4. Why Him?

“Raven!” Liliana sighs while jumping up on the bed and hugs me when Dad sits down on the bed with me in his arms.

“Lily,” I cry while holding onto her with the blanket tightly around me.

“Raven it’s ok,” Dad reassures while rubbing my back and I nod my head as I feel my mother’s rage nearly choking me like a thick fog.

“I know Mom is angry,” I whisper while looking over at her as she paces next to the bed.

“Mom was really scared, no one could find you and you’re naked,” Liliana admits while looking into my nearly black eyes and I look down and away.

“I’m sorry,” I whisper while crawling into my bed holding the fur blanket over me.

“Raven we’re just happy you’re ok. I’m glad Osric found you and helped you,” our dad reassures while rubbing my back as I face the wall knowing everyone was upset with me.

“No!” I scream holding onto the fur blanket as tight as I can feeling it being pulled off of me.

“Raven let go! You’re not keeping it!” Rebecca growls firmly pulling the blanket away and I shake my head with my jaw clinched feeling anger like I have never felt.

“No, it’s mine! He gave it to me,” I cry trying my hardest to rip it from her hands but she won’t let go.

“He shouldn’t have been here! Raven you’re not to see him again if you smell his scent again you come home to Dad or I. You are not keeping this,” Rebecca nearly screams ripping the blanket from my hands making Dad stand and Liliana move by me.

“I hate you! He is mine! The blanket is mine!” I scream while standing up as my body instinctively changes into a small crimson wolf growling at my mother.

“No, Raven don’t,” Liliana cries wrapping her arms around my waist when I try to lunge at my mother in blind rage feeling like she is taking away a part of me.

“Raven!” Rebecca snaps before Dad gets between us and grabs the blanket from her hands.

“Stop! Please stop,” Liliana cries out as I feel her trembling against me feeling that she is scared of us fighting.

“Liliana it’s ok. Rebecca she is keeping the blanket and you are wrong, we were lucky Alpha Osric and Beta Embry found her she could have died… Raven, you have to calm down or you’re going to hurt someone,” Dad reassures while taking the blanket and Rebecca storms out of the room.

“Daddy what’s wrong? Who was that man?” Liliana questions while letting me go so I crawl under the blanket my dad puts down.

“Mom is just scared she doesn’t know how to react when she’s this afraid; you know she felt what happened just like you did. That was Alpha Osric he’s an old friend,” Dad answers as I close my eyes and change back nervous that I am in more trouble.

“Why is she so mad?” Liliana asks watching me as I slowly move where my head is exposed.

“She didn’t expect to see Alpha Osric so soon, Mom doesn’t like being surprised and she’s very protective of her girls,” Dad answers while brushing Liliana’s hair back then gets up.

“Why was I drawn to him?” I question watching our dad get into the dresser as Liliana lays down.

“Because he’s an Alpha and his scent is probably familiar, he was here when you two were barely old enough to walk,” Dad answers while coming back over with a night gown and pair of underwear for me.

“Thank you, I’m sorry I scared everyone,” I apologize while getting up and begin to get dressed.

“You’re welcome, you don’t have any reason to be sorry I held Liliana feeling both of you when you were attacked. I’m just relieved Alpha Osric and Beta Embry were here to help you and heal you,” our dad admits while pulling the blankets up letting me slide into bed next to Liliana.

“I could feel him differently… I could feel he was really scared and angry when he found me, but he was really gentle with me and he was really nice,” I smile gently as Dad lays the fur blanket over us instead of our usual top blanket.

“Good, he is a good man, you two get some rest now it has been a very long night and morning,” Dad smiles while sitting on the edge of the bed and kisses my forehead.

“Good night, Daddy, I love you,” I yawn while cuddling up to Liliana which makes him smile.

“I love you too, good night girls. I love you Liliana,” Dad smiles while kissing Liliana’s forehead and she hugs him.

“I love you too, Daddy, good night,” Liliana replies as our dad begins tucking us into bed.

“You girls sleep well, when you wake up Mummo will have biscuits and gravy made and maybe even some reindeer steak,” Dad smiles while getting up then closes the curtains where the room is dark before turning off the light and leaving the room.

“Raven are you ok?” Liliana questions once we are alone as I look into her bright blue eyes.

“Yeah, I’m scared of Mom, and everything hurts especially my ribs and side,” I admit while looking down as Liliana puts her hand over my side creating a soft white light between her hand and my side.

“Mom loves you she was just scared, I began to freak out I had no idea what was happening, but she and Daddy instantly knew. I hope that helps,” Liliana reassures while resting her head against my shoulder still healing me.

“I know Mom is scared, but she gets angry and mean way too fast when I did nothing wrong,” I try hard to stop myself from crying knowing it will get me nowhere nor change how my mother treats me.

“I just think that’s how Mommy is when she’s scared, I know you shifting this early makes her nervous and you were attacked,” Liliana admits while brushing my hair back out of my face and I nod understanding what she means.

“I missed you tonight, I wish we could have shifted together,” I speak with a slight whine in my voice feeling nervous that Liliana and I didn’t shift at the same time.

“I missed you too, I don’t like being left behind. I know I can’t ask you to stay inside and not hunt, you need to be able to run around, I just wish I could go with you,” Liliana sighs deeply as she buries her face in my shoulder and I nod my head.

“I will try to stay closer next time; I ended up following Alpha Osric’s scent and found him in the woods. I caught a bunny,” I giggle remembering stalking and catching the bunny.

“I’m happy you got to hunt, what is it like being a wolf?” Liliana questions with wonder in her voice making me blush trying to think of how to describe it.

“It’s like being in the mind of a wolf, there is a lot of natural instinct as well as what’s already in here. It feels very freeing and so fun being able to run around so freely,” I try explain while pointing to my head hoping she understands what I mean about having an animalistic mentality with the human side still being there.

We talk for a little while then fell asleep cuddled up together.