I am stunned to hear how the mysterious man, with whom I apparently have a casual sexual relationship, has a younger brother with whom he has family problems. I have never been able to experience such offensive exchanges of words between my own blood. Being just Joshua and me, coupled with the fact that it was twelve years apart, made our conversations not too difficult. Between times teaching him to use the spoon, moments where I showed him how to enter the head first and then the sleeves, I did not have time to fight with him. I guess I enjoyed it as much as I could.
"Oh. "Sophie seems delighted with the idea." Doesn't that woman realize the tension between these two? “. It is fascinating! Why didn't you tell me, Matti?
I grab the septum and close my eyes.
In short, Sophie is like a small girl with a squeaky voice, oblivious to what is happening around her and always saying the first thing that comes to her head.
"I didn't see the opportunity, swe
8 years ago“So what? Are we going out tonight, Thea? Ryan asks as soon as we walk out the back door of the hotel clerks.The bar has been slow today thanks to the small clientele. These are days that last forever when there is no movement. I hate those moments where employees are tempted to talk to me to kill the hours. I have never been to fully converse with someone. Why do it? I like to be quiet — mostly alone — do the work I get paid for, and then go home. How weird am I? Quite. At the age of twenty I don't like going out to drink and dance or sleep with some idiot for a half hour roll, yes. Ultimately, I look like ... I'm an alien.I let go of my hair, which I was wearing in a high ponytail. The blue threads fall on my shoulders. I don't remember what it's like to have another color. Since I entered the bar my days of opacity are over. Perhaps, as Joshua says, I am just a screen of how
PresentDon't you create the time machine yet?Year 2020? Can not be.I regret it the moment I spoke the words.They sounded safer and less toxic before they left my lips. My mouth tasted like blood immediately and my hands shook as I made such a confession.Santiago's rigid body warns me that it is more than he could have expected from a hug with a woman like me. Maybe he is not interested in what happens to me. What happens to me is none of his business ... Maybe he doesn't even care if I die ..."Has someone threatened you, Thea?" He questions still with his arms around me.This time I am the one who breaks contact. I feel his reluctance to leave me, to let go, but I succeed.“Yes. Is nothing. "I already want to take the weight off the situation." My cell phone has not rung again and I did not receive anything strange tonight when I arrived. Maybe it was just someone making a joke. I don'
Now changed and having had a full cup of coffee without sugar, I leave the bathroom with a bow almost on my forehead and all possible doubts and uncertainties.The room is cozy, it must be larger than my entire apartment. If I consider how exaggerated it is where I live, I don't even want to think about the amount of money Santiago has to maintain such a place.I walk over to one of the curtains and roll it a little; the view is amazing. I seem to be in the middle of Manhattan. Sunlight hits my eyes. It doesn't take long for me to get used to the blinding light."What a place," he murmured to myself.I hope I am not a nuisance. I don't know anything about Santiago's personal life. My suspicions about him, being a married man, overwhelm and demoralize me. There's a slim chance he's one of those cool, coveted singles like the ones now abound in novels and movies."Dream does not cost".The hard thing is to fall into reality.The buildin
Eight years agoI wake up in the middle of the night as my cell phone vibrates. I usually sleep with the lights off, except when Joshua is scared. I keep my eyes open as I get used to the dark.Who would write to me in the middle of the night?I grope for my phone on the bed, grab it, and check the time by pressing the power button.3:00 amWe live in a small apartment that is often infected by pests such as cockroaches. I try to avoid them, but it is difficult for me and more so if I consider that I do not have time to be at home with Joshua. He has learned to go to school by taking the bus and coming home alone. In the meantime, he expects me to come home from work late at night. The opportunities that offer a better life every day are made even more difficult for me. I work twelve hours in the hotel bar; I'm a waitress, I make drinks… everything I can to get m
Ten minutes later, I am still in the dining room of the department of Santiago. I can't believe he said something so cruel to me.True, real, but that doesn't take away the cruelty. Why is this happening to me? Why does it hurt?I don't think I need it. I don't want to need it.I refuse to even consider that at some point in my life I will need someone. I cannot afford it because simply nobody has been there for me in the most difficult moments. I have had to survive alone for too long, I have had to fend for myself and pull myself up to move on. I feel like chasing after him, following him and telling him everything that comes to mind. I want to yell at him that I am not that anyone he thinks, but the problem is that I am.I'm that one, I'm the one who has been selling her body for more than ten years, the one who sold her virginity to a fat man in a hotel room. I'm still the sad girl from almost nineteen years ago who lost her mother to a
Almost 8 years agoThe nausea in the morning is killing me.Everything that falls to my stomach is flushed down the toilet.My tears have stopped coming out, I don't cry anymore.It seems that there is no god in heaven who watches over me, takes care of me and protects me. I am lonelier than a prisoner in a desert prison.I have cried every day since taking a pregnancy test a month ago. Ryan left his seed inside of me. It grows thanks to my damn eggs wanting to get pregnant. I hate myself every second for doing nothing, for doing nothing but crying as he penetrated and possessed me over and over again, until he was done and gone. He left me lying at the entrance of the building.Don't I have adrenaline in my body?I have considered all the options in the last two months. I've thought about what things I could have done to de
"Is disappearing still possible?"I blush upon hearing the name of the silky brown haired woman in front of me.Confirmed. It was an obvious fact. My simplest fears have been confirmed in relation to Santiago Dominelli. In short, there is a Mrs. Dominelli, who is in front of me. He watches me curiously.Shame makes my pale skin turn red and my cheeks light up like Christmas lights.“And you are?"The one who has fucked her husband and wants to continue doing it?"Fuck, what a mess.“Let me explain, ma'am, I have been sleeping with your husband for a few weeks and a psychopath wants to rape me and then kill me. Maybe both at the same time. Her husband, being my knight on a steed, has rescued me and brought me home. Now you found me almost red”handed.I dismiss the hilarious and hurtful confession."Thea, delighted." I hold out my hand.Why do I do it? I can't even touch her. I shouldn't even do it
I look at my building from inside the car. I don't feel the blood rushing through my veins and my pulse is racing. I'm scared to death. I know it's stupid to come here alone without notifying the police or anyone."Without giving the information to Santiago so that he knows that I am here, so that he can be pending in case of ... die."I am not at all sure of my actions.My hands are cold and stiff.My soul aches to think of what that psychopath could have done to Sophie.I can't keep counting on Santiago or Cristopher, things are the way they are. And so they must stay.I'm alone. I have always been alone, and I will stay that way. I am destined for that.It's the same feeling I had when Joshua died. I'm alone. I can't count on anyone, since no one is or will be there for me. I've lost contact with Charlene and Maxwell for years. I quit my job at the bar and moved from the place where I lived for so many years with Joshua. I wanted a