't have come any faster, given the constant aching feeling in my chest. Every thought was plagued with negativity and revolved around Nicholas and my father's killer. Over the weekend, I opted to stay home, mostly locked up in my room since my mother wasn't home during the day. I hadn't seen my two best friends, and neither had I seen Nicholas. I expected him to drag me to the doctor like he had said, so when Saturday was over, I was surprised."Is Dorian picking you up today?" My mother's voice snapped me out of my thoughts."Yes," I replied after clearing my throat, which was beginning to clog up with a lump. Thinking about Nicholas didn't make things easy for me, and I had to constantly battle tears."So eat up; you've barely touched your breakfast, honey. Is something wrong?" We were seated at the dining table, having bacon, sausages, and tea, but I wasn't even feeling hungry."Everything is okay, mom," I lied with ease."I know you talked to the detective." I
NicholasMy jaw literally dropped open as Eliana sashayed out of my office without a care in the world about the bombshell she had dropped. My nostrils flared at the amount of skin she was showing, knowing how perverted some of my staff were. I could not imagine men eye-fucking her, let alone approaching her.I had to shake my head to snap my thoughts back into place from the possessive ones that had gripped me. When I said I wanted the results, I didn't expect her to bring them to my office. Hell, how had she even known about my occupation and my company?"You have gonorrhoea?" Lilith screeched beside me, adjusting her top."Shut the fuck up, Lilith!" I dismissed, wondering why I had even called her a fuck considering what happened back at my club."How can I when a schoolgirl just walked in here and blatantly announced she has gonorrhoea?" She threw her hands in the air while pacing around like a confined bear."For the very last time, shut the hell up. In fact, get the fuck out of
Eliana"What happened?" Dorian asked the moment I got inside the car, my eyes glistening with tears as I attempted to swallow the lump in my throat. I had sworn not to let Nicholas affect me to the point of expelling any tears, but that seemed to be crumpling at that moment. I never imagined that I'd find him deep inside another woman when I pushed on his office door."Nothing; I didn't see him; I was told he was in a meeting," I lied, covering a sniff with a cough. My chest felt like it was being clawed from the inside, making me press my teeth together and swallow the pain."So why do you look like you're dying on the inside?" Dorian pressed, making me almost scream at his refusal to just leave me alone."Because I am battling with feelings for a person who doesn't care about them!" I snapped, and it wasn't entirely a lie. After seeing Nicholas's modern office building and the lady he was fucking, I was convinced I was never an option for him. He was a rich man and probably wanted a
Nicholas"Aargh!" I almost threw the phone across the room but instead opted to put it in my pocket."I'm guessing she said no?" Allan spoke with a light laugh that made me growl. It was not a laughing matter, and yet he was seated in my own office chair nonchalantly, relishing in my frustration."Well, what were you expecting? You have dragged her through hell and back." He added, making the upper left side of my mouth twitch."Didn't you tell me feelings make someone forgiving? Weren't you the one who fucking told me she'd listen?" My voice rose as I turned and faced the glass window, running my right hand through my hair."I didn't say it was going to be easy." I heard my leather swivel chair squeaking as he turned around on it. Then he added, "she will make you beg for it; that's what women do, but at the end of the day, it will be worth it." I let out a bitter laugh at his statement, pinching my nose between my thumb and index finger."You really are stupid, Allan. Either that, o