ログイン~~WARD~~
The locker room lights were dimmed low, casting long shadows across the benches. I sat alone, elbows braced on my knees, head bowed so low my forehead nearly touched my clasped hands. The tape on my fingers felt too tight, snipping into my skin, but I didn’t loosen it. Pain was good, it was what kept me grounded when everything else inside me was spinning out of control. I saw her again today after three years. The image wouldn’t leave me, her standing in the hallway with Lena, head tilted back in a real laugh, shoulders relaxed for just a moment. That sound had hit me like a blindside hit. My chest had tightened so hard I couldn’t breathe for a second. She looked different now. More sure of herself. The kind of woman who had rebuilt her life after I had torn it apart and knowing I was the reason she had to rebuild at all made something deep in my gut twist painfully. I rubbed my face with both hands, pressing my palms hard against my eyes until spots danced behind my lids. My throat burned. Three years of carrying this alone, and one glimpse of her smile had ripped every scar open again. My phone sat heavy in my hoodie pocket. I pulled it out slowly, thumb hovering over the screen before I finally dialed. Marcus answered on the third ring, voice thick with sleep. “Ward? It’s late. What’s going on?” I swallowed once, twice, trying to stabilize my voice. But it still came out rough and low. “I saw her today. I really saw her. She was laughing with her friend. Looking… whole. Like she didn’t need me anymore while I just stood there, frozen against the wall, feeling like the biggest fool alive.” Marcus let out a long breath. “You knew going back was going to hurt, so why accept the contract… You have better offers here." I sighed again. “I just felt I needed to see her again,” I replied truthfully. “So tell me why didn’t you just tell her the truth back then?” The words landed like a blade between my ribs. I hunched forward even more, shoulders curling in as if I could protect myself from the guilt. My hands shook slightly as I gripped the phone tighter. Tears pricked hot at the corners of my eyes, but I blinked them back hard, jaw clenched until it ached. “I wanted to tell her,” I whispered, voice cracking. “Every single night I lay awake wanting to tell her everything… but… Marcus, I just don't know.” My breath hitched as I pressed my fist against my mouth, trying to hold back the sound rising in my throat. “Seeing her today… It reminded me how much I lost. How much I hurt her. I would give anything for one real chance to make it right.” Marcus was quiet for a long moment. “You still love her that much?” “More than I can stand,” I admitted, the confession tearing out of me. My shoulders slumped, the fight draining from my body. “I never stopped. Not for one day.” Marcus and I talked for a while before he hung up. When I finally ended the call, the locker room felt colder. I sat there for several minutes, just breathing, trying to steady the heavy ache in my chest. Eventually, I stood, moving carefully because of my hip. I grabbed my bag and walked out toward the parking garage, my footsteps slow on the concrete. The night air was cool against my skin as I stepped outside. I reached my car and tossed the bag into the back seat. Just as I opened the driver’s door, my phone buzzed in my pocket. I pulled it out and opened the message. The words hit me like a slapshot to the throat. “Heard you back, don't forget a single mistake could end her.” My heart slammed violently against my ribs. The phone slipped slightly in my suddenly sweaty palm. I stared at the screen, breath coming short and sharp, chest rising and falling too fast. Cold dread pooled low in my stomach, spreading through my veins like ice water. My free hand gripped the top of the car door until my knuckles turned bone-white, the metal creaking under the pressure. How closely were they watching? This is one reason why I had come back, getting g strange messages that made me terrified of losing her every time. Knowing fully well that if I stayed away I just got the news that I wouldn't be able to take in one day. I quickly typed a reply with shaking fingers: “I am in the country now. I would like a face-to-face conversation.” My thumb tapped the send button repeatedly, heart pounding as I waited. The message failed to deliver. A cold notification appeared instead, Blocked. Sorry, you can’t text this number. A surge of frustration and fear crashed over me. “Damn it!” I growled, slamming my fist hard against the steering wheel. The impact sent a sharp jolt up my arm, but I barely felt the pain. “Fuck it…” My hands were trembling so badly I could hardly type as I opened a new message to my private investigator. “Send me..” Before I could finish, the phone buzzed again. Another unknown number. My stomach dropped like a stone. I clicked on the message with dread curling tight in my chest. It was a photo. Aria, curled up on her bed, fast asleep in the same clothes she had worn today. She looked exhausted, vulnerable, her face soft in a way that made my throat tighten painfully. She had no idea anyone was watching her. My hands shook violently now, the phone nearly slipping from my grip. The next text followed immediately: “Chill. I won’t hurt her… yet. But who knows what might happen in the next few minutes.” Pure terror flooded my veins, cold and suffocating. My breath came in short, ragged gasps. The thought of someone standing outside her window right now, watching her sleep, made my chest constrict so tightly I thought I might be sick and she was alone. I couldn’t sit here any longer. With unsteady legs, I dropped into the driver’s seat, my heart hammering wildly against my ribs. My fingers trembled so badly that it took three tries to open the chat with my private investigator. I typed frantically. “Send me her current home address. Now.” The reply came within seconds. The moment the address appeared on my screen, I started the engine. Tires screeched loudly as I sped out of the parking lot, the car lurching forward into the night. I had to get to her. I had to make sure she was safe tonight even though I knew my face was the last thing she wanted to see tonight.~~WARD~~She still walked away, even after everything.Even after she broke down in my arms, soaked my suit with tears, and let me hold her for the first time in three years, she still refused to let me back into her life.She refused to stay with me in her apartment and even refused the villa.She refused me, she didn't want me. She has told me several times but when she sent that message to me everything drained out of me.I stood alone in the empty medical office long after she had left, staring at the closed door as if she might come back.She didn't and I deserved that. No amount of apologies could erase three years of silence.No amount of protection could erase the fact that I had been the one who broke her heart.With a slow exhale, I adjusted my jacket and left the medical wing.The sound of skates echoed through the arena as I walked toward the rink. Practice had already resumed after the medical evaluations, and the players were running drills with the intensity expected
