It has been a few days since I have Speed and it was driving me crazy. I wanted to see her again. I know she is going to be busy tomorrow since it is Jace and Jax’s first day of school and several of the guys as well as Lilly and Speed were going to show their support. Those little guys are well-loved that is for sure. I can’t blame them. I love those little dudes to pieces. I would like to be part of the group sending them off but it is more of an immediate family thing. I’m not in that group but it doesn’t make me love them any less. I’m even making a special after-school snack for them. So I need to try to catch Speed today. I overheard from Ace that she is coming to the club today.
I made sure to dress a little more conservative today. So far Speed doesn’t know I am a bunny and I want to keep it that wa
Sorry, this chapter took so long. I had gallbladder surgery and the recovery sucks. The pain medication makes me sleepy. I will try better the rest of the week.
BrickSeveral brothers and I are gathered at Merigold’s place waiting for Jax and Jace to come out of the house. It is their first day of school and we are escorting them. With me is Viper, Ace, Thor, as well as Tank, and Lilly. I want to look around for Speed but the front door opens just as I do. Merigold comes out with Kassidy on her hip. Speed is next with Kadance on hers. I am supposed to be paying attention to the boys coming out but my eyes are glued to Speed. She looks so good with the baby on her hip. A natural. I can picture her with our baby in her arms. A perfect mix of her and me. But with her eyes. And definitely Speed’s smile. I want that in my future. Not just a baby. I want the whole thing. Marriage, kids, the house. And more importantly, I want it with Speed.Merigold pulls me out of my fantasies by an
SpeedMerigold got the designs for Frankenstein done a few days ago and it was a welcome distraction. But now that we are done with that and Marcos' birthday party is planned for next Saturday, there is nothing stopping me from being drowned in my thoughts. I can’t stop thinking about the time I spent with Gretchen. I way her moans were music to my ears urging me to touch her. The way her skin would get goosebumps every time I licked her. Or how her skin felt silky rubbing against mine. Her lips felt so right against mine I didn’t want to stop kissing her. The feel of her arching under me as she came on my tongue. When we were done having sex we just laid and help each other. It felt like she was comforting me while cuddled. I haven't ever cuddled with any of my flings before. But with Gretchen, it didn’t feel wrong. She kept rubbing my arms like she was trying to soothe m
BrickIt is Sunday evening and I’m at one of Merigold’s dinners. She does this every Sunday and anyone who wants can stop by and have dinner. Most of the single brothers come for a chance to eat Merigold’s cooking. Merigold uses it as a chance to catch up with the family. No club talk or work talk, just spending time together. I make sure to come at least every two weeks to spend time with everyone. Normally bunnies aren’t allowed at these things but I have noticed Gretchen has been coming to a few dinners from time to time. The only way for that to happen is for Merigold to invite her. I’m pretty sure Gretchen is here for the same reason I am and has nothing to do with the food. It has everything to do with Speed.I knew she was going to be here tonight because Merigold was raving that Speed was going
Speed Ratchet calls it hiding. I say it is where I go to reflect and think without being interrupted. Last time I was here I was thinking about Brick and Gretchen. And part of me still is. The way they reacted when Merigold, Ratchet, and I told about our past. Brick looked enraged. Like he wanted to kill my parents. It was a sweet thought actually that someone cared enough to think that. But it wasn’t needed. Gretchen looked like she was a second away from breaking down in tears. And Anna went down right motherly on me. It was weird having all these people care about me and Ratchet when all we had before was Alaric, Merigold, and the rest of the crew. No one has ever cared for us before. I didn’t know how to react. That is one reason that after we came back I decided to change into some comfortable sleep shorts and tank top and come out here for a while. Ratchet went to his room to video call a few frie
Speed I woke up the next morning to find myself alone in bed. Normally I don’t have a problem with that. I actually prefer it. But today it bothers me. For some reason, my heart was hoping to find Gretchen laying beside me and now I’m disappointed. But I should be. This is the way it has to be even if it hurts my heart a bit. I sit up in bed for a few minutes trying to understand why Gretchen not being here or even saying goodbye is bothering me. After the only thing I could come up with is that maybe I like her, I gave up. Maybe isn’t true. I do like her a lot and that is the problem. But I don’t have the time or brainpower to think about it too long today. Today is a big day and I need to get moving. You see, today is Ratchet’s eighteenth birthday. We are having a surprise party for him at Merigold’s this afternoon. So
BrickRatchet’s birthday party is in full swing. I can see everyone having a good time. More importantly, so is the birthday boy. When he first came in you could see the shock written all over his face. He was definitely not expecting most of the club to be here to celebrate with him. But like Viper said they are family and this is what we do for family. For the first thirty minutes or so Ratchet looked lost in his head. I saw Gretchen go over and talk to him. I’m not sure what she said but he pulled out of himself and started having fun.There is food galore on two tables as well as coolers with various drinks. A cake with eighteen on top of it and off to the side of is a small table where we put the gifts we got for Ratchet. When he saw that he was blown away. He didn’t expect that. Merigold even hired a D
Speed Ratchet’s birthday party was a blast and we all had a good time. The best surprise was when Merigold brought Alaric and the rest of the Alabama crew in for it. Well, that is when Ratchet pulled me to the side and told me he was gay. I’m not bothered by the fact, he is my brother and I will love him no matter what. What bothered me was that he was scared to come out to me. I have always thought of myself as a very open and accepting person. Love is love no matter what form it is. Merigold has two husbands for crying out loud and that doesn’t bother me at all. Alaric and Mac are married and have been in a relationship since high school. It has never been a problem. So it baffled me that Ratchet was worried. That is until he explained to me that it was my problems that made him think that. Once I clarified my problems with myself have nothing to do with me accepting him. Then we were a
Gretchen I haven’t seen Speed since Ratchet's birthday party and I can’t stand it. I have talked to Brick and I know he spent some time with her the day after. He told me they talked for a bit and he has an idea of what some of the problem with Speed is. She is convinced that she is broken. Brick says the way she talked about how it was wrong to want to be with either of us, it was like a programmed response. Like someone has brainwashed her or something. He thinks judging from the scars on her back, it is more like someone has beaten it into her. I almost broke down in tears when he told me that. I have spent all week coming up with ideas to break down what Brick and I are calling her programming. Brick says the biggest thing is that we can’t give up. We have to keep going after her with everything we have. Even when she pushes back. He said she tried with him the day they were together.