The ride to the gala took about thirty minutes. During that time I laid my head on Lug’s shoulder going over the speech I was expected to give while Finn filled Lug in on what to expect. Finn warned Lug about the press and photographers that were going to be there. There is a silent auction and a raffle. There is also an open bar and appetizers to enjoy. “ So you are telling me there is free booze and snacks that wouldn’t fill up Brick’s daughter. Got it.” Lug says. I laugh at the way he summed it up. I turn my head and kiss him on the cheek. “ I promise we will grab a bite when all of this is over to make it up to you. Whatever you want you.” I told him. Lug smiles down at me and gives me a quick kiss. “ How about we grab some take-out from that Chinese place you like and relax?” “ I do like the way you think. You have a deal.” I told him. Do you think Ailee was a little harsh on Candy And Reeves?
Lug Nut Watching Ailee bring those two morons down was one of the best things I have ever seen. I wasn’t lying it was hot as fuck. I wanted to strip her down right here and show everyone she is mine. The way that fat ass looked at her pissed me off. I want to punch him but I let Ailee take the lead. Not without showing the asshat who she belonged to. Yes, I got possessive. I don’t care and Ailee didn’t seem to mind it. The way that Candy girl looked at me made me want to take a shower. I’m used to women eyeing me and before Ailee I didn’t mind one bit. Now though the only person I want eyes on me is Ailee. The way Candy talked to Ailee as if she were trash. Fuck no. Candy was just cheap arm candy. Ailee is the crown jewel of this place. It was like Candy didn’t have a functioning brain cell thinking she could make Ailee look bad. Candy even said I was a h
Ace When I saw Ailee last night it had been the first time since she walked out of the clubhouse the day of the barbeque months ago. I know she has been back a few times since but that always made sure I’m not around when she is here. Most around here think I fucked up when I let Ailee walkout. And they are right. They also think I don’t want to fix what happened or even make amends with Ailee. That is where they are wrong. I want to fix my relationship with my little girl. I want her in my life. Desperately. I just don’t know-how. I have picked up the phone so many times I have lost track. I have written and deleted so many texts. But what I need to say shouldn’t be done through text. So I pull up her contact but I just can’t get myself to push the green button. What if she doesn’t answer? What if she tells me to go to hell? Then
Ailee I have been feeling increasingly tired since the gala a week ago. At first, I thought maybe I had overdone it and just needed a day of rest to bounce back. But that wasn’t the case. I also noticed black bags under my eyes. And all of my joints started to ache. Then I knew what it was. The chemo. It was making me sicker than before. My body was breaking down. The clock was ticking faster in my life. My six months had been shrunk down. I had maybe three or four left. There was still no donor to be found. I have long given up hope of Ace helping me. He doesn’t care or he would have reached out by now. I decided to keep it to myself and prepare. I need to make sure there is someone to take over the charities. I need to redo my will. And make funeral arrangements. I’m not going to make my family deal with it. They will be de
Lug Nut We were having church while the ol’e ladies were throwing a baby shower for Grethen. I told Ailee I would be over after I was done with the meeting and we would relax and watch movies. I noticed she has been extra tired lately so I wanted to have a quiet evening at home so she can rest. I know she has been doing her best to hide it from me but I noticed. I just didn’t call her out on it. I’m doing my best to pay attention to what Axle is saying. He brought up the idea of us branching out to security personnel. Offering ourselves up as bodyguards. He got the idea because the place Jace and Jax go to for hockey practice has had some vandalism issues. I’m listening, sort of. My gut is telling me something is wrong but I can’t place it. I’m sure if there was something wrong with Ailee someone would tell me. But we are in church and we aren’t allowed p
Ace I didn’t wait for permission when I chased after Lug heading to the hospital. I was going to see my daughter and no one was going to stop me. I followed them to the hospital and to the elevator. When we entered Ailee’s room I felt my heart stop beating. There was my little girl looking so small and sick laying in bed connected to tubes and wires to keep her alive. I have seen Merigold and Lilly like this before and it hurt. Don’t get me wrong. I hated seeing them like that. But this was my own flesh and blood. Seeing her like this is devastating. I feel my chest tighten and it is hard to breathe. I wanted to go to her and hold her in my arms and never let go. All those months were wasted because I couldn’t get my shit right. This isn’t how I should be meeting Ailee again. Cormac whispers something to her and she opens her eyes. Even
Lug Nut The door was cracked so I could hear everything Ace said to Ailee. I wanted to give them privacy but I also didn’t trust Acee one hundred percent yet. He would have to earn that back after what he did. Ailee would be here if he had gotten off his ass months ago. I listen to Ace tell Ailee that he was going to make her better. He said he was going to try to be a better father from here on out. But what got me is when he said he loved her. I looked around the corner of the door and saw Ailee looking at him. I don’t know what she said to him but he suddenly jumped up and hugged her. It looked like Ailee had forgiven him. That makes me smile. But not for Ace. I’m still pissed off at him for waiting this long. And for what. Even if he didn’t talk to her he should have gone ahead and donated his marrow so Ailee could survive to try to fix his fuck up. B
Ailee I spent the night in Lug’s arms just where I wanted to be. Although I would have preferred to be at home instead of in the hospital. But right now I have no control over my body. It has just given up. Not to mention my grandda wouldn’t allow me to go home right now. You are probably wondering why he is in control of what I do since I’m an adult. When I first got sick I gave my grandda power of attorney over my medical decisions if I got in this state and could make choices for myself. When I’m like this I don’t trust myself to think straight and make the right choices. I made my wishes known to him and our lawyer so they wouldn’t go overboard in trying to save me if there was no hope. I don’t want to be kept on life support just to prolong the inevitable. But from what I have gathered my end isn’t happening as soon as I thought. I have b
Lug Nut I watched Ailee being taken away and I felt a piece of my heartbreak. She was already weak and the doctors said she was just going to get worse. I stood at the door for a few minutes refusing to move. I felt a hand on my shoulder. I look over and see Cormac behind me. “ It's tough to watch her go. I know lad. But trust she is in good hands. Ailee will be in there a while. Why don't you take some time for yourself? Grab a shower and a bite. One of us will call you if anything changes.” he said. I know he is right and I should at least get a change of clothes and some coffee. There is something I need to do first. I reach into my pocket and pull out the item I hope to give Ailee soon. “ I will do that in a minute, sir. There is something I need to ask you first.” I told him. “ Go ahead,” Cormac says. I take a deep breath and layout my heart. “ Corma