Chapter 70

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I looked down at the twins who were sleeping in their cots and I couldn't help but feel a sting of pain right through my heart.

I thought I had lost Ellie. I thought that she was dead and that I was going to have to do this all on my own. I haven't got a bloody clue what I'm doing and I certainly proved that when I ended up hitting Michael; now neither of the boys want to speak to me and Jayson is still in the hospital.

I am a terrible friend and I would have been an even worse father if I was left to do this alone. I need Ellie by my side but she keeps doing things which are going to get her killed one day and, when that day comes, I don't know what the hell I am going to do with my life - she was only gone nine days this time around and I could barely cope without her.

I loved both the twins. I really did love them and being a father is a dream come true.