Chapter 4

Speed

I can’t believe Merigold suckered me into going to some charity thing. That is the last thing I want to do right now. I just wanted to sit around the house, eat junk food, watch some movies and try to get my head on straight. Yea, my head. It has been all over the place lately. That’s a lie. It has been all messed up for a while now it just now includes a guy that stands at least six foot five. Milk chocolate skin. Muscles on muscles on muscles. Dark mocha hair that is buzzed short on the sides but a little longer on top. Hazel eyes that seem to look in your soul. A smile that could make a girl drop her panties in a second flat. Arms that look like they could help carry the weight of the world. Tattoos that cover both of his arms. It could take days to map all the muscles. He looks like a bodybuilder but more natural than the steroided up ones you see on tv. Wears jeans that mold to every groove on his legs. And his ass is so tight and fit it could stop traffic. He gives off an aura that makes you want to get on your knees with your hands behind your back and beg to submit to him.  They call him Brick. And judging by his body he earned that name honestly. The man is built like a brick wall and looks just as sturdy. And stunningly  gorgeous. 

I have this strong need to be around him whenever we are together in the same room. I can’t explain this pull but I want him to hold me. I wanted to feel his lips on mine. I wanted him to bend me over and give me the spanking Merigold threatened. I wanted for him to take away some of my burdens. I wanted to submit it to him. I wanted him to handcuff me to the bed and take complete control.  And that was the problem. I have never felt this drawn to anyone before and I have never wanted to submit to anyone before. I have thought about it. Even fantasized about it. I have even checked out a few clubs back home. Experimented once or twice.  But never submitted. I just couldn’t do it. I shouldn’t be thinking about any of this for many reasons.

 The first is I have to make sure my brother is taken care of. He will always be my first priority. Next is my car. I have to get it and me ready to race again. That is how I make money. Money that I need to take care of my brother and myself. I shouldn’t be looking at a guy no matter how good-looking. Or how his body was made to stop traffic. Or how comforting his chest looks and I just want to lay my head on it and let the world fade away. It doesn’t matter that I can’t get him and the things I want him to do to me out of my head. None of that should matter right now. Or ever. I don’t need anything but my brother, my car and my friends.

Then there is that voice in the back of my head yelling at me that what I feel is wrong. I shouldn’t want to be dominated. I shouldn’t want to be spanked. I shouldn’t want to release all control to that man. Or any man. I shouldn’t want to call someone sir while he uses a flogger or whip on me. No one knows that those are my thoughts. I have kept those desires and a few others to myself for as long as I can remember. Because I knew if anyone especially my family found out I would be hurt. Beaten to be exact. I have been beaten for less before. My parents and I never got along. I went against everything they believed in. I was supposed to be seen and not heard. I wasn’t supposed to stand up for myself. I wasn’t supposed to have guy friends. Men were only for marriage when I turned eighteen. I should keep the house clean, laundry done and meals made.

I wasn’t supposed to race or work on cars. And when I went against them they would be me beat me. When they went after my brother because instead of treating his deafness or teaching him how to live with it they would call him stupid, a burden, or hit him for not listening. They never even took him to a doctor. When I would protect him or try to help him I got beaten. I have dealt with most of it. I know what they did was wrong. But there is just one lesson I can’t get out of my head. When they found out I was hanging out with Mac and Alaric who are gay they dragged me home and beat me unconscious. Gay is a sin. Normal people aren’t like that. The only true relationship is between a man and a woman. They are the rulers and women belong in the shadows. They yelled these things over and over again as they kicked, punched, scratched, and slapped me.

 Merigold found me the next day still knocked out. I left that day. I was sixteen at the time. I didn’t go far so I could keep an eye on my brother. Here is the thing I don’t believe a word they said when it pertains to other people. Love is love as far as I am concerned. But for some reason when it comes to myself I can’t get out of that mindset my parents drilled into me. And as much as I hate to admit that mindset, it slowly eating at me. That’s why I wanted to stay at the house to clear my head but I can’t refuse Merigold anything. She has been there for me in some of the worst times of my life. I can do this one charity thing for her. Now I’m dressed and Marcos and I are walking out the door to Merigold’s SUV.

