Masuk
~SAFFRON~
“Oh my God!” I gasp, my eyes widening as my boyfriend devours a blonde chick's mouth. It looks like a hot scene from a young adult movie. I stumble back in shock, my heart beating like a war drum. It's my nineteenth birthday. He'd promised he would come to my party, but hours ago, when I called to ask where he was, he texted that he's being held up by his coach. What are the chances that the Scarlett Johansson look-alike in his lap is his coach? I'm still in shock, transfixed by the heartbreaking sight, and that's when Maxwell opens his eyes to see me. He immediately pushes the blondie off him and springs to his feet. I want to run, spare myself whatever explanation he's cooking up, but I can't. In fact, I move—toward him, my legs shaking like a leaf in the wind. “Saffron. What are you doing here?” he asks breathlessly, turning around like he's hoping to catch the bastard who brought me here. To a random party. “Tate said you were here…” I mutter, eyes fluttering. He looks disheveled, his blonde hair tousled, his mouth swollen from all that kissing. “Who’s she?” I point at the stunning girl watching us with a pair of smoky blue eyes. She's the definition of a hot college chick, the kind of girl boys post all over their rooms. Oh God. I should have listened to Kate’s advice to forget about Maxwell when he left for college. In Kate's words, boys turn into manwhores in college. “She’s uh...” He scratches the back of his head, his face scrunching like it always does whenever he's about to lie. “I'm his college girlfriend.” The blondie says, stepping forward, her arm placed on Maxwell's shoulders. I notice how her nails are long and so... red. Whereas mine are chopped and multi-colored like a K-pop idol’s. “Girlfriend? But...” I turn to Maxwell, hoping he can explain to her who I am. He sighs and drags a hand down his face. “Listen, Saff,” he starts with an apologetic expression, “Anora here is my… college girlfriend.” I hear a ringing in my ears followed by a slam in my chest. I blink back, trying to understand what I just heard. “College girlfriend? What does that even mean?” I meant to chuckle, but it comes out as a snort, making my situation even worse. “It means we're over, Saff. I'm done with you.” His words hit like a bucket of ice dumped on me. But he doesn't stop there, in fact, he goes on to insult me. "You're sweet, Saff. And... decent-looking. But Anora? She's a ten!” he says enthusiastically, like one of those mean boys who want surgery-enhanced girls and not the realistic mid ones like me. “I’m in college now and you're not. We can't be together anymore. I'm with Anora now.” The Anora in question wraps her arms around Maxwell's torso, giving me a mocking smile as if to say I'm better than you, tra-la-la-la. God, it hurts. I literally have to rub my chest to soothe the burning ache. I can't even breathe properly now. It feels like that one time I had a panic attack when I saw my dad run over by a car. “Max… it's my birthday today.” Wrong. Wrong, stupid, wrong! I shouldn't have said that and when Anora laughs, I feel even stupider. “And what has that got to do with him?” She keeps laughing at me. And God, I want to slap her into next week, but she looks like she could beat the shit out of me. Plus I'm not even strong enough to throw a punch right now. It's like I'm torn up from inside and my eyes are burning with tears. “You shouldn't have come all the way here, Saff. Just go back to your birthday party and forget about me.” I choke in shock when Maxwell turns away with his new girlfriend. They aren't even back in their seats before they start kissing again. Hatred mixed with pain scorches through me and the urge for revenge pushes me to do the most ridiculous thing ever. I look around, searching, and there's a really hot guy smoking by a corner. He's Damon-Salvatore-hot, in a tight black tee that clings to his muscular body. He even has an arm and a neck tat and ear piercing. Oh, he's perfect! I stomp over, pluck the cigarette from his fingers, and blurt, "I'm sorry, but can you hold your breath for a second?" "What?" He scowls. And right then, I grab his hard face and kiss him. He tries to move away, but I push closer, my chest brushing his hard chest. My heart pounds as I expect him to push me off and call the cops but he doesn't. In fact, he relaxes into the kiss and just lets me assault him. “Saffron! What the fuck do you think you're doing?!” Maxwell drags me away from the stranger. I almost lost my balance, stumbling back. “What does it look like, Max? I'm kissing my new boyfriend!” I snap at him, my eyes wild and my chest heaving. “Are you fucking nuts?!” Maxwell grabs his hair like he's going crazy, horrified as his eyes dart between me and the hot stranger. “Do you know who he is?!” “I don't