I woke up earlier than Toma so we can seperately go to school on our own. I bet it pretty much upsets him that he won't be able to go there with me. He's pretty much used with going to school with me, however, that won't be happening today.
I just hope things go well for him.
"…huh. Something is different." My seatmate Xia said.
"Nothing new out of the ordinary." I told her as I sat next to her.
"No, no. There's definitely something different with you today." Then her eyes gazed on the person who entered class. We both saw Toma coming in alone.
There our eyes met, he smiles a little at me then goes to his seat without a worry. Xia then realized what she saw different in her perspective. "That's it! You haven't gone to school with your boyfriend!"
"What!?--I don't have a boyfriend! I'm a guy, I'm not gay!" Seriously, this girl is annoying. She just giggles as I glared at her.
"Ahh yeah, I forgot about that. But Toma is your friend right? I always used to see you guys together here at school most of the time."
"Well not anymore."
"Why? Did you guys break up or something?"
Again, I glared at her. "I just told you, I'm not in that kind of relationship with him."
"Hahaha! Right. But is it alright that you guys are seperate like this?"
"It's not like we're always together, we have seperate lives."
"Hmmm, is that right?"
My eyes rolled at this girl, the moment she opens her mouth. She spat nothing but annoying nonsense. "…Still, I hope I see you guys hanging out together again."
"Why do you care so much about me and Toma anyway?"
Her grin scared me. "I just like seeing you guys together, you remind me of an 'uke and seme' relationships."
"And what does that mean?"
"Oh uhh, oh! The professor is already here, let's not get distracted too much." She was able to dodge my question when the prof came, though I lost interest in knowing what she meant. I bet it'll be something weird again.
Xia is weird. As much as I want to avoid her, fate seems to be harsh on me for I've been partnered up with her for a research paper, which will take about two months to finish. "Great, I'm stuck with you for a month." I said.
"Hey, It's not like I wanted this to happen either." She pouts and looked at me sharply.
"Whatever, let's just get things done before the deadline. It'll be great if we finish it way more earlier." So that I won't have to spend time with you so much.
"Hmph, you're such a grumpy rude jerk. No wonder you don't have much friends."
"H-Hey! I got friends!" I told her.
"Yeah right, you had one and you just pushed him out of your life." There I realized she was talking about Toma. "If you'll excuse me, I'll be off to my next subject." She said and left.
Ah, the current subject is over. When I was about to get out of class, I was going to call out to Toma. But before I could do so, I almost forgot that we were both supposed to be living seperate lives for three whole months.
Then after seeing Toma happily talking to other people made me… smile a bit.
"I guess he's doing well without me." I mumbled to myself, before leaving the classroom.
By the time the man finally left, mom even gave me loads of money so I could stay away from her. It was then I decided to cut ties with her. I was done dealing with her… "It was a mistake to stay here. I'm leaving." I never should've come back. "W-Wait!" Before mom could stop me, I quickly got to my room and brought all my stuff with me. "Toma, please! Please hear me out!" "…IT'S TOO LATE FOR AN APOLOGY! Don't even think that I'll ever forgive you." I told her while I was running down the stairs. She just kept pulling my stuff to make it more difficult to leave. "No, Toma! I can't—" "Don't stop me!" I glared at her, "I don't want anything to do with you ever again."
Nobody ever knows about it.I kept that very dark secret of mine all to myself. I can't even bother myself to tell my mom about what happened to me, I know she won't give a shit about it. And so, everything that I ever experienced from that man was written down on a journal. That was the only way I could vent all the stress and anger I had.While she was still on a relationship with that man, I would always hide from him so he won't be able to lay a finger on me. But there were times that he would sneak in my room just to make me suffer for his disgusting pleasure. He would often leave with a threat so I wouldn't dare tell anyone about it.I was really scared… no one was ever there for me. But instead of letting myself suffer even more, I try to make myself distracted when I'm out of the house.Y
We moved into a new neighborhood when I was at the age of eight. That's when I met Yuji, the guy who became my best friend… the guy who I came to like. And the one who I fell for.He became the person who I would run to whenever I'm at my worst. Yuji would always welcome me at his house, both his parents treating me like I was a part of their family. I really loved his company, it lets me feel all the things I lacked on my own family."Tomakawa, don't your parents worry if you spend the night here without telling them?" Auntie asked.I shook my head and gave my brightest smile. "They won't. Mommy said it's okay if it's at my best friend's house." It was a lie, and I was not guilty one bit. I don't really want to go home that night."Hmm, alright then."A
When I was about five years old, I can remember how my parents would argue all the time. It eventually led to physical violence, and sometimes I get hurt as well. It was really scary for a child to experience something like that from his own parents.If I remember well, the one who's most at fault for all the arguments was mom. Dad would always come home late and drunk, then mom will start to complain. They argue, fight, and mess up the house."Stop telling me what to do, woman!""I told you a million times already, haven't I?! Stop getting yourself drunk whenever you go home!""Shut up and lock yourself in a room. Seeing your face ruins my mood!""Why, you!… you should be the one locking yourself in a room! You're a wretched mess!"&nb
Since I was kicked out of school, the only place I can stay at was at my mother's house. It sickens me to go back there but I have no other choice. "Hm. And what do you think you're doing here?" Mom asked. Just when I arrived, I didn't expect to see her outside the house to water the plants. Usually, she fools with every man she brings home most of the time. "I'll be here for a few days, I'll leave as soon as I find another place to stay at." "Heh, I heard you were kicked out of school." "None of your business." I just ignored her comments and got inside the house. Seeing this place only reminded me of the past I always wished to forget. Every room, every corner… it was all too disturbing for me. After opening the lock on my room, it was just like how
That was it.Everything is over.I no longer have anything to do with him. When I got back from the hospital, I learned that Yuji's father had storm at my place and took all of Yuji's belonging. They said he'll transfer his son onto another school because of me, though he had never mentioned to the faculty the reasons. But rumors seem to have already spread because of Yuu."How disgusting! The school should expel him.""Is it really that guy?!""I heard he was sexually assaulting his roommate, that's why the father of the victim took away his son.""That fag is a scum!"Many people kept whispering behind my back as I walk on the hallways. I couldn't care less about what they s