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40. Nightmare Scenario
He felt relief coursing throughout his entire body as he walked onto their front porch. Every step was a struggle, just to put one foot in front of the other. Each step forward was pure agony but it was a victory over his acusers.
He managed to unlock the front door with his hands that didn't want to function, but he won the fight and opened the door.
Home! What a wonderful feeling after being in the hospital.
All of the lights were off and he tried to be so quiet so that he didn't wake Lili. It was extremely late now and she probably had been sound asleep for hours.
But in the back of his mind, he wonders if something wasn't right about this situation as he walked into the front foyer. The sounds were off. The smells.
It was etheral.
Almost unnatural.
Something was off and he just couldn't explain it.
He walked into the living room, passed boxes and constructi
Cerulean Nacht.
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