fucking care!” I yell. “You cheat on me with a college girl, I replace you with a hot guy. Sounds like a fair trade.” I shrug, folding my arms across my chest. It feels like I'm high—high on adrenaline because there's no way I could have kissed a total stranger sober. And I can't stop licking my lips, savoring the ashy taste of his tongue. Maybe smoking isn't that bad after all. “Hey, man, I'm so sorry—” Maxwell tries to apologize to the guy but he cuts him off with one word. “Walk.” Holy shit. His voice catches me off guard, like a deep rumble in the dark. Maxwell looks shocked but he recollects himself quickly and speaks again, “Listen, she's—” “I really hate repeating myself.” My hot stranger growls again. Maxwell scoffs, totally embarrassed. He eyes me disdainfully, shakes his head at me and marches away angrily. Anora tries to hold him but he pushes her off and leaves the party. Now, I'm left with the guy I just assaulted and I wish the ground would open up and swallow me. “Look…” I start, not daring to meet his gaze that's burning into my side profile, “I know that was awkward but I was just trying to—” “I don't care.” He cuts me off, stands up and I stumble back because my God, he's so tall. I watch him in awe as he walks away, the muscles of his back moving in his shirt. He looks like he goes to the gym a lot. And I wonder what his abs look like. “Hey!” a high-pitched voice calls. When I turn, a splash of champagne hits my face. I gasp, blind for a couple of seconds, the alcohol stinging my eyes. When I look up, it's Anora, watching me with a frown. “Stay away from Maxwell. He's mine now,” she warns and then struts away in her denim mini skirt. A few people laugh, mostly boys. Others don't care. It's like they see two girls fight over a boy every time. I gather my shivering self, my head down as I walk out of the party in shame, my clothes drenched in alcohol, my heart shattered. Once outside, it starts to drizzle, and I try not to cry, but it's so hard. I f*el so miserable. I got cheated on and humiliated on my birthday. I guess the nineteenth love theory is true after all—that silly idea Kate always teased me about, how your love life peaks or crashes at nineteen. As I walk under the drizzle turned rain, I vow in my sore heart that Maxwell will regret dumping me for a college hottie... because in four weeks, I am going to college. And I'm going to be the next college IT girl. Except I can't afford a top college f*e like Maxwell.~SAFFRON~ “Oh, honey. Turn around. Let me take a good look at you.” My mom steps back, her hands clapping together beneath her chin as she beams at my reflection. She looks utterly radiant in her deep emerald gown, her dark hair pinned up into a flawless, elegant twist. “Mom, you look beautiful,” I say, smoothing down the silk of my champagne-colored dress. “We look beautiful,” she corrects, leaning down to press a quick kiss to my cheek. Her expensive perfume envelops me. Then her phone buzzes sharply. She glances at the screen, her expression shifting into hostess mode. “The Millers are downstairs.” She mutters and my heart skips a beat. “I have to go now. Don't be long, sweetie!” With a frantic wave, she hurries out. The soft rustle of her gown fades down the corridor until the heavy click of my bedroom door leaves me in silence. I take a slow, shaky breath and lift my left wrist, tracing the silver links of the charm bracelet Elixir gave me. It feels cold against my ski
~JASON~Account Restricted.The banking app flashes blood-red on my screen. I let out a flat laugh and toss my phone onto the mattress. Barely eight in the morning and my father has cut me off again. Classic. Freeze the accounts, lock the cards, and wait for me to come crawling. He still thinks money can control me, forgetting that stopped mattering the day my mother passed away while he was busy closing a deal across town.Flexing my right hand, the athletic tape pulls tight over my raw knuckles, sending a dull throb up my arm. Every time I close my eyes, I remember the feeling of Elixir’s jaw under my fist. The asshole came pretending to apologize, but all he did was taunt me by bringing up my mother. He deserved worse. My only regret is that she yelled at me to stop before I could do real damage.I pull a gray shirt over my head and head downstairs to clear my head and get some coffee. But the second I reach the bottom of the stairs, I realize I won’t find any peace today. The ho
