Chapter 7
Lies and Misunderstanding
Carlin
She-wolves littered the grounds, some poking fun at their fellows who could not seem to get the dance steps right while some had frowns of concentration, trying with all their might to remember all the instructions. Their teacher, Delilah stood at my side, watching while Greg flanked my right side, surreptitiously staring at the spirited Delilah.
“They are doing well, much better than before, I suppose,” I suggested calming her displeasure. She was not one to conceal her emotions and it was obvious that her students were not up to her standard yet.
“Not good enough,” she retorted without sparing me a glance. “The Bonfire is almost upon us and they keep joining, knowing that I cannot send them away. I guess word has spread that the Alpha’s son now attends dance practice.”
“And whose fault is that?” I immediately attacked her. Her only response was a cunning smile and a careless shrug. It was her idea that my presence would motivate the she-wolves to do their best. It had worked for a while but at present, more she-wolves had joined the dance troupe as a means to win my attention.
“Don’t act like you don’t enjoy the attention,” Greg rebuked, scaring me when he suddenly spoke because he had been silent since we arrived at the dance grounds. He was mostly that way whenever Delilah was nearby, speaking only when prompted. As for his accusation, I could not say I did not enjoy it a little bit but on the other hand, it could get distressing. Threshold, however —my younger brother— had no problem with feminine adoration.
I chose not to reply to him, my eyes surveying the environment silently. Clarissa had still not come and I was not sure how I felt about that. At first, I had consoled myself by assuming that she could not find her way to the grounds but then, she could ask any guard for directions. It was a popular meeting place for she-wolves and very easy to locate. Where was she?
“No, no! I can’t take this! Just stop!” Delilah erupted, waving her hands wildly in annoyance. “Do you have no talent?”
The she-wolf to whom she fired the insult stopped whatever routine she had been attempting. She was panting heavily, her cheeks heated and her eyes lowered. Greg held his breath beside me, his pupils dilated in arousal. I felt pity for him, probably cursed too long after something he might never get. Subtly, my eyes scanned the feminine crowd with no sight of Clarissa. My patience finally snapped and I made up my mind to go in search of her.
“Greg?”
“Yes?” he replied, distracted by angry Delilah yelling at her untalented fledging. Greg was a hopeless case.
“You’re good here, right? I have to go take care of something urgent.”
“Go ahead. I’m good.” His eyes were glued to her like flies on a corpse. A hopeless case indeed.
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Clarissa
As I approached the grounds, I heard someone yelling. I stopped, wondering whether to go on. The complainant was definitely not in a good mood. Kaira adjusted my scarf absently and we listened to the harsh words. Who could it be?
“Now watch me do it and if you don’t get it this time, you are benched and that’s it!” The high feminine voice held authority and even without seeing her face, I could tell she was someone respected. She became silent and it was my cue to walk in. It was not what I expected.
A crowd of she-wolves gathered around a dancing female in a rough, pregnant circle. She was so graceful, moving in time with the rhythm of the wooden drums. Her eyes were closed and it was like she had become one with the music, a breathing sensation. With a quick glance around, it seemed nobody had noticed my presence, making it easier for me to blend in with the others. When the music stopped, an energetic burst of applause filled the atmosphere.
Kaira politely gestured at a rock for me to sit and I took the hard seat. The center of attraction parted the circle and motioned for the drums to begin again, this time ordering the crowd to dance instead. Her face was covered with a sheen of sweat yet she remained formidable on her feet.
“I have not seen you around,” a gentle masculine voice announced himself, walking towards me. He was shorter than I was but his shoulders were set in a manner that could not be mistaken for weakness. His hair was shaved close to his head but the few tresses visible informed me that he was a dark blonde.
“I am a guest here. My father is Alpha Gary of Black Paw Pack and I am Clarissa.”
“I am Greg, Carlin’s Delta, and that fireball over there is Delilah, our childhood friend. She is a bit of a handful and does not suffer fools easily. I’ll call her over but don’t tell her I called her a fireball.” He winked amicably at me like we had been friends forever and I could not suppress a grin.
“Delilah, over here. Come and meet someone!” He hollered, cupping his mouth unnecessarily.