Brick 

I was sitting at our regular booth at Harry’s waiting for the show to start. Yes, we come to Lilly’s shows so often we have a VIP booth just for us. I noticed we were all her except Merigold. I tap Axel on the shoulder “ Where’s Merigold?” “ She wanted to pick up Speed and Ratchet in a cage. She didn’t want Speed taking her bike if she was going to be drinking.” I nod because that sounds like something Merigold would do. Wait. “ Speed rides?” “ Oh, yea. She has a sweet GSX.” Rowdy says. The more I’m finding out about Speed the more I like it. Ace leans forward “ Why are they bringing Ratchet? Don’t get me wrong I like the kid but it doesn’t make sense to bring a deaf kid to a concert.” Axel answers “ He may not be able to hear the words but he can feel the vibration of the music.” 

I am about to ask another question when the words die on my tongue. I hear wolf whistles and lookup. Merigold is making her way to us with Speed in tow. And damn does she look good. Lilly wanted to do a country theme for this fundraiser and fuck Speed makes country look good. Speed is wearing a white tee shirt the is covering her chest like a glove making sure her tits are on full display but are still covered at the same time. Over that she has a flannel short sleeve shirt tied just below her tits. She has on a pair of faded blue jeans that look like she had Merigold paint on her. They are showing off her dangerous curves and amazing ass. She has completed the whole outfit with a pair of broken-in cowboy boots and a hat. Most looking at her would think she was dressed for this event. One look and I can see this is normal for her. I see Ratchet is dressed similarly except her isn’t wearing a flannel over his tee-shirt.

Axel stands and pulls Merigold to him “ I love it when you go country on me, baby.” Merigold smirks and wraps her arms around his neck“ Be good and I might show you how good of a rider I am.”  I hear Rowdy say “ Are we done yet?” I have to shake my head at their antics. But I’m smiling as well. They have been married almost four years now and are still hot for each other showing no signs of slowing down. It is good to see even if it is gross watching a woman I see as a sister act like that. It also gives me hope for something like that for myself. I may be a Dom and a biker but I still want what three of my brothers have. I want marriage and kids. I know I can fit it in with my lifestyle. I have seen it done. I have several couples that come into my club who have families. I just haven’t found the right woman yet that fits my needs. I take a look at Speed and think I have t just need to test my theory. I’ll give her time to get to know me and let me find out more about her. I just have the feeling there is so much going on below the surface that not many people get to see. 

Just after they take their seats and order drinks I see Speed look over at me. The look in her eyes at first is pure lust. She is definitely attracted to me. I have seen that look in her eyes a few times and just like now she shakes her head and the look is gone. She is fitting it for some reason. Don’t worry my Speed I’m a patient man. I will get you. I want to say something to her but just smile. The show is about to start and I want her to enjoy it. Ratchet does wave ‘Hi’ and I return it. I’m not stupid I know if I have ever had hope to have something with his sister I need to accept him as well. It is clear they have a close relationship. And he seems like a good kid. I just need to figure out how to talk to him.

The waitress brings our drinks just as the band starts. Neil is up first with ‘ I Can’t Drive 55’ by Sammy Hagar. It is odd seeing the band all in cowboy hats but some look natural. I swear these guys keep getting better and better. They say it is all because of Lilly. Harry even did a complete remodel of the stage for Lilly. Not that she asked for it but Harry said he wanted her shows to feel more like a concert. He had full lighting set up installed. He made the stage bigger so she could move around more and even added a little runway for her. Behind the stage is a screen where they can project images the band may want. Usually something related to the song they are doing. 

