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"This conversation is going nowhere," she said firmly and shook her head.

She immediately left the door and I was left stunned as my mind absorbed what he told me. Why doesn't she want to talk properly? How do I know what the reason is?

I want to doubt her but I know that she can't do that to me especially since she herself caught Riana's betrayal before. I know she can't do that to me. I also have no right to doubt her because I betrayed her.

I don't know what to do at that time. My mind is a mess. I don't know which of my two feelings is true. I am hurt by what Zillah is showing me. But I feel that I still love Riana.

Do I have the right to blame my wife even if I cheated on her?

I left the room and got something to drink. I wanted to get drunk at that time. I just wanted to drown myself in alcohol next door.

After a while, I finished a bottle of wine.

I turned around in the distance when I saw Riana talking to Miguel. Miguel is one of the best gammas of Bloody Scar. I don't k