1. Rejected

Killian's POV

“I Trisha August, reject you Killian Avery, as my fated mate.” Trisha’s words stabbed deep inside my heart. I never thought that I would be rejected by my own mate. I have always wished for the day that I would find her, I have always wished to feel the mate bond.

“Please Trisha, why? You are my mate. Moon goddess chose you for me.” I ask, not being able to concede the tears which are flowing freely off my face. You might think I am weak, but the rejection hurts so much, literally.

“Oh, please, you might be the next Alpha and all, but I don’t want you. You are so boring, Killian. I have known you ever since, and there is nothing about you that intrigues me, so accept the rejection so that I can be on my way. Don’t bore me with your stupid tears.” Trisha says to me. Her words are so bitter to me. How could she just reject me just like that?

“No, I am not going to accept it. You are my fated mate.” I say to her. I know that when one rejects their mate, it is very rare to find a second chance mate. I don’t want to have to endure a life all alone. And the mate bond between Trisha and I doesn’t allow me to do that. It is extremely painful, I can’t take it.

“Please Killian, what part of I don’t want you, don’t you understand?” She shouts at me. It isn’t a good idea to force yourself on someone who doesn’t want you. It hurts, but I just have to.

“I Killian Avery, accept your rejection Trisha August.” And that is it, I have lost my mate forever. She smiles and skips away from me in happiness. I feel the mate bond breaking with each step she takes. Her sweet scent vanishes all of a sudden. Our bond is broken. It hurts so bad, it’s like someone took my heart out, put it on the ground and started stomping on it.

I thought that today would be the best day of my life. The moment I felt her scent, I rushed towards where it was coming from. I found her standing, she looked eager too, she was looking so elegant and classy. She looked perfect. All I wanted was to just rush into her arms and take her away with me. But when she laid her eyes on me, her look immediately changed. Her smile lit up face became a frown and that is when it happened. That is when she uttered the most hurtful words I have ever heard. The words that reduced me to nothing. All the strength I have, all the respect I get, is nothing when my own mate rejects me. I mean absolutely nothing to her.

I had been looking for my mate for two years, but I didn't find her. I knew exactly why when I found out it was Trisha. She had been living outside our pack for three years. She went to further her studies abroad.

I sit on the bench near the pack pool, completely lost, despite the loud music coming from the other side. I feel so useless, my heart is shattered. All my dreams are broken. What am I going to do now.

What is being an Alpha without a mate, I will be very miserable. I feel so weak, yet I am considered the strongest wolf after my father.

I decide being there isn't a good idea. My mum could find me in this state, and it isn't good. I want her to be happy the way she is right now. It's my parent's anniversary party, I don't want to spoil their mood. The best thing is to get away from the main pack house.

My name is Killian Avery, a twenty-year-old soon to be Alpha of the West Wood pack. I am the eldest son to my parents, George and Anna Avery. I have two siblings, Matthew who is now seventeen and Catherine who is just ten years old. She is my favorite sister, well, I mean, the only sister I have.

I decide the best thing to do is to just go on a long drive, maybe that would make me feel better.

I head towards the back of the house, I don't want to risk anyone spotting me. Good thing the parking garage is further than where the party is.

I get into my FJ cruiser, my best car, I ignite it and I just start driving. I don't have a destination in mind, but only a throbbing pain sucking the air out of my lungs. I feel the pain in my chest literally. I know it's going to take sometime for me to heal from the rejection.

'She really rejected us.' My wolf Lamar breaks the silence.

'Yeah she did.' I say back to him. He is broken, just like me.

'Let's just look for her and apologize, how will we live without her.'? Lamar asks.

He sounds devastated, he never even got to meet Trisha's wolf; his mate.

'You know it doesn't work that way, Lamar.' I answer.

'Yeah, I know.' He sighs in defeat.' I need to be alone.' He says politely. He knows I need the space too.

'Alright.' I answer him.

'But if you need me, I will be right here.' I know I can count on him completely.

I am happy that Lamar is with me. How could I have survived all alone?

I have never been rejected by any female before. I have always been a bad boy. I could get whomever I wanted. But when Trisha rejected me, I felt like trash. It made me question myself, my whole life. Since I turned eighteen, I have decided not to be with any other woman. I was waiting for my mate.

So now that she doesn't want me, there is no need for me to be loyal to someone who doesn't even want me. I am going to be my old self again. To heck with being good. What's the point if the punishment is this ruthless? I am hurting, yes, but I am going to have my life back in one way or another.

I pack my car and I text my beta Thomas. I know my parents will be looking for me the moment they notice that I am gone. I tell Thomas that I had an emergency, so I had to attend to something urgent and I will be back before they know it.

Now I only have to find a place to cool off.