~~ARIA~~The bloody photograph lay on my palm like a curse, the smeared red staring back at me with vicious intent. My hands shook so violently I nearly knocked the box to the floor again. A scream tore from my throat, guttural, and louder than I had intended. It echoed throughout.Footsteps thundered toward me almost immediately. A couple of assistant trainers burst in, eyes wide with alarm. “Dr. Vance? What happened? Are you okay?”I swallowed hard, forcing my face into a mask of calm even as my heart tried to claw its way out of my chest. “Nothing’s wrong,” I lied, my voice cracking only slightly. “Just… startled by a spider. Big one. I am fine. Really.”They exchanged doubtful glances but didn’t push. One of them muttered something about calling maintenance before they left. I didn't even bother to check the players before making my way back to the office.The second the door closed, I shoved the gruesome photo back inside and hid it deep in my bottom drawer. My legs felt like
~~ARIA~~My fists still tingled from where I had hit his chest, my tears drying into salty tracks on my cheeks. I felt utterly exhausted by the constant push and pull between us.Ward exhaled slowly, rubbing the back of his neck. The movement made him wince slightly, his waist injury clearly still bothering him but he didn’t complain. He never did. “If that’s how you feel, Aria… the ball is in your court. I am not forcing this. But I’m giving you until this evening to decide. The downtown apartment is ready. Security is already in place. I will be giving you till evening.” His voice was low, but I caught the undercurrent of fear beneath the command. He searched my face one last time, those piercing eyes softening with the regret I had heard through the door last night. Then, without another word, he turned and walked out, the door clicking shut behind him like a period at the end of a sentence I wasn’t ready to finish.I sank into my desk chair, staring at the spot where he’d be
~~ARIA~~My head was still ringing continuously from his words.“You won’t be alone,” he continued, like he had already made the decision and was simply informing me of it. “You will have your space. I won’t push you. I won’t ask for anything. But I will be there, to know you are safe.”I let out a disbelieving laugh, shaking my head. “You can’t be serious.”“I am.”“You?” I pushed away from the desk, staring up at him. “In a regular apartment, sharing a kitchen and a living room like a normal person? Giving up the villa and all your privacy and whatever billionaire schedule you have because I am too stubborn to let you babysit me from a distance?”“For you,” he said, without even blinking, “yes.”He stepped into my space then, not enough to touch me, but enough that I could feel the heat of him, enough that the air between us felt dangerously thin.“I would get used to it,” he said, his voice lower now, quieter, like the words were meant only for me. “I want to get used to it. For y
~~ARIA~~ The door clicked shut behind Marcus, and the office fell into a heavy, ringing silence. For a moment, neither of us moved. Ward stood a few feet away from me, still in that dark tailored suit that made him look less like the man I had once loved and more like the version of him the world knew now the billionaire executive, the untouchable Bennett heir, the man who could command boardrooms and hockey arenas with the same quiet authority. My pulse pounded painfully in my throat. I folded my arms across my chest, less because I was cold and more because I needed something between us. Some kind of barrier. “Ward,” I let out, forcing my voice to stay steady, “about the apartment… and the villa, I don't think I will be staying for long.” His expression was constructed at once, though he didn’t interrupt. “I appreciate what you have done,” I continued, “but I can’t keep doing this. I can’t keep letting you rearrange my life every time something happens… see all of
~~ARIA~~The entire day passed in a blur and the kind of exhaustion that settled deep in the bones.I buried myself in work because it was the only thing I knew how to control.Follow-up notes for Jake’s injury and a dozen conversations with the coaching staff about what his absence would mean for the next few weeks. I moved from one task to the next and Ward hadn’t called.A part of me was relieved. He had given me the space I demanded, and after the disaster of the last twenty-four hours, I should have been grateful for the silence. But another part of me, the weak, traitorous part that still remembered the pain in his voice outside the guest room door last night, couldn’t stop noticing the absence.I was finishing Jake’s latest progress notes at my desk, fingers aching from writing, when there was a knock at my office door. There Mr. Reynolds stepped inside with his usual no-nonsense expression.“Dr. Vance, quick update,” he said. “With Jake sidelined for a few weeks, we’re bri
~~ARIA~~I drove home with tears burning my eyes. My hands wouldn’t stop shaking on the steering wheel. I kept hearing my own voice shouting at Ward in the parking lot all the pain I had carried for three years pouring out at once. Part of me felt good for finally saying it while another part felt
~~ARIA~~I arrived at the arena even earlier than usual, hoping the quiet would calm the storm in my head. Sleep had been impossible. Ward’s face kept appearing every time I closed my eyes, the regret in his voice, the way his shoulders had tensed when I pushed him away. My chest feels tight at e
~~ARIA~~I stayed in the treatment room long after Ward left, trying to pull myself together. My hands still trembled slightly as I wiped down the table. I hated how easily he got under my skin after just two short meetings. Three years of building walls, and one look from those blue eyes threate
~~ARIA~~I spent the rest of the morning forcing myself to focus. Every time Ward’s name tried to creep back into my thoughts, I pushed it away with my loaded-up task.By 1:45 PM, the performance center buzzed with quiet energy. Players drifted in for light sessions, laughter echoing from the weigh