As the show continues I watch Speed to see how she is liking it so far. Lug Nut is up next with ‘ Burning It Down’ by Jason Aldean. I see Speed light up at the song. “ Merigold I thought you said this was a kids charity thing. Not a concert with lots of eye candy.” I don’t like her eyeballing Lug but I know I can’t say anything yet. Merigold laughs “ The concert is part of it. Just wait.” 

  She doesn’t have to wait long because Lug Nut says “ Are you ready to see the reason why we are here tonight?” When the crowd goes nuts I see Speed look around in shock. I get it we all had that reaction when we first saw it. The crowd loves Lilly and lets her know it. “ What the hell?” Speed asks no one in particular. “ Just watch.” Tank says with pride. Or course he is here. Why wouldn’t he be? He is Lilly’s biggest fan and supporter. Lug yells out “ Come on. We know you can do better than that.” And sure a shit the crowd yells out to an almost deafening volume.

That when the screen behind the stage lights up and you can see Lilly’s silhouette. Lug turns in her direction and asks “ What do you think?” Lilly raises an arm in the air. “ Alright, here she is. Give up for Songbird.” Lug says and then you hear her voice boom through the entire bar. When she hit the second line is sung the screen rises to reveal Lilly. She is singing ‘ Good Girl’ by Carrie Underwood to start the night. When Lilly is fully lit up I hear Tank say “ Fuck. Damn it, Anna.” I can see why. Lilly has had some interesting costumes in the past but this one I’m surprised Tank isn’t yanking her off the stage. She is wearing what looks like a bandana for a shirt that is wrapped around the top of her breasts and hangs down to the top of her skirt. The skirt is made of jean material and what I can guess is torn-up bandanas and flannel shirts hanging down to just above her knees. Lilly is my sister and I feel like she is showing too much skin, I can only imagine how Tank is feeling since she is his wife and all the fuckers are looking at her.

As Lilly walks down the runway I hear both Speed and Ratchet say “ Wow.” We all turn to Ratchet but his eyes are glued to Lilly. That is the first word any of us has heard him say. I was wondering if he could talk at all. I guess he can it just took Lilly to bring it out. When the song ends Lilly waits for the applause to die down before she says a word. “ I want to thank you for coming out tonight to help me support the wonderful cause. If you don’t know we are raising money for the children’s wing of the hospital. I have been told that the toy donations are way better than I could have imagined so that you to all that helped. To help raise money the band and I have merch on sale by the door with one hundred percent of the profits going to the kids. There are special tip jars the waitresses have and several at the bar. So drop an extra dollar it can go a long way to help. If you don’t donate money how about donating your time. Stop by and read a book to a kid. Play a game. Some of these kids spent most of their lives in the hospital and don’t interact with many people aside from their nurses, doctors, and parents. So are bedridden and can’t go into the common room. Some have working parents who can’t be with them all the time and spend a lot of time alone.”

“ Can’t do that? How about bringing a cup of coffee or a meal to a parent who won’t leave the waiting room while they wait for news if their kid is going to make it through surgery or procedure. Hold their hand to give some comfort. Still can’t do that. Donate some blood. That could literally be the difference between life and death for some of these kids.” Lilly motions for some people to come forward. There are four people standing on stage with Lilly. “ Now it is time to do my part,” Lilly says. Lug hands her an envelope. Lilly stands by a woman and says “ This is Macy. She is the director of the children’s ward. With her is head nurse Cara.” The nurse waves.” Then we have the head of pediatric surgery Dr. Nixion. The kids call him Dr. Nix.” He nods. “ And now head of pediatrics Dr. Skyland.” She waves. “ These people along with support staff, technicians, nurses, and countless others have the daunting task of keeping over one hundred children alive at any given time. Unsung heroes if you ask me.” The crowd applauded at Lilly's words. Lilly hand the envelope to the director.  “ It isn’t much but the band and I would like you to have this. We know you will put it to good use.” Macy opens the envelope and her jaw drops. I have seen Lilly do this multiple times but it still gets to me. “ Ten thousand dollars?” Macy asks. “ Take it and continue the good work you and your people do.”

