I've thought of possible results before confessing my reason why I dated Xia. And I also thought by the time I said it, Xia would reject me for being such a huge jerk. But I was quite surprise how Xia responded.
"I thought so…" she answered with a smile, but sadness can be seen on her eyes.
"So, do you still wanna date me?" I grinned waiting for my expectation to be meet.
"Yes." My face became blank as soon as she said that. "I already got the chance I wanted, so I won't let it slip by so easily."
"Why so eager?" I softly asked, almost a whisper.
"Because, I really like you-" she points at me, showing an expression that's so eager. "-and I'll make sure to make you fall inlove with me too."
What a strong-willed woman.
I chuckled. "We'll see about that."
Then the rest of my day was spent well with my girlfriend, Xia. After all that, coming back to my dorm made me feel uneasy. I badly treated Toma earlier, so how will he treat me when I get back there?
Opening the door to the room, I was quite shock to see Toma there--fucking naked! It was the first time after years passed that I've seen him like this. He looks at me, showing full front of his naked body.
"You're back." He said.
"B-Big…" I whispered to myself. Then a sudden thought of comparing came to mind but I quickly dismissed it. "Can't you cover yourself!" I complained.
He looked at me with thin eyes and had his lips slanted downwards. "Hmmm…. I don't feel like doing it." And he goes to his bed just like that.
This guy is really trying to piss me off.
"Tsk, your mom would be so disappointed if she knew you behave like this."
"Well she's not here anyway."
"Aren't you even uncomfortable with other people seeing you naked like this?"
He looks at me with furrowed eyebrows. "You've seen me like this a many times already, and we're both dudes. Don't make it into such a big deal."
"Atleast cover your lower part with something because it's disturbing to look at! Really, you're so bothersome."
He even had the nerve to pout. "…fine."
"Finally." I said, crossing my arms.
"Since you're the one who badly wants me dressed, you give me the underwear I have to wear."
'Tsk, this spoiled brat!'
"Ugh, I hate you." I told him and grabbed some boxers from his cabinet. When I handed him his underwear, he looks at me with a very sad expression. He takes the underwear from me then asks. "Yuji, do you really want to get rid of me?"
"What the heck are you talking about now?"
"…when you said that we need to avoid each other for three months, it made me really sad. Can't we just stop doing that and hang out again?"
…
"Yuji?"
"Look, you've been pampered by me too much. I'm doing this for you Toma, you got to stop clinging on to me. You already got a girlfriend of your own now."
He frowns at my words. "No… it's not that… I… I can change that Yuji, I'll stop being annoying. You're like a brother to me, and I don't want to be apart from you like this."
I sighed. Even though he's acting like a baby, hearing him talk like that made me grin. I sat down at the side of his bed and ruffled his hair. "No matter what we do, we're still friends you idiot. Just consider this chance as a way to change yourself for the better."
"…hmm." Seems like he wasn't pleased with my answer. He grabs my hand that was placed on his hair and placed it on his cheeks, he closes his eyes and smiles. "Fine. I'll change. I promise, and once this chance is over you have to reward me."
"Sure, that is if you did change."
We both laughed things off, with this, it made me feel at ease being with Toma again.
By the time the man finally left, mom even gave me loads of money so I could stay away from her. It was then I decided to cut ties with her. I was done dealing with her… "It was a mistake to stay here. I'm leaving." I never should've come back. "W-Wait!" Before mom could stop me, I quickly got to my room and brought all my stuff with me. "Toma, please! Please hear me out!" "…IT'S TOO LATE FOR AN APOLOGY! Don't even think that I'll ever forgive you." I told her while I was running down the stairs. She just kept pulling my stuff to make it more difficult to leave. "No, Toma! I can't—" "Don't stop me!" I glared at her, "I don't want anything to do with you ever again."
Nobody ever knows about it.I kept that very dark secret of mine all to myself. I can't even bother myself to tell my mom about what happened to me, I know she won't give a shit about it. And so, everything that I ever experienced from that man was written down on a journal. That was the only way I could vent all the stress and anger I had.While she was still on a relationship with that man, I would always hide from him so he won't be able to lay a finger on me. But there were times that he would sneak in my room just to make me suffer for his disgusting pleasure. He would often leave with a threat so I wouldn't dare tell anyone about it.I was really scared… no one was ever there for me. But instead of letting myself suffer even more, I try to make myself distracted when I'm out of the house.Y
We moved into a new neighborhood when I was at the age of eight. That's when I met Yuji, the guy who became my best friend… the guy who I came to like. And the one who I fell for.He became the person who I would run to whenever I'm at my worst. Yuji would always welcome me at his house, both his parents treating me like I was a part of their family. I really loved his company, it lets me feel all the things I lacked on my own family."Tomakawa, don't your parents worry if you spend the night here without telling them?" Auntie asked.I shook my head and gave my brightest smile. "They won't. Mommy said it's okay if it's at my best friend's house." It was a lie, and I was not guilty one bit. I don't really want to go home that night."Hmm, alright then."A
When I was about five years old, I can remember how my parents would argue all the time. It eventually led to physical violence, and sometimes I get hurt as well. It was really scary for a child to experience something like that from his own parents.If I remember well, the one who's most at fault for all the arguments was mom. Dad would always come home late and drunk, then mom will start to complain. They argue, fight, and mess up the house."Stop telling me what to do, woman!""I told you a million times already, haven't I?! Stop getting yourself drunk whenever you go home!""Shut up and lock yourself in a room. Seeing your face ruins my mood!""Why, you!… you should be the one locking yourself in a room! You're a wretched mess!"&nb
Since I was kicked out of school, the only place I can stay at was at my mother's house. It sickens me to go back there but I have no other choice. "Hm. And what do you think you're doing here?" Mom asked. Just when I arrived, I didn't expect to see her outside the house to water the plants. Usually, she fools with every man she brings home most of the time. "I'll be here for a few days, I'll leave as soon as I find another place to stay at." "Heh, I heard you were kicked out of school." "None of your business." I just ignored her comments and got inside the house. Seeing this place only reminded me of the past I always wished to forget. Every room, every corner… it was all too disturbing for me. After opening the lock on my room, it was just like how
That was it.Everything is over.I no longer have anything to do with him. When I got back from the hospital, I learned that Yuji's father had storm at my place and took all of Yuji's belonging. They said he'll transfer his son onto another school because of me, though he had never mentioned to the faculty the reasons. But rumors seem to have already spread because of Yuu."How disgusting! The school should expel him.""Is it really that guy?!""I heard he was sexually assaulting his roommate, that's why the father of the victim took away his son.""That fag is a scum!"Many people kept whispering behind my back as I walk on the hallways. I couldn't care less about what they s