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Ivara’s POV
The steam from the pot burned my hand, but I didn't stop stirring. Three years today, three years since I became Luna of the Ashveil pack, and still I stood in this kitchen at dawn, cooking for a man who would not sit across from me to eat. “Luna, the west border patrol needs their schedule approved,” Nessa said, rushing in with a stack of papers. She’s the only maid who still called me Luna like she meant it. “Leave it on the table.” I wiped my hands on my apron. “I’ll sign it before I check the herb stores.” “You should be resting today. It’s your anniversary.” I almost laughed. Resting? I haven’t rested in three years, I ran this pack from sunrise to sunset while Draven sits in his study with maps and warriors, discussing things I was never invited to discuss. I handled the omegas’ disputes and I settled the trade with the eastern packs. I did everything Luna should do, and yet, when the sun went down and Draven finally looked at me, it was only ever in the dark, only ever in our bed, only ever with his hands and never his words. By evening, my back ached and my feet were swollen from standing. I sat in my vanity, brushing out my hair, when the door opened without a knock. Draven never knocked, he owned everything, including me, so why would he? But tonight something was different, he did not come in with that tired, distracted look he always wears and his eyes found mine in the mirror and stayed there. “Ivara.” My name in his mouth sounded strange tonight, it was unhurried, it was like he was tasting it. “My Lord.” I set the brush down. “Is something wrong with the border patrol?” “Must something be wrong for me to come to my wife?” I didn't answer that and there was no safe answer. He crossed the room and knelt behind me, resting his hands on my shoulders, his touch was careful tonight, it was not the rushed grip I was used to. “Do you know what today is?” he asked. My chest tightened. “Our anniversary.” “Three years.” He turned me around gently, and for the first time in longer than I could remember, he looked at my face like he was actually seeing it. Not my usefulness. Not my body but my face. “I haven’t been a good husband to you.” My throat closed up and I wanted to say something sharp, something that matched the years of loneliness he gave me, but the words didn't come. Instead my eyes burned, and I hated myself for how badly I wanted to believe him. “Draven…” “Let me show you,” he said, and his voice dropped low, rough at the edges. “Let me be your husband tonight.” He kissed me before I could think of anything to say, and it was not like the other nights. It was not fast or careless and his hands moved like he was memorizing me, like he was sorry, like he was trying to say with his body everything he never said with his mouth. I let myself sank into it and I let myself hope. Later, tangled in the sheets with his heartbeat under my ear, I traced small circles on his chest and he didn't pull away. He then pressed his lips to the top of my head and murmured my name once more before sleep pulled him under. I lay awake a long time, smiling into the dark, thinking maybe this was it. Maybe three years of waiting were leading to this one night. Maybe tomorrow he would hold my hand at breakfast. Maybe he would finally introduce me as the wife he chose to love, not the wife his father chose for his debt. I fell asleep hopefully for the first time since my wedding day. I woke up to an empty bed and a maid telling me the Alpha wanted to see me in his study. I dressed quickly, humming under my breath, my heart light in a way it had not been in years. Maybe he wanted to have breakfast together, maybe last night changed something in him the way it changed something in me. When I walked into his study, Draven was standing by the window, his back to me, his shoulders set like stone. “You wanted to see me?” He then turned around, and the man from last night was gone. His eyes were flat, and distant, it was the same eyes he’s worn for three years, colder now, like last night never happened at all. “I want a divorce.” The words didn't make sense at first, I actually laughed, but it was a short broken sound. “What?” “I’m filing for divorce, Amara. I have already spoken to the pack elders.” “You…” My mind scrambled, grabbed for last night, for his hands, his mouth against my hair, the way he said my name like it meant something. “Last night you said…” “Last night was a mistake.” He didn't even blink. “It won’t happen again.” My legs felt unsteady beneath me and I pressed my palm against the edge of his desk to stay upright. “Three years, Draven. Three years I have given this pack. I have given you everything…” “I know what you have given,” he said, and there was something almost like guilt flickering behind his eyes before it disappeared. “This isn’t about what you have done wrong.” “Then what is it about?” My voice cracked. “Tell me. Tell me what I did to deserve this.” He opened his mouth, but before a single word left it, the door behind me swung open. I didn't turn around right away, I was too busy staring at Draven, watching the way his whole expression shifts. The way his eyes lifted past me and softened into something I had never once seen him show me. Then I heard her voice, it was warm and familiar in a way that made my stomach drop, like she had said his name a thousand times before. “Draven, my love. I’m finally home.” I turned slowly, and stood in the doorway, dressed like she belonged in this room more than I ever had, was a woman I had never seen in my life.Ivara's POVWe reached the healer's wing to find two guards already inside, and the healer herself pressed flat against the wall, her face pale as bone. On the floor between them lay a shattered vial, dark liquid spreading slowly across the stone."What happened," Kael demanded."I was testing her blood, my lord, as you asked." The healer's hands shook as she spoke, and she pointed at the broken glass. "The sample reacted the moment I tried to seal it. It should never do that. I have never seen blood behave this way in thirty years of practice."Kael crouched to examine the shards without touching them, his expression unreadable. "Explain what you mean by behave.""It moved, my lord. On its own. Like it was alive." She looked at me now, and there was something close to fear in her eyes, though not the kind aimed at an enemy. It was the fear people reserve for something they do not understand. "My lord, I believe her bloodline is not merely rare. I believe it may be one the old texts w
