LOGIN"Alya! Wag mo kasing itaas! Off-shoulder nga, ‘di ba?" suway ni Jamaica sa akin nang makita niya akong itinataas ang sleeve ng suot. Katabi ko siya habang nakasakay kami sa SUV nila.
I rolled my eyes on her. "Kapag ako nahuli Jamaica sa pinaggagawa mo. Saan ba kasi tayo pupunta? Ang paalam ko sa simbahan ay may importanteng pupuntahan," I told her, feeling a bit uncomfortable of what I am wearing. She made me wear a revealing shirt which is prohibited on my part as a novice. White floral off-shoulder top, and tight-fitting jeans. She looked at me and winked. "Basta akong bahala sa’yo!" she excitedly exclaimed. Pinabayaan ko na lamang siya. Besides, I can't say no. Ngayon na lang rin kami nagkita ulit kaya pagbigyan ko na. Maya-maya pa ay huminto ang sasakyan. Jamaica went out of the car first, sumunod naman ako. Tinignan ko ang lugar na aming pinuntahan matapos makalabas ng sasakyan at halos lumuwa ang aking mga mata nang makita kung saan ako dinala ng kaibigan. She immediately noticed my reaction and disapproval. “Come on, Alya. One night lang,” Jamaica insisted, pulling me toward the entrance of the private club. “Hindi ka naman makikilala dito.” Hindi na ako nakapalag sa kanya, I hesitated to go with her when the doors opened. But still, she held my hand at pumasok kami sa loob. Loud music filled the air, lights flashing across a crowded room filled with strangers laughing, drinking, and dancing too close to each other. “This is a bad idea,” I murmured. Sa dami ng tao sa loob ay nagkabunggo-an na kami. Jamaica did not care of whomever she bumped into. Nakarating kami sa isang sulok, may malaking sofa at inumin sa lamesa. "Here, upo ka dito," Jam said saka niya ako pinaupo. "Jam, you know exactly what I am. This is not a good idea," I complained. Jam only smiled and pushed a drink into my hand before disappearing into the crowd without a word. Tatawagin ko pa sana siya kaso hindi ko na nahagip. Dinala niya ako tapos iiwan lang? I stared at the glass. I rarely drank, kahit noong nasa tamang edad na ako'y hindi ko pa naisip ang ganitong bagay. But tonight already felt like a mistake. So I risk it. I took a sip. Hindi umayon sa aking panlasa pero hindi ko na lamang inalintana pa. I took another. Grabeng pait naman nito! The music became louder. The room is warmer. I feel like I was being fried because of the hotness I am feeling. And that’s when I noticed something. Nilingon ko ang banda ng bar counter. Across it, leaning against the bar like he owned the place, was a man watching me. He's tall with broad shoulders. Wearing a dark suit slightly loosened while holding a glass of whiskey in his hand. His eyes stayed on me. Napalunok ako at umiwas ng tingin. Baka nasa likuran ko lang ang tinitigan niya, assuming mo naman alya! Because of that, nilingon ko ang aking likuran. Wala namang tao ah! Or namalik-mata lang ako? But when I glanced again, he was already walking towards me. Nanlaki ang aking mata! What should I do?! Baka mamaya niyan, masamang tao siya! Asan na ba si Jamaica?! “First time here?” he asked, when he got closer. His voice was deep, calm, but slightly rough like he had been drinking too. Malamang! I gulped when he sat a meter away from me. I nodded. “Yes.” I remained compose. Hindi ko pinahalata na nagpapanic na ako. “I can tell.” I frowned slightly. “Why?” “You look like you don’t belong here," he pointed out. His Aura screams power. Na sa kahit konting galaw mo hindi niya dapat mapansin. “I don’t,” I admitted. He nodded after hearing that. Actually, hindi ko talaga makita ng buo ang mukha niya. Madilim kasi itong puwesto namin kaya hindi ko masyadong maaninag ang anyo niya, but I can tell he's handsome. “Cameron.” He held out his hand. Nabigla ako sa biglaan niyang pagpapakilala. After a moment of hesitation, I took it. “Alya.” The moment our hands touched, something strange passed us, warm and electric. I pulled away. My heart is beating so fast. Cameron noticed my uneasiness after I