Neil steps up and hangs a gift bag to each one the them “ Inside Is what we hope is enough gift cards to give your staff a free meal on us.” Wow. I know that had to cost a pretty penny. I look at Tank and he nods. This is all Lilly’s doing but she won’t take the credit for herself. Since she came into money she has been holding events like this to give back to the community. She says she has more money than she could spend in several lifetimes so she gives it to those who don’t. 

When the stage is clear Lilly asks “ How about some more music?” The crowd cheers. “ For this next one, I am having a little help. I hope you enjoy them.” She motions to someone then starts. She is singing ‘ We Don’t Need Another Hero’ by Tina Turner. Speed leans over to Merigold. “ She is incredible.” “ She is. I’ll introduce you to the band when they take a break.” Speed looks shocked “ You know the band?” Merigold just nods. Speed is about to get a shock. We don’t just know them they are part of the family. When Lilly gets to a  chorus the screen drops and Lilly points at something. The screen comes to life and you can see about fifteen kids on-screen singing along with Lilly. I see the hospital logo in the background. When the song ends Lilly turns to the screen. “ Thank you for your help guys. You did a great job. Didn’t they?” The crowd including our table claps and yells. 

“ But it is past bedtime guys. I will see you soon. Say good night.” Lilly says.  They all say goodnight. One little girl, that can’t be more than three holding a pink teddy bear in one arm, and the other you can see tubes coming out of steps up “ What bout night song?”  “ Lilly looks at the crowd. “ What do you think guys? Do you mind if I sing them a lullaby before they go?”  I didn’t expect the response that happens. The crowd chants ‘ Do it.’ over and over. Lilly nods “ Last one then bed. Promise?” “ Promise, Songbird.” The kids yell.

Lilly starts a song I have her sing to Kassidy and Kadance. “ Bridge Of Light. From Happy Feet.  It is a song about not giving up hope. Something I think these kids need right now. When she is done Lilly says goodnight to the kids and the screen goes black. Lilly turns back to the audience and says “ They are why are here.” Lilly made her point and I can see she reached the hearts of everyone. Lug comes to stand by Lilly. “ Now that the kids have gone to bed, let’s have some fun. I have a good friend who made a request. Normally we don’t do that but it was so simple and she is too hard to resist. All she wanted was something to dance to. My girl Songbird is going to help me make that happen.”

The music starts and I Speed says “ Fake ID? Really?” Merigold nods and says as well as signs “ And you are going to dance with me.” Speed signs “ I don’t dance.” Ratchet looks at her like she has lost her mind and signs something. Merigold says “ Blow smoke up someone else's ass.You are coming.” Speed takes Merigold’s hand and Ratchet has the other. “ If I step on your feet you only have yourself to blame.

I have my eyes glued to the dance floor where Merigold, Ratchet, and Speed are tearing it up. They are line dancing in perfect sync. Others have caught on to their energy and have joined them. Rowdy is wolf-whistling at Merigold. Axel says “ For a deaf kid he has some rhythm.” He isn’t wrong. Viper leans up and asks “ I thought Speed said she could dance?” I look at the dance floor seeing her roll her hips and shake her ass in time with the music. “ I think it was a matter of she didn’t want to,” I say never taking my eyes off her ass. It is like a tractor beam keeping a hold of me and making me wish I was holding those hips while pound into her from behind while she is strapped to my bench. Damn, I’m a walking hard on around this girl and cold showers are only going to work for a short time.

They get done dancing and come back to the table. The band announces they are taking a break. Merigold tells Speed that the band is going to be busy with greeting people, signing merch and taking donations she won’t be able to introduce her to them yet. She also tells Speed that her and Ratchet are coming back to the club for the after party and can meet the band then. Speed looks less than enthused but agrees.