Ivara's POVThe letter held only a few lines, but each one landed heavier than the last. Draven demanded proof that I was alive, nothing more, no plea for my return, no apology, only the cold, careful wording of a man protecting his pride even while his world quietly fell apart around him. I read it twice before handing it to Kael, watching his expression harden with every line."He says nothing of wanting you returned," Kael said finally, his voice tight. "Only proof.""What will you tell him?""Nothing." Kael folded the letter and set it directly into the flames, watching it curl black at the edges. "He forfeited any claim to answers the moment he threw you into rogue territory to die."I should have felt relief. Instead, I felt something colder settle over me, the memory of Draven's hands on my face the night before everything fell apart, gentle in a way I had spent years waiting for. It made no sense to still ache for a man who discarded me so easily, and yet the ache was there, s
Ivara's POVThe fire in my chamber never seemed to go out. I noticed that on my third morning in Emberreach, watching the flames curl around a fresh log while a servant girl set a tray of bread and honey beside my bed. In Ashveil, fires burned low by dawn, and no one bothered to feed them again until dusk. Here, someone always came before I woke.I sat up slowly, my hand pressed against the curve of my stomach. The healer said the baby was strong, stronger than she expected for how thin I had grown in the omega quarters. She said it with a frown, like something about that strength troubled her more than it comforted her."You are awake." The voice at my door was crisp and cold, and I looked up to find a woman standing there I had not met before. She wore silver at her throat and a gown the colour of frost, and her eyes moved over me the way a butcher looked at meat before deciding which cut to take first."I am Lady Serris," she said when I did not answer fast enough. "I sit on the Em
Sleep didn't come anymore, it had not come in weeks.I lay in bed staring at the ceiling while my wolf paced inside me, restless, snarling at something I could not see. Every night it was the same, the moment my eyes closed, I heard her name clawing up from somewhere deep in my chest.Ivara.I sat up and pressed the heels of my hands against my eyes. “Stop it,” I muttered to the wolf, to myself, to whatever part of me refused to let this go. “She’s gone. It’s done.”The wolf didn't listen, it never listened anymore.I haven’t eaten a full meal in days. Selara noticed, of course she noticed, she noticed everything now, always hovering, always watching me with those wide worried eyes that used to make my chest ache with longing and now just make me tired.“You look unwell,” she said one morning, sliding into the seat across from me at breakfast. A seat that used to belong to no one because Ivara always ate standing, always working, always too busy running my pack to sit still. “Are
Ivara’s POVThe stone floor was the only thing keeping me from screaming.I had lost count of the days and there was no window in this cell, only a small slit near the ceiling where thin light crawled in each morning and disappeared each night. I knew it had been a while because my dress was stiff with dirt and my wrists still bear the marks of the ropes they used to drag me here.Footsteps echoed outside, more than usual, voices laughing, excited and I pressed myself against the bars and listened.“The Moon Goddess Ceremony is tonight,” one guard said to another. “Every unmated wolf in the pack will find out who their true mate is. Can you imagine? A night like that only comes once.”My chest tightened. The Moon Goddess Ceremony. I remember hearing about it as a child, how the goddess herself lit a path between true mates, how the whole pack gathered to watch the reveal. I never thought about it much once I married Draven, since married wolves didn't take part. But I was not ma
Ivara’s POVThe omega quarters smelt like old firewood and unwashed linen, nothing like the room I slept in for three years.“You. New girl.” A woman shoved a bucket into my hands before I had even set my bag down. “Wells need scrubbing, all four of them. Selara wants it done before sundown.”I then looked at her, waiting for a name, a greeting, anything that told me this is a mistake but nothing came.“I’m not new,” I said quietly. “I’m the Lun..”“You’re nobody now.” Another voice cuts in, and I didn't need to turn around to know who it belonged to.Selara stood in the doorway wearing a dress the color of blood, her arms crossed, her smile sharp enough to cut glass.“Word travels fast in a pack,” she said, stepping closer. “Everyone already knows you signed your own papers. No fighting. No begging. Very dignified.” She tilted her head. “Or very stupid. I can’t decide which.”“What do you want, Selara?”“I want these wells scrubbed by sundown.” She nodded at the bucket in my hands







