Fear, Anticipation and Regret

Kendrick's POV

The noise surrounding from all the chatters around suddenly became silenced and my sense of hearing channeled in on her approaching steps.

My Mate was finally here, the main reason why this was even going on in the first place.

My wolf howled happily while I paced impatiently, to say I was excited was an understatement because knowing that the woman that was about to make me Alpha was just a few steps away made me feel all giddy. it was definitely the bond causing me act this way...on a normal day oi can’t imagine myself being this happy to unveil someone's look.

Her scent was heavenly and she carried a vanilla fragrance filling me up with so much anticipation to see the woman behind the door.

As she walked slowly her scents filled my nostrils the more making me drunk with her scent even before seeing her, my eyes became focused on the door as I waited for her to enter.

Suddenly it sounded like she was halted and I could hear her gasp slowly.

She sounded tense and scared?

My heart began thumping harder...in panic this time as My Dad's Beta entered the hall.

If Beta Cole had just entered it meant his adopted daughter and wife were the ones that had halted or maybe not?

Suddenly the thought of seeing my mate that was still outside turned to fear.

Aubrey?

If I had any hopes whatsoever it was all gone and that filled me was dread. For her own good it will be better that she wasn't entering here alone but was with my mate.

Time stopped and the door opened, I held my breath as I waited till she appeared and as she did I feared her fate.

She was my mate!

Aubrey, my first love and the girl that had cost me a lot more than she even knew.

Immediately she entered our eyes locked and I felt my heart skip the more, this was all a result of the bond and I hated this feeling way towards her.

Dad's warnings and the deal rung in my ear making me boil in anger, of all people for the goddess to bless me with as a mate, it had to be her.

It had to be the one I despised so much for what she had caused us. It had to Aubrey!

Her weak and ignorant nature had endangered my mom; she was just Fifteen but it didn't matter.

The day I had found out from dad that she was the main reason mom had gone out her way even though she was warned not to and was all alone, I fell out of love with her and every fire that once burned with passion for her dispersed.

it was all because of her mom did the impossible, she knew she couldn't fight off the rogues, but in a bid to protect her, she still chose to fight alone because of her.

Enraged that she was the reason my mom was gone so soon and my dad was stricter, he rarely showed me love, I cut her off without thinking twice.

Now fate being the perfect matchmaker had found it convenient to match us together and expected me to accept such a weakling as my MATE!

Not only had she made me motherless earlier, she was definitely going to make Dad disown me without thinking and that would definitely mean I had lost my birthright.

All I wanted at this moment was to send her away, on a journey of no return I just wanted her to go away!

All these years of training wasn't going to go to waste, what I wanted was definitely no weak human but rather a Luna that I'd would be proud of just like mom. From the stories I had heard and the little I could remember mom was one of the best selfless fighters ever known.

I had watched people give up their lives for Aubrey and fight for her when it should be the other way around.

The pack had protected her from the rogues ‘attack numerous times, and Yet she was unable to keep pace with the training, FUCK THAT! She didn't even have her wolf yet from what I could see.

I wanted a brave Luna who can fight besides me without being killed in the process and that wasn’t too hard to ask for.

Those times I had done a perfect job in hiding my disrespect perfectly because Dad had said I was the future Alpha so it was important to treat everyone equally.

My dissatisfaction towards her weak nature grew so I let out all my anger for her to be used as my fuel and drive during fights.

I stared at her and she shyed away fueling my anger, I stalked towards her before blanking out as I let anger rule my tongue.

I couldn’t help to but say rude words to her until she accepted the rejection and ran off.

I watched her running figure ignoring the urge to run after her…even though we weren't bonded at all by anything.

Shortly after the party was in full swing, Aubrey's dad announced that the Alpha wasn't going to be available as the meeting with the Alpha King was taking longer than he expected. He also announced that finally I would be announced as Alpha by my father this weekend.

my mood was immediately lifted up, and other members of the pack began swarming me like bees and sending congratulatory messages.

My happiness was short lived as my group of friends began teasingly talking about Aubrey.

"If I didn't know you a bit too well, I would have thought you hated Aubrey" Ronald, my best friend and future Beta whispered making me chuckle nervously.

"The look on her face when she ran off was filled with dread" Justin added and we all laughed softly.

I raised my head, only to come in contact with Aubrey's mom eyes. Guilt flooded me as I saw the tears in her eyes.

Everyone still talked about her, I could hear them whisper her name making me wonder if at all they were cool with my decision, I also had them in mind when I had rejected Aubrey. my pack didn’t need a weak Luna but rather a Luna that could protect them, not put them in more danger.

Although Aubrey was weak and had caused a lot of problem, it was almost like they still loved her and they proved it to me almost immediately.

"Aubrey is missing" Nate who had been talking to the other members of the pack suddenly said as he approached me.

"That girl can't survive a minute alone in the woods especially with no security around" I heard an Epsilon say making me frown.

These people really cared for that nobody regardless of the fact that I had just humiliated and rejected her.

I watched as a search party was sent out even without my permission.

Almost everyone went to find her, I regardless of my emotions of detest followed suit to avoid questions being asked.

Her scent was followed to a cliff and I could feel my heart thumping in curiosity as the others.

A pack member that was at the coastline, raised an alarm grabbing our attention before he raised her shoe that was washed ashore, as soon as Aubrey's mom saw the pair, busted into tears.

I didn't want her as a mate but definitely didn't want her dead too.

so many selfish thoughts clouded my mind as the pack members began flashing me side views, they didn’t think that this was in any way my fault right? I was still going to be the next Alpha of the pack?

Fear, anticipation and regret filled me up as I stared at the cliff in dread.

Aubrey please don’t be dead.