“Take a break,” she freed her troupe and they sighed in relief. Sauntering back to us, she sized me up swiftly with transparent grey eyes and I found myself doing the same.
“Hey. Sorry, I don’t know you. I’m Delilah and you are?”
“Clarissa. Nice to meet you. I was invited to watch the dance practice by Carlin but I couldn't find him.”
There and then, I could swear that her smile died immediately after I mentioned Carlin. She narrowed her eyes in distaste and a second blinked them back to normal. She yawned pretentiously and worked kinks out of her back.
“My back aches. Greg, would you be a darling and fetch me some ice from the shack?”
The latter did not hesitate to do as she asked, giving us time alone. Fortunately, Carlin chose that moment to pop in, a scowl on his handsome face.
“Oh, there he is. I’ll leave you to . . .”
“I’m so lucky, aren’t I?” Delilah quickly chipped in, a rictus plastered on her face animatedly. I didn’t understand what she meant and I told her so.
“Well, I mean,” she rolled her eyes as if she felt the answer was clear enough. “Not everyone is lucky to be mated to the Alpha’s son but the Moon Goddess has been gracious to me. I count myself lucky and. . .”
I didn’t hear the rest of her chatter, everything blurring away until my ears rang like a church bell. Carlin had a mate and he had been fooling with me earlier? He had found me and was coming to us, his amber eyes fixated on me.
“Oh well, I have to go back to practice,” Delilah conveniently removed herself, jogging back to her students. It was too much for me to take and I sped off into the woods, Carlin yelling my name behind me.
Chapter 8Heated ProximityClarissa I was a fool, a fool indeed. I kept berating myself as I speed-walked into the woods, spitting fire. I had long since lost Kaira and for her own sake, she’d better avoid me. Rough tree barks scratched at my skin but I did not feel their sting. I was far off in my head, too angry to feel physical pain. Carlin had a mate, a beautiful and talented dancer and he had been toying with my emotions, stringing me along like a puppet. Blinded by his magnificent masculinity and gentle hands, I had forgotten the very thing I had come to his pack to avoid– finding a mate. I thought we had bonded besides the shocking coincidence in the similarities of our dreams but it was all an ugly lie. Trampling through the forest angrily, I did not care to look around until I stopped to catch my breath. My surroundings were strange and for the first time, a trickle of fear watered down my raging anger. How far into the woods had I gone? If I was in my wolf form, I could
Chapter 9End Of The BeginningClarissa Carlin’s reply resounded in my ears and for the first time, the possibility that the she-wolf might have lied came to my mind. Without waiting for his side of the story, I had stormed off, not giving him the benefit of doubt. He wore a wry smile, unaware of the turmoil raging within me. “So, you don’t have a mate?” I wanted to be reassured before deciding on the next step to take. “I don’t. Whoever told you I have a mate clearly wanted to throw you off-balance—” “And they almost succeeded, almost,” I repeated, a bit to myself. Admitting I was wrong was not my best suit. Besides, Carlin might be lying too to cover up his crime and I would be none the wiser. I peered into his eyes for the truth and found steady golden orbs, never flicking, at rapt attention. I became uneasy all of a sudden. “We need to talk and I can’t have this conversation with you carrying me. I won’t run,” I added when he lifted a suspicious brow. Running would solve not
Chapter 10Confirmed Fears Clarissa His eyes were dark with hate and the she-wolf in his grasp was limp, probably using up her last breath. The male who had introduced himself as Greg earlier was unable to help in any way and he stood a few distances away, watching. “Carlin, please put her down. Let her go. Trust me, you do not want to kill her. We can talk about this without being violent.” He seemed to be listening, his ears perked at the sound of my voice. After a minimal moment, he chucked Delilah aside and came to me. Delilah scrambled away from reach, Greg running to her to make sure she was okay. Carlin’s body was slick with sweat and slowly, the darkness drifted away from me. Lance was gone and Carlin was in charge again. “I am so sorry about everything, Clarissa. Delilah. . . has some misguided notions and ambitions towards me. However, I want to make it known here and now that there is nothing between Delilah and me, not even friends anymore.” Massaging her bruised ne
