CHAPTER 2

Morning light slipped quietly through the thin curtains.

I stirred when the sunlight touched my face. My head felt heavy, my body strangely warm beneath the soft sheets. For a moment, I couldn’t remember where she was. Or what happened, ang naalala ko lang ay dinala ako ni Jamaica sa isang club and left me there.

I moved, still eyes closed. Pinakiramdaman ko ang paligid. However, I realized someone’s arm was wrapped around my waist.

My eyes opened instantly. Kinabahan agad ako. Slowly and carefully I turned my head.

Beside me was a man! Bigla akong napaatras sa kinahihigaan. Tinitigan ko siya. He's sleeping soundly.

His dark hair was slightly messy, his face relaxed in a way I hadn’t seen before. One arm rested lazily around me like it belonged there.

His features are perfect, he has a soft oval face with a clear and smooth look. His eyebrows are thick, giving his face a strong expression. He has a straight and well-defined nose bridge that fits well with his facial shape. His lips is thin and pinkish, smooth and kissable—

My heart began to pound.

Nanlaki ang mata ko. Memories flashing back to me, from the couch, to the dancefloor, then the hotel! Ang halik, ang init, ang haplos. Lahat bumalik sa akin. Para akong binuhusan ng tubig nang mapagtanto ang nangyari.

This man beside me is the man I met last night!

Cameron!

Even though I don't have a clear vision of him, I just knew. Nanlamig ako. I don't know what to do anymore! Ang akala ko panaginip ko lang yun! Wet dreams Jamaica once said!

“Oh God…” she whispered.

My hand immediately clutched the blanket closer to my chest.

What had I done?

Carefully, I lifted Cameron’s arm and slipped out of the bed, trying not to wake him. The cold air touched my skin, making me realize I was barely dressed.

Nakita ko ang damit sa ibaba, nagkalat. Patunay na may nangyari ngang kasalanan kagabi.

I did not wait for anything to happen, I quickly grabbed it and put it back on, my hands slightly shaking. Naiiyak ako at kinakabahan. Mali ito, I should've refused to see Jamaica or just told her to go shopping. Hindi ito, hindi ganito!

I looked at the bed again.

Cameron hadn’t moved. He's still asleep and unaware. I took that moment to leave the place. Wala akong dalang gamit, kahit cellphone. Hindi ko rin naman in-expect na doon ako dadalhin ni Jamaica.

Nang makalabas sa hotel ay mabilis akong umuwi sa convent. I prayed that no one will noticed my arrival.

Mabuti nalang at walang katao-tao sa loob kaya nagmadali akong pumanhik sa aking kuwarto. Mag isa lamang ako doon kaya nakahinga rin ng maluwag. I went inside the bathroom to wash myself, I need to divert my attention to forget what happened last night.

But, the more I touched my body, the more I remembered his touch. The memories from last night came rushing to my mind—

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“Cameron,” I moaned.

Halos wala na akong saplot noon. My dress was somewhere on the floor, only my underwear left on my body. Nakadagan siya sa akin, his broad chest pressing against mine, warm and heavy. Nakatanggal na rin ang kanyang polo, leaving his bare skin against mine.

His lips moved slowly from my collarbone down to my chest.

I gasped.

“Cameron…” mahina kong bulong, nanginginig ang boses ko.

Hindi ko alam kung dapat ko siyang itulak palayo o hilahin pa palapit. My hands were already gripping his shoulders, feeling the strength beneath his skin.

“Relax,” he murmured against my neck.

His voice was low, rough, sending a strange heat through my body.

“I shouldn't…” I whispered.

But the words sounded weak even to my own ears.

He lifted his head and looked down at me. His dark eyes were heavy, like he was trying to read my face.

“Then stop me,” he said quietly.

Hindi ako nakasagot.

Instead, my fingers tightened around his arm. That signals him.

His lips felt hot against my skin. Parang kuryente ang bawat haplos niya. I slowly felt his hand went down my thighs, I bit my lips. My body is not responding to what my mind is screaming. I should stop him!

His hand reaches my center and caresses it in a sensual motion. I cannot help but to moan. Dahan-dahan ay binaba niya ang ang saplot nito. His fingers rub it sensually, until he pushes his finger inside.

My hands moved on their own, fingers tangling in his dark hair.

"Cameron!" I screamed, begging. My voice is shaking.

"This is your first time huh?" I arched my back when he pushed and pulled his finger faster, making me pleased.

"Please—" I exploded. The sheets became wet with my own water. I feel embarrassed. He removed his hand there.

Akala ko yun na yun but.....

He positioned himself above mine. My eyes suddenly went on down, where I saw his hard on, standing firmly. It was already covered with a protection. My heart pounded harshly.

Hinalikan niya ulit ako, diverting my attention to his kisses. However, I will never missed his dragon teasing my entrance.

"I'll be gentle." hindi pa man ako nakapag react ay dahan-dahan niyang ipinasok ang kanya sa akin. I shouted in pain.

His hands slid down my waist, gripping my hips firmly.

Masakit, pero gusto ko yun. I arched my back when his mouth moved lower. My breathing became heavy. The room was quiet, pero ang ingay ng tibok ng puso ko.

Nayanig ang katawan ko. I closed my eyes tightly.

My hands went down to his shoulders. Muscular and hard. I could feel the heat coming from his body. It was consuming me.

Cameron gradually started thrusting. Every push and pull makes me pleasured. Dahan-dahan hanggang sa bumilis. Hindi ko maiwasang hindi maiyak sa sakit.

"You're so tight."

My mind is already empty. Hindi ko na maisip ang tamang gawin. The thing that's keep running my mind is that I'm being pleasured.

I forgot about the convent. I forgot about my vows. I forgot about everything that was wrong about this. All I knew was the way he touched me.

He didn't stop. He kissed me again, deep and hard. I kissed him back, losing myself in the taste of him.

Every movement he made sent shocks through my body. I clutched his back, my nails digging into his skin. He groaned against my neck.

"Hold on to me," he whispered.

And I did. I held on tight as everything else faded away—

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I closed my eyes tightly! Trying to erase those memories. I should forget this! Hindi pwede ito!

Binilisan ko ang pag ligo. I don't want to remember it again, my sin, my unforgivable sin.

Lumabas ako ng kwarto matapos ang mahabang oras sa pagkatulala. Hindi dapat nila malaman ito, not even Jamaica.

That day, it never went smooth. Sa oras na wala akong gagawin ay kusa na lamang bumabalik ang nangayri sa gabing yun. Kaya mas minabuti kong tumulong na lamang sa kung anong dapat gawin upang mawala ang nasa isip.

I can't even look straight to the cross. I am ashamed and embarrassed to face him, after what I did.