~SAFFRON~ I stand up slowly and walk toward the stairs without a word. Behind me, my mom calls my name, her voice tight with an anxiety I can't face right now, but I keep moving. Reaching my bedroom, I close the door, and slide the lock into place. Sitting on the edge of my bed and tracing the rough seam of my jeans over and over. Where is Jason right now? The question won't stop looping, driving me crazy as I picture him driving too fast down the highway, his face bruised and his hands raw. I can still hear the tremor in his voice when he told Fred how easily his mother had been replaced, a raw flash of grief that reminds me of my father. My bag slips off my shoulder, hitting the floor with a heavy thud, and inside, my phone buzzes against the hardwood—another text from Elixir, followed immediately by another. I pull it out, staring at his name until my eyes burn, then hold down the power button until the screen goes completely black. Tossing it onto the nightstand, I bury my f
~SAFFRON~ The ride back to the mansion feels unbearably long. I keep my forehead pressed against the cool glass, watching the trees streak by in a hazy green blur. No matter how hard I try, the images from the courtyard refuse to fade. The sickening crack of fists on flesh. The roar of the crowd. Elixir’s bloody smirk as he hurled those vicious words about Jason’s mother. I had spent weeks convincing myself that Elixir was the safe choice—the steady, affectionate boyfriend who could give me something normal. But after today, that illusion is cracking. The cruelty I saw in him… it shocked me. I don’t know who he is anymore. And the worst part is, I’m torn between two boys who both scare me in different ways. By the time I arrive at the mansion, my stomach is in knots. I barely make it through the foyer before chaos erupts. The front doors shut behind me as Fred’s voice booms from the top of the grand staircase. “I had to walk out of a critical board meeting because the dean cal
~SAFFRON~The silence in the car is different today. Usually, the space between us fills easily with the radio or casual conversation about our classes. Today, the quiet is extremely suffocating, stretching like a physical wall across the center console.Elixir pulls up to the campus curb and puts the car in park, leaving the engine running."Here we are," he says softly. He forces a smile, but it doesn't reach his eyes. The bright, confident spark he usually carries is missing, replaced by a fragile, careful politeness that makes my stomach twist with guilt."Thank you," I murmur, reaching for my bag.Before my fingers touch the handle, Elixir is already out of the car. He walks around the hood and opens my door as usual, offering his hand to help me out. His fingers are warm, but the moment my feet hit the pavement, he lets go. He doesn't lean in for a kiss. He doesn't drape his arm over my shoulder as we walk toward the courtyard. He treats me like I am made of glass, keeping a saf
~SAFFRON~ I grip the edges of Elixir’s overturned wooden nightstand and haul it upright. A few feet away, Elixir bends down to pick up two dented hockey trophies, his movements heavy and robotic. "You don't have to do this, Saff," His voice cracks as he sets the trophies back onto his desk. I look over at him, carrying a handful of torn hockey posters over to the trash can. "I want to. We're in this together." He nods slowly, reaching down to grab a broom to start sweeping up the shattered glass. Every time our hands brush while passing a stray item or clearing a shelf, Elixir offers a small, exhausted smile. The heavy, dangerous tension in his frame slowly starts to dissipate, anchored by the fact that we are fixing this together. When the floor is finally clear of glass and the furniture is back in place, an awkward, heavy silence settles over us. Elixir looks so vulnerable, so entirely drained by it all that I know I need to create a distraction before he spirals back int
~SAFFRON~I didn't fight it. I couldn't. It's like I'm paralyzed. His lips are surprisingly plush, parting just enough for a rush of cool mint to flood my mouth, cutting through the faint salt of his sweat. The kiss is brief, ending with a soft, wet smack that echoes in my ears, and I’m left clingi
~SAFFRON~The food in my stomach churns as Jason's intense blue eyes stare at me. I see him more clearly now, and good lord, he's a very beautiful boy. It has only been a few weeks, but he somehow looks more good looking than I remember him to be. I notice now that he has a sexy little cleft in his
~SAFFRON~~Weeks Later~Five years ago, my mom swore she'd never remarry. She lied. She also told me we’d never leave my Father's memories behind, so what the fuck is she saying right now, asking me to move in with her to her newly wedded husband’s house in New York? Leaving my lovely and peaceful
~SAFFRON~The afternoon sun filters through the leaves of the old oak on the east lawn, throwing patchy shadows over the grass where Erica and I sit. Classes let out almost an hour ago, but I told my mom they were running late so I could wait here without any questions. Erica sprawls next to me, le







