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CHAPTER FIVE: SHAME
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NIKOLAI’S POVI’ve been insulted before. I’ve been hated before. People have thrown far worse at me with much more venom. It’s not new to me.But none of that ever hurt as much as Aiden’s words. He was cruel and he knew it. I should be angry. Furious. Something fitting for the things he threw at me. But all I feel is this heavy, sinking disappointment and... pain.I take a long breath through my nose to try to let it out but I can’t seem to calm myself down. I just never thought he’d see it the way he did. See…me that way.Did I come on too hard? Was it what I did in the hallway? Fuck.I hit the brakes and type a message before I can stop myself.[I’m sorry I made you feel cheap.That was never what you were to me. I’ll stay away from now on.] I throw my phone in the seat with a sigh and press on the accelerator until the Maybach speeds through the streets. I don’t bother going home knowing I’m just going to drink till I pass out. I need to hit something.I park by an abandoned buil
RUIN MY 4.0 CHAPTER FIVE: SHAME
AIDEN’S POVFuck. I was barely able to sleep last night. I sigh, trying to shrug my headache off, it’s not like I sleep properly anyway, My room is still dark, curtains drawn against the light rays outside. I’m tiredly rubbing my eyes when memories from yesterday crash into my head.No. No. No.This has to be a fucking joke. There’s no way…I stumble to the bathroom, slap the light on, and stare at my neck in the mirror.Jesus fucking Christ.There’s a chain of bruises from my ear all the way to my chest. Dark, obscene hickeys that only one person could have made.My face burns so hot in embarrassment as a mortifying heat crawls up my throat. I have to grip the sink so I don’t punch the glass.“What the hell were you thinking?” I whisper to myself.Not only did I let him touch me, I came in his hand. In a public hallway. Where anyone could’ve walked by. I begged him. I begged him like a fucking porn star and then bit his shoulder so no one would hear me scream when I came all
RUIN MY 4.0 CHAPTER FOUR: OBSESSION
NIKOLAI'S POV The heavy bag swung hard under my fists.Thud. Thud. Thud.The private gym on the top floor of my penthouse was still dark except for the red glow of the city lights that shone through the floor-to-ceiling windows.Sweat dripped off my jaw, stung my eyes and soaked the waistband of my low-slung shorts.I barely feel the pain. I haven’t felt anything except this gnawing, clawing need for weeks.My name is Nikolai Serrano. I'm twenty-two years old and the sole owner of Serrano & Partners, a law empire that spans seven firms across Manhattan and Brooklyn.I have more money than most small countries, and a reputation that makes grown men nervous when I walk into a room.I have everything.And until six weeks ago I had nothing.Thud.I drive a right hook into the bag so hard the chain rattles.Six weeks ago, I was leaving my Midtown office at one in the morning and I cut through the East Village on foot because I’d never taken that route before.And that’s when I saw him
RUIN MY 4.0 CHAPTER THREE: POSSESSION
Aiden's POV I didn’t sleep last night. I couldn't.Every time I closed my eyes, I saw that slow, filthy smile and I just got riled up again.Now I’m on hour four of my 5 a.m. shift at Brew & Burn and my entire body feels like it’s been dragged behind a bus. The espresso machine keeps hissing like it’s personally offended by my existence.I’m wiping the counter when the bell chimes and that accented voice that makes me shiver comes through. What the fuck is he doing here?“Large black coffee, extra hot.”Nikolai Serrano is leaning against my counter in a dove-gray cashmere coat with collar popped. He looks like he walked off a Paris runway and that just made me more pissed.“We’re out of coffee.”He laughs loudly, obviously amused. “You can't be out of coffee. This is a fucking coffee shop.”I slam the bell harder than necessary. “Fine. Name for the order?”“You already know my name, Aiden,” he murmurs, voice pitched low so the two customers in the corner can’t hear. “You screamed it
RUIN MY 4.0 CHAPTER TWO: NIKOLAI SERRANO
Aiden's POV The school nurse’s office smells like cheap antiseptic. Lily is limp in my arms, her body burning hot, while the nurse speaks to me.“She threw up twice in class, Aiden. Temperature, 101.8. But honestly…” She lowers her voice, glancing at the sleeping child. “She’s down another four pounds since the spring screening. That puts her in the fifth percentile for an eight-year-old. She’s malnourished. I’m required to file a report if there’s no improvement by next month.”Her words hit like a punch to my chest.I nod once, my jaw locked so tight it ached. “Thank you for telling me.”I carry Lily the eight blocks home because the bus takes too long and I need the air to calm me down. She weighs almost nothing, and even that makes my heart break.'I love her more than the whole sky,' I think to myself. I will burn the world down before I let it keep hurting you.*...*...*...*...*...*...*...The apartment reeked of stale beer before I could even get the key in the lock.I step in
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