pulled away. “You’re nervous,” he said, brows furrowed. “I’m not," giit ko. Uminom ulit ako ng alak at hindi pinansin ang masamang lasa. “You are.” I looked up at him then, meeting his dark gaze fully for the first time. Binawi ko rin ang tingin nang maramdaman ang pagkahilo. And suddenly the loud room felt quieter. “Dance with me,” biglang sabi niya. “I don’t dance.” Ayaw ko. Gusto ko ng umuwi. Nahihilo na ako. “I’ll lead.” Hindi na ako nakaalma nang kunin niya ang baso sa aking kamay at ilapag sa lamesa saka ako hinila sa dancefloor. His hand rested on my waist, warm through the thin fabric of my top. I stiffened at first, but the alcohol and the music made it harder to think clearly. Wala namang nakakakilala sa akin diba? Si Jamaica, nasaan na kaya yun? I don't think I have a right para bumalik ng simbahan matapos ko itong gawin?! Saan ang hiya? “Relax,” Cameron murmured near my ear. His voice sent a small shiver down my spine. “You’re thinking too much.” “Maybe you’re not thinking enough,” I replied, medyo nairita narin sa kanya. Dala siguro ng pagkakahilo ko. Narinig ko ang kanyang mahinang pag tawa. We moved slowly with the music, our bodies closer than strangers should be. I could feel the steady rhythm of his breathing. The warmth of his hand. The way his fingers tightened slightly when I tried to step back. “Why are you here?” he asked quietly. “Why are you?” “Fair question.” Humina ang music. For a moment, neither of us spoke. Then Cameron lifted his hand and brushed a loose strand of hair away from my face. I froze. Naghuhumintaryo sa kaba ang aking puso. His fingers lingered near my cheek. Naramdaman ko ang matinding init sa aking katawan. My eyesight became blurry, kahit dito hindi ko maaninag ang kanyang mukha. Dala narin siguro ng alak. I stared at him in the eye, but I only saw its darkness. The intense rush on my system spread like wildfire. At dahil narin sa matinding init ng aking katawan, I couldn't help but to suddenly pull him in a kiss. My mind went blank. Hindi ko na alam kung ano ang ginagawa ko pero sa oras na iyon ay tumugon siya. The kiss deepened, slow but hungry, like neither of us expected it but neither wanted to stop. Cameron’s hand moved to the back of my neck, holding me gently but firmly. His other hand travelled on my body, bumaba ang halik niya sa aking panga hanggang sa aking leeg. I don't even care anymore if someone sees us. "C-cam—" Bago pa ako makapagsalita ay tumigil siya sa pag halik. I thought we'll stop there but little did I know he had other plans for tonight. Cameron pulled me out of the club and drove me away. We then arrived in a private hotel near the club. Lumabas kami sa sasakyan. He booked a room for us and pulled me. Nang makapasok sa loob ng elevator ay mabilis niya akong inangkin. Kinarga niya ako, I wrapped my legs around his hips. I moaned when his hard on touched my center. He was busy kissing my neck. Someone whispered to grind on his hard on, kaya ginawa ko. Nahinto siya. "Stay still," he ordered. I did not listen, I grinded faster making it more bigger. I felt something in my center explode making me moan louder. Cameron stopped me from moving, hinawakan niya ang aking baywang. "Fuck! Stop Alya!" he growled loudly. Hindi ko namalayan nakapasok na pala kami sa hotel. Nilapag niya agad ako sa higaan at dumagan sa akin. He started kissing me on my neck while removing my top. I was lost. Hindi ko na namalayan ang mga nangyari. I have crossed a door that should keep closed. A mistake. A moment of weakness. A night I believed would remain a secret. But it was the beginning of something far more dangerous than either of us realized.I feel like I am being watched.After kong mabasa ang text ay hindi na ako mapakali. Knowing that he knows I am outside the church is alarming. And how on earth did he know my number? Hindi ko naman binigay.My fingers tightened around my phone as I stared at the message again. Kulang nalang ay itapon ko ito sa panginginig at kaba.It was simple.But it was enough to make my chest feel uneasy.Slowly, I lifted my head and glanced at the glass window beside our seats. The street outside was busy—people walking, cars passing, groups of friends laughing while carrying shopping bags. Everything looked normal.Just normal.Yet the strange feeling remained. It's been 3 days since that day happened, after the heated encounter with him akala ko wala na. Tatlong araw siyang hindi nag paramdam, I thought I can finally have my peace and I could finally forget. But I don't think I can?