Chapter 5

Chapter 5

 I knew telling him about the baby was a bad idea so I wasn't going to bother. I was going to let him think about everything he has done to me and that he isnt going to take things back. I hated him a lot for what he decided to do but there wasn't anything I can do to change it.

 I was afraid of what was going to happen today, but going back to sleep and dreaming about my rejection wasn't something I wanted to do. I was pissed off and hurt and well exhausted but I wasn't going to let my life end because some asshole didn’t love me anymore.

 I was still confused about the night this happened. He told me he drugged me so I would mess around with his friend. That doesn’t make sense because he knows I am not that kind of girl, but he forced me into it.

 “Are you sure you want to go?” my mother came towards me. “I know you have a lot on your plate and I don’t think you should go.”

 “Yeah and then what is everyone going to think about me? I’m a pathetic loser that got pregnant by the Alpha son only to be rejected?” I sighed. I didn’t want to deal with that but there wasn't much I can do about it now so I might as well just go and get it over and done with.

 “Well if things get back, call me and I will come and get you.” she sighed. “I am sorry for the way I reacted last night, I promise this isnt going to be a thing you are going to face alone.”

 “Yeah but I don’t want you putting yourself out there for me, at least you will have someone to stay. I don’t know if I want to stay here.” I sighed. Honestly, I wasn't sure what I was going to do, I guess it all depends on how school goes today and if I can get through it without them giving me too much grief.

 “I don’t think I am going to be able to avoid it,” she said. “But don’t worry I am going to make sure the Alpha is taking care of you. You are going to be Luna whether or not his son was a douchebag and rejected you. I am sure he is going to side with us on this.”

 “I don’t want him to know.” I sighed. “I just want to get this year over and done with, then I am going to find somewhere else to go and hope I can manage my life without all the drama.”

 “Yeah well his son needs to take account for taking you and rejecting you when he knows about the baby, do you think he should be punished?” she asked.

 “I don’t care anymore.” I sighed. I did care but it was pointless to get him into trouble. I was going to do this alone and he was going to accept it. He was going to be known as the worthless father and there was nothing he can do about it. “I need to get to school, why don’t you come around lunch.”

 “Alright, I love you, baby.”

 “Love you too mom,” I said as I grabbed my bag. 

 Getting to school was faster than I wanted to be but I couldn’t walk any slower. I know people are going to make me feel bad today and I wasn't going to let them do it. But I wasn't going to fight because I didn’t want them hurting my baby.

 I still wasn't sure how long I have until the baby is here or if I was having a girl or boy. I guess it didn’t matter, I was going to be happy with a healthy wolf pup. I was nervous to be a mother but that didn’t matter at least my mother was understanding now.

 I didn’t know what my ex was going to tell his father when he finds out about me and the baby. Maybe I should tell him about being drugged and all of that. I wonder if the Alpha would do anything to his son for being such a jerk.

 “You have nerve coming to school,” Derek said coming towards me. “I don’t need people finding out you are a whore.” he said grabbing my arm and pushing me against the wall. “Why would you cheat on me?”

 “I didn’t.” I sighed. “If I did anything it was because of you and your friend. I didn’t do anything willingly and if I did it's because you did what you did to me.” I said I didn’t want him to know I was afraid of him but I was. He was scared when he gets mad and its worse when his wolf comes out.

 “Well you did and now I am going to have to cover for you,” he growled. “Do you realize I am going to be Alpha and you were supposed to be my Luna?”

 “This baby is yours.” I sighed. “No matter what you think, it's yours. You are my mate and I am yours why can't you accept that?” I asked. I just wanted to know why he was instantly rejecting me, why he didn’t want to give it time and give us a chance.

 “I don’t believe you.” he sighed. “You’re not my mate, not anymore at least.”

 “Why?” I asked begging to know what he was hiding from me. I wanted to cry out to him but I knew he wasn't going to listen. “Why can't you at least tell me why?”

 “Because you’re not,” he said before he walked away.

 I wanted to grab him, but something told me just to leave him alone. I felt sick to my stomach, I forgot to grab something before I left the house. I was weak, maybe I should just leave now. Maybe it would be best if no one knew that I was even pregnant.

 Maybe I should spare myself any more pain because this sucked. He sucked, I wish I had a brother that would beat him up for breaking my heart. Breaking his child’s heart was even worse, he would never know his own.

 I’m not his mate, what does that even mean? Does he know something about this that I don’t? Was I pregnant with his friend's child then? If that is what happened and this isnt him trying to get out of anything,

 “Come on Delilah I am better than this.” I sighed. I wasn't any better than how I felt right now. Maybe my mom was right, I wasn't ready to face it this, that is until I heard her voice.

 “Well, well, well isnt it the lost pup.” Michelle gawked at me. She was perfect blonde, skinny, and a perfect shade of tan. “Dare to come here?”

 “Uh I go to this school,” I said rolling my eyes. “In case you’ve forgotten you cheat off me in math.”

 “I know that,” she growled. “Why are you here, Derek said you’re pregnant and a whore?” she giggled. “I am surprised anyone would sleep with you.”

 I could tell it bothered her that Derek slept with me, but hadn't her. Maybe that is what he meant, that he found his mate. Maybe she was his now.

 “Well have a good second helping,” I said pushing past her. 

 I didn’t want her to know I was about to cry, I didn’t want anyone to know I was weakest right now. I didn’t want people to keep asking me about Derek. I don’t know how long it was going to take before I screamed at them and officially tell him I am rejecting him.

 I know it doesn’t work that way, but at least everyone in the pack would know I rejected him and he didn’t have to have shame when he had to do me. I went into the bathroom and finally cried when I heard the bell ring.

 I guess my mom is going to have to come and get me. I cannot do this today, so I dialed her and she came and picked me up. She also told the office I was going to my father's, since no one knows about him I don’t have to worry about explaining to him.

 “Thanks for not giving me a hard time about this,” I said looking out the window. “I didn’t know Derek was going to do this and I thought he would be glad to be with me.”

 “I am going to have a conversation with him, I don’t know when but it's coming,” she growled. “He isnt going to make my baby cry.”

 I didn’t say anything, I didn’t want her doing anything to get us killed out of here. I will deal with Derek on my own I wasn't ready to. Just the fact he came around and acted like I did something, I was pissed off.

 I don’t know how much I would do to him, maybe I should go out with a bang. Get myself kicked out of here and then be done with this. I will raise my child alone as my mother has. I didn’t care anymore, I was tired.

 “I just want to take a nap and wake up and everything be back before all of this happened.” I sighed. I knew this wasn't a dream, there was no going back to it. “I am debating if I want to go to another pack to have my baby.”

 “I don’t know about that, I don’t want you to be away from me.” she sighed. “I know I freaked out last night and I am sorry, but please don’t leave me. Please.”

 I felt bad thinking about leaving her, but I didn’t know what I was going to do. I didn’t know how the Alpha was going to take this, I didn’t even know how I was going to take it. I was afraid I was going to fail at this or something else was going to happen and I wouldn't be in control anymore.

 “Like I said I need a nap,” I said without another word the rest of the way home.