I have had regular visits from Merigold for the past week while I recover from chemo. Sometimes she would bring all the kids. Sometimes just one set or the other. Lilly has stopped by twice. One time we just sat and talked another time she brought her acoustic guitar and played for me while I rested. That visit I greatly enjoyed. Even Kelly and Gretchen have stopped by a couple of times. I think Finn enjoys Kelley’s visits because they can share their passion for cars. If Kelly wasn’t already married I feel like Finn would have asked her out.
Today I am well enough to sit in the living room instead of laying in bed. I’m expecting my granda at some point to discuss some business. Merigold is also coming by today with someone she says I just have to meet. I’m sitting on the couch when I smell Merigold’s chicken noodle before I see
AileeThe day after my trip to the dispensary Merigold came by with Lug Nut to take me to lunch. Which was surprising, to say the least. I didn’t expect to see Lug Nut again. Not with my way over the top with my flirting with Lug Nut the previous day. It was completely out of character for me. But for some reason, I couldn’t help myself. It was like Lug Nut brought it out in me. Apart I didn’t even realize I had in me. I just know that I wanted to flirt with that man so I did. And you know what. It felt good too. I don’t often get a chance to feel like a woman for once. I always have to keep my ice queen mask on when I’m helping my grandda. Then I’m a patient to the doctors and nurses. I’m a princess to Callen and Finn. But to be attracted to a guy doesn’t happen often and never to this extent.But I accepted the inv
Lug Nut I have spent every day with Ailee since I told her she was mine. I even showed up at the cancer center while she was getting chemo. It took a lot of convincing to get the guards to let me in but they finally let me through. To say she was surprised is an understatement. And she wasn’t the only one. Callen and Finn were surprised I was there as well. They even tried to tell me I didn’t need to sit with Ailee. That Callen and Finn were used to being there if I wanted to go. I just sat down beside Ailee while they hooked her up to the machine that would deliver the chemo medicine. I asked the nurse questions the whole time. I wanted to know everything I could about the process and what effects it could have. They told me that from beginning to end Ailee has to sit there for two hours while they pump what amounts to poison into her body.
AileeIt has been a few days since my visit from Viper, Brick, Tank, Axel, and Rowdy. And now I’m standing on Merigold’s front porch waiting for someone to open the door. We have been invited to our first family dinner. I was a bit nervous when Merigold first asked us to come over. She assured me that it was only a few of the guys and their old ladies. And that Ace wasn’t going to be there. It seemed important to her so I said yes. She told me it had been a tradition that started a few years ago for all the family to attend these dinners and now that included me as well as Callen and Finn. We even managed to give my guards a night off since I would be surrounded by club members. It took some convincing to get my grandda to agree but when I told him who would be there he finally agreed.When the guys came over to apologize and wanted to start over it made me less
Lug Nut Tonight was the night that Ailee, Callen and Finn were coming to Harry’s to watch our concert. I may have paid extra attention when I picked out my clothes. I took my time shaving and brushing out my hair. Made sure my kutte was cleaned up. And just to made sure to get a smile out of Ailee I had my hat. Normally I didn’t pay to those things but my girl was going to be watching and I wanted to make a good impression. Lilly is on stage with Neil checking her mic. We all have wireless mic now since we saw how much better is they were with all the moving around we did. And I was grateful for it. I had a surprise for Ailee and a special song just for her.We were all in place and it was time to start the show. Neil was up first with ‘Stone In Love’ by Journ
Lug Nut The past three months have been both the best and worst of my life. I have spent every minute with Ailee that I can. I’m in her bed every night. Sometimes we enjoy each other's bodies all night long. And man does my girl have a body.It is like every curve and groove were made just for me. Sometimes we would just cuddle up and talk about anything and everything. We would watch mindless tv. All that mattered was that I was by her side. That is some of the better. I’ll give you more later. I want to get the worst out of the way. I have been to every doctor's appointment and chemo session Ailee has had. I have learned how to keep my emotions off my face during these sessions. I don't want Ailee to see how much they bother me. It shouldn’t bother me. It is Ailee that has toxins pumped into her. It is Ailee that vomits after every session, not me. But it hurts to watch he
Lug NutWhen the guys all dressed in black except for the green arm band came into the back yard I knew it couldn’t be good. When all of ten of them knelt in front of Ailee calling her their queen I was shocked and impressed. I watched Ailee go from laid back to all business in less than a second. This is a side of Ailee I knew was there but I haven’t seen yet. Well I have seen the professional business side before but this was in a whole different category. She quickly took charge. Ailee wanted me to stay behind while she went out but I wasn’t having it. It wasn’t that I thought she wouldn’t be protected. With Callen and Finn, Ailee had twelve bodyguards. Protection was the problem. First, I wanted to see for myself that she was safe. Second, I wanted to see this side of her. I know Ailee was worried about watching her be the ice queen. I could see the slight fear in her eyes. I as
Lug Nut I was sitting beside Ailee in the truck, Finn on her other side, Callen was upfront. No one spoke a word. Finn grabbed Ailee’s hands and started wiping them off with antiseptic wipes he keeps on him. Ailee never moved while Finn worked on her hands. She just stared straight ahead but I don’t think she was seeing anything. She was deep in her own head. I want to comfort her or help her somehow but I don’t know where to start. Finn finishes her hands and sets them down on her lap. I’m watching every move he makes. I can tell he is moving by routine. So I don’t interfere. I'm so focused on Finn and Ailee that I don’t notice that we have returned to the condo. Callen gets out and opens the door allowing Finn out followed by Ailee. I follow and I notice Ailee’s movements are almost robotic in nature.
AileeI woke up the next morning still on Lug nuts chest there's no place I would rather be. But it is time to start my day work calls and so does my medication. I gently slide off of Lug, careful not to wake him. I go to the bathroom to do my normal routine finishing with brushing my hair. I go to my dresser and grab some lounge clothes, sweatpants, and a t-shirt. I turn when I hear Lug stir around and wait to see if he's going to get up. The sheet has fallen to his hips showing off his bare chest. I can see the marks from my teeth and nails all down his chest. I suppose I should feel bad about them but I can’t find it in myself to worry. I like seeing them on him. Like my personal brand claiming him as mine. I admire my work for a minute, noticing that Lug isn’t waking. I get dressed quickly thinking about going to make us some breakfast. Or at least Lug. I’m still on a limited diet which sucks. But I’m hoping that will change soon. I have fait