All I can do is think about the last time he held me last night. He carried me home in his strong arms, cradled like a little child. I remember his woodsy scent that wrapped around me like a blanket. I remember feeling so safe with him.I remember how upset he was when he found me laying on the sidewalk. He was freaking out about me, and I just wanted to calm him down, even though I was the one in pain. I didn't want to worry him.I look up at the sun beating down on me. I've been gone for hours. I'm sure he's up by now, and he's probably upset again. Will he be angry at me? Or will he just freak out because he can't find me? I'm sure he'll be mad that I lied to him... even though I hadn't meant to lie to him when I told him he could come with me... but things changed last night.I don't have enough strength to do everything. The poison needs to be pulled from the lake. The animals need to be cleansed and burned. The trees and plants also need to be burned so they can be regrown. The
Thinking about Dia's story, I know there is a chance this is too much for me and my magic. I might burn myself out... And then no one will ever know what happened to me. Even so, I have to do something. I don't know how I can find the power to do even the simplest things when I feel like I'm going to pass out just from climbing the damn mountain.I've never thought of myself as arrogant or prideful before. But I'm definitely feeling stupid. The thing is, I'm sure whoever did this knew this would happen. They knew I'd be on my own. Someone knew it was me coming out here and they had this meticulously planned that I would leave Kody behind so I wouldn't make it out of here.Was it one of the Council who did this to me? Or was it someone else... someone who knows me... maybe one of my peers? I wouldn't put something like this past Beth or Maria. They want me out of the way. Does that mean they are part of the Abyss? Who else could be part of the Abyss? Have they been here with us all alo
I know what I'm going to do, and I take strength from the fact I'm not the only one who went through something like this. Most of my friends have passed their own trials, and now it's mine.I think of Calliope. She was the first one of us to be sent out on a mission. She had Trey with her. She had gone into the mountains. The found a cave. Trey mentioned something about a boiling pond with black smoke. Cal had captured a floating rock with a spell on it. It broke in half and the curse stopped spreading.Nadia had something similar. She and Knox had gone to a farther part of the forest. They had found a massive sacrifice of the animals. Even hearing about it hurt my heart. How could anyone do something so cruel? But in order for her to set their souls free, she had to sacrifice herself. She almost died.Well, according to Knox she did die, and he brought her back to life. It was good he was with her there. She needed him. What would have happened if she was there on her own and had die
I continue to walk aimlessly, when something suddenly repulses me more than anything. I don't know what it is, but I know the others have mentioned this feeling. I have a feeling that this is where I need to be headed. I didn't know there could be something that felt even worse than I had been before. It's making me want to hid under my bed and never come out. I swear there is going to be a zombie any moment that claws its way out of the black fog and eats what's left of my brains.With cautious steps I push aside the need to run away and follow this... whatever it is that is making me sicker than I'd ever been. I can feel my heart picking up tempo, scared of whatever that is out there. I'm not sure I really want to know... I wish Kody had been here with me. I don't like being alone.I think about him dancing with me last night and my heart almost breaks. I don't know when I've ever been this lonely in my life. And what if I never get to see him again? What if this thing swallows me u
And no matter where I look I can't see anything I recognize. It's like looking in a fun house full of trees that just lead me back to my staring place... even though I don't know if I'm at my starting place because I can't see anything that looks like houses... But I don't need houses. I'd be fine if I could find the big boulder or one of the caves... Something...There are no landmarks I know, just the black smoke and black veins growing thicker in the earth. There is not even a straight path that I'm following. Just this repulsion telling me that I'm going the right way.My body is growing steadily slower, and yet I refuse to take a break... which may be a bad decision on my part, but I really don't know if I have much of a choice. If I stop now, I don't know if I'll ever get the strength to get back up. I may just lay down and die. I can't do that!I grab another water bottle and almost down the whole thing in one go. I'm so hot! I don't even think it has to do with the temperature
I think I'm lost... I look around with sweat stinging my eyes. I can see the sun breaking through the limbs of the blackened trees... I wonder if the sun knows our planet is dying or if it is too big to care that one of its planets is on its way to destruction?I have no idea where my mind is going right now. I think it's trying to distract me from the fact everything is off here. I can feel it deep in my soul. The ache and sickness seeping into my body.For the last hour or so I've noticed I've been slowing down. Not just my body, but my mind has slowly been spinning in circles trying to come up with anything other than the situation some crazy group called Abyss has put us in.What did the world do to them to make them think killing magic and the planet would be a good idea? I don't agree with suicide, but mass murder is much worse. If they were unhappy with their lot in life, why put it on the rest of us?I don't know how long I've been wandering around in the woods, following the