Chapter 11 • An Unknown EmotionCarlin “Blood? What are you talking about, Healer?” I paced the room, aware of the panicked look on Clarissa’s face. We had just met and were getting to know each other. This was too much to comprehend. It was true that something odd was between us but bloodshed was the last thing I wanted. “It is, as I said child. A story has been retold in your generation and it involves the both of you. A love story, not allowed to be by two star crossed lovers. I have dreaded this day.” Adele raised her eyes to the ceiling, seeing far more than my eyes could. Clarissa beckoned on me silently and I returned to my place beside her. Without thinking about it, my fingers went behind her neck, kneading the stress away and occasionally combing her hair lightly with my fingers. “Healer… can you tell us this story? I have been having some nightmares and Carlin some daydreams, both of a similar nature.” “Why didn’t you let me know?” Adele accused me, pointing a wrinkl
Chapter 12 • Bitter Memory Carlin Coming to, my head felt like it had been bashed with a blunt object. It ached a lot as I struggled to keep my eyes open but seeing the worry on Clarissa’s face, I did not want to cause her any more grief. She was weeping over me and rubbing her hands all over my body. Kaira stood near the door, equally bewildered. Clarissa followed the direction of my eyes and dismissed the relieved handmaid. “Carlin, my love, I… I saw you… in that ugly cell. What does it all mean?” Like I had any answers myself. She watched me in expectation and I massaged the back of my sore neck. It was a flashback that had pulled into the darkness. That kiss of hers had triggered a very bitter memory from my past life. “I don’t have all the answers, Clarissa but I was in a flashback. The man you saw behind the cell was Lance and not me. I was merely trapped in his body and… and while I heard your voice, I could not move an inch.” Clarissa nibbled on her full lower lip th
Chapter 13 • Childhood Friends Clarissa I had to give it to her: Delilah had some guts. You would think that after I had stopped Carlin from strangling her to death, she would take the hint to stay away from me. Instead, she stood in my makeshift room, offering friendship. “You don’t have to say yes right now,” she added, “I can wait if you want to think about it.” I lifted the tray off my lap, finished with my meal and replaced it on the table. “There is nothing for me to think about, Delilah. You don’t like me and you don’t want me here, especially close to Carlin. However, I am not going anywhere, at least not anytime soon so you better get used to seeing my face. Now, you should leave before Carlin gets here.” “Too late,” Carlin corrected, entering the room with an air of superiority. His father was still alive but I could see the kind of Alpha he would become. His enemies would shudder at the mere sound of his name. He blocked the entrance, trapping Delilah between us.
Chapter 14 • Unspoken Plea Clarissa For the second day in a row, I had gone to bed with Carlin and woken up without him. I was feeling more energized than when I fell asleep and my headache was a thing of the past. Somehow, I had even woken up before Kaira did but had poked her awake to get my bath ready. My wolf was on alert now, no longer dulled by the effects of sickness. Whatever Adele had mixed up in that little bottle had been unpleasant to my taste buds but had done its job perfectly. After my bath, I made myself ready for Carlin’s arrival, knowing we would have to leave for the healer’s hut soon. “Won’t you have something to eat, Mistress? Your father has not seen you in days and he is worried.” In my anxiety, I had forgotten the need to eat and keep up my strength. It was true that I had not seen Father in days, a rather strange occurrence. Back in Black Paw, we ate breakfast together almost everyday and a day did not go by without me sharing a few words with him. Cur
Chapter 15 • Dreaded brother Carlin Of all the people I never wanted to see at this moment. Threshold was one of them. His weasely smile, as always pissed me off. "What are you doing in my room, Threshold" I asked, my voice was filled with the same rage I had displayed with Delilah. Clarissa looked at me with concern, her vulnerable lips quivering into a question. If only she knew. "Since when have I need a reason to see my big brother." His silky voice replied. He got up from my bed and walked towards us. I instinctually held Clarissa closer. Threshold had a habit of taking things that weren't his. Just like how he walked around my room as if it were his. "Release me."Clarissa ordered and I quickly obliged her. Maybe I was beginning more of her pet. "You may refer to me as Clarissa. Now tell me what are you doing here?" Her voice demanded. And for the first time in the many years I had known my little brother, he hesitated for a moment in front of a female. "My lady. You'll h