It hurts because it matters.~ARLET~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~The sunrise grew up as it had missed the sky and knocked at my window, wanting nothing more than to open my blue orbs and turn them into gold.A new day and a new hope. That’s what I was taught. I drew myself into a seating position and glanced around; what could I be thankful for?I guess everything.Whatever I asked, this universe gave me. It’s just that it needs a slight change, maybe a lifetime of love, and several heartbreaks. I rubbed my palms jointly and held the heat in my eyes, whipping new hope and dreams for today.The conditions might be the same, but I would choose to act differently; this is what I have learned over the seasons. I am Arlet Amor, ready to take my small world. I cleared my stiff frame from the duvet, and the next moment my eyes landed on a beautiful sparkling piece, bringing me back, and clashing my declared words to reality.It looked surreal and sifted through my mind to the exact moment when
You cannot break a woman who wraps herself with love, faith, and prayers.~ARLET~~~~~~~~~~The sight of the releasing white smoke in the air before I could stop them made me clasp my chest with desperation. I swallowed my seized heart painfully. With a heavy core, I walked down the hallway and came to my room, only to see my phone buzzing, displaying Milo’s name.I picked up the phone but ensured my eyes were clear and sparkling, fading from all the incidents.“Hey,” he mumbled, but as far as I know, he would read my eyes, and I couldn’t allow to show him anything. I waved my hand with an enlightened smile.“So, are you coming today?” My eyes shifted from the screen towards the wall clock, realizing nobody had told me when Raya would return. I bobbed, conceding to his request to meet at ten.“Is everything fine with you?” I pretended to frown and motioned. I missed him so much. Lips twirled up, and I knew my act of a smile convinced him.“See you at ten. Do you want me to pick you up
I don’t know what I was really hoping when those mercury orbs scanned me.~ARLET~******************With the ability to draw listeners, Radio wave launched a unique show to let the listener become the in-house player. Milo parked his car as we reached, and we headed towards this building, carrying a significant emblem of Radio wave.As we entered, Milo and I headed toward the information center. A cute brunette looked over from the screen and checked Milo first. His charm approached the lady first, before his words. He gifted a killer smile, not missing a single opportunity for her not to stand and help her.“How can I help you?”“Radio wave.”This time I got her attention, and no wonder she didn’t like my presence beside him.“For whispers of love?” Milo looked at me to grab the confirmation, which I was not sure about.“We came here for your love poems, songs, something...” Milo could never be annoyed with all these things, and me? I was super excited to know everything.“That’s wh
I am in love just with the deception you have created between us.~Arlet~~~~~~~~~~~~Roses are red. Violets are blue. There is only one life I want to spend with you. Carrying this card I made on valentine’s day. I rode my bike to get close to the high school to give it to him. But I couldn’t advance on the street; my feet jammed even if I practiced in front of the mirror a thousand times. Call it my nervousness or the fear of rejection, but I never gave my first letter to him.I stood there when he and his friends crossed the street and walked past me. I called his name, but no one heard me.Ruben...Ruben... and someone pushed me from my bike, and I fell.My eyes upsurged, and the bright light falling on my cornea made them shut again. With caution, my eyes adjusted to the light coming from the window.It was a dream.I sat in a sitting posture against the headboard and conceded I was in my room, but how did I land here when the last scene I remember was not the same?“You are awak
Just because I carry it well doesn’t mean I am not hurt.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~RUBEN~Human proposes, and God disposes. This is what I read somewhere a few days back, and I didn’t notice I would use the exact quote for myself. I suggested Reile, and God disposed of my proposal ignominiously and punished me with a mute woman. I had anger inside me, and even if I wanted to yell my pain out, I couldn’t.I hate the fact I can’t express my anger at her when I concede why she accepted this fake marriage.What would people think? Ruben has become a monster punishing a woman who can’t even talk. I would keep those people aside for a moment, but for Raya, I was the man she would look up to.Just because I carry it well, it doesn’t mean I am not hurt. The pain of betrayal in love was more than anything else. Suffocating myself, I didn’t know what else to do to keep myself alive. Work and office have become my priorities, but how did I forget I have Raya to give me hope?It was the appointment d
There is a feeling of being trapped between wanting to forget and wanting to hold on.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~RUBEN~Sprinting from my suffocating vulnerability, my foot stopped beside my car. Looking intently at the marching cloud, ready to wash away, everything on the ground thundered again. But they could not stop me from celebrating my failure.First, my marriage, and then my business. Everything was pulling back from me, and I couldn’t do anything but stand and watch it going like a dunce. I drove past the resistance, pulling me back into my home to look after the woman who suffered through my hand, but what a botch I had inside that brought out the worst in me. What a mess I was in where I was the culprit, and I was the victim, too.The haunted maze reminded me of my mistakes. Falling in love is pulling me down and making me suffer more.Brayan watched me.“I just... I’m losing everything, Brayan.”“These architects, I worked hard to get them onboarded.” Even the booming music coul
Why does it feel when I lose the last molecule of loving you? That would be the time you would fall for me.~~~~~~~~Ruben~If you run a long way, your muscles need rest to recover, and the same demand comes from your exhausted mind when you want to be alone or talk to someone and seek a solution. After yesterday’s encounter with my parents, I had drifted a step further into the pit of remorse. There was everything to argue, but nothing to act on. Looking out from the glass walls, the scenic view that regularly makes me proud has lost its charm.Fishing out my second cigarette, burned the other side, and the eyes landed on the fucking wedding band. A nameless fear was restraining me, and the burden of this wedding pulled me down. How am I going to get rid of her? It seems like I have sought this question a thousand hours, but no answer shoved out. The intercom call dragged my focus back to my table, reminding me Miles would be here in a few minutes.Dad handed me his hotel chains busi
Every time you judge me, you are showing me a part of you that needs healing.~ARLET~There comes a time when pushing someone’s expectations has become difficult to execute. The evening arrived when the anticipations coming from Kathy and Michael had to be performed. Since morning I was restless, thinking, am I the right person to go with Ruben?Do we need to pretend like a happily married couple in love in front of his friends, too? Because last time I checked, their expressions on the wedding evening exported the confusion, same as Ruben’s.Looking at the blur mirage in the window, my mind sifted, and my thoughts accumulated; he might have ignored this invitation as his parents would not be there to keep us in check. But when he came to the breakfast table, he mentioned the party to Raya. Our eyes met, and his expression never betrayed like a stone-cold gaze towards me, expecting nothing, just avoidance. For a few days, it has become a habit for us to spend some time together at the