“Alya?”Napalingon ako kay Jade. She was looking at me with curiosity while the staff continued working on her
"Sumama ka sa kanilang lumabas Alya, make time for yourselves. Mamili kayo at kumain sa labas," sabi ni Sister Esther. Ngumiti ako sa kanya."I'm fine, Sister Esther. Sila nalang po, tutulong nalang po ako sa mga bata—"Before I could finish my words she cut me off. "Alya, you're not here to isolate yourself. Try something new, yung alam mong tama, yung alam mong hindi mali sa mata ng diyos. It's not bad to have fun unless you're doing bad behind our saviours back."I looked down after hearing her sentiments. I am not isolating my self but rather I am protecting it. Alam kong may nagawa akong mali. I was sitting in front of Sister Esther. Nandito kami sa kanyang opisina. She made me come here para ipaalam na lalabas ng simbahan ang aking mga kasamahan at gagala. Gusto ni Sister na sumama ako. I want to go but I am afraid."Hindi naman po sa ganoon Sister. I just feel like I need to help,""We don't need this time, Alya. Bumalik ka sa'yong silid at mag bihis. Sasama ka sa kanila," S
Now what should I do?I continued walking toward the storage room behind the refectory, trying my best to ignore the sound of Cameron’s footsteps following behind me. My grip on the box had already disappeared since he took it from me, but the irritation remained. I could still hear my own voice from earlier, the sharp words that slipped out of my mouth without thinking.“Edi ayan! Sayo na! Isaksak mo sa baga mo!”Napapikit ako sandali habang naglalakad. That was so rude. I rarely spoke like that to anyone, especially here inside the church grounds. Pero kasalanan din naman niya. Bigla nalang siyang lumapit at nang-agaw. Marami pa naman ang nandoon sa parlour.The storage room door creaked softly when I pushed it open. The room was quiet and slightly dim, lit only by the small window near the ceiling. Wooden shelves filled the walls, stacked with canned goods, rice sacks, and boxes of supplies for the feeding program. It smelled faintly of cardboard and stored food.I stepped inside a
The moment I stepped out of the refectory, I felt like I could finally breathe again.My chest had been tight the entire time I was inside. I forced myself to eat ngumiti kay Jade and act like nothing was wrong, but the truth was I could feel his eyes on me the whole time. I didn’t need to look back to know that he was watching. Just the thought of Cameron being in the same room as me made my stomach twist in a way I couldn’t explain.I walked faster across the courtyard, clutching the edge of my veil. The sunlight was already bright, and the church grounds were slowly becoming busy again. Some visitors were entering the chapel to pray and wait for the second mass while others were leaving after the first mass. Everything looked normal. Peaceful. The same quiet place I had always known.Pero para sa akin, hindi ito normal na araw.I tried to calm myself as I headed toward the convent building. My steps slowed down when I reached the shaded pathway beside the garden. Dito ako dumadaan
I barely slept that night.Even after the cold shower, even after kneeling beside my bed and whispering prayers again and again, my mind refused to rest. Every time I closed my eyes, the memories came back—the music, the alcohol, his hands, his voice.I pressed my eyes shut and shook my head.“Stop,” I whispered to myself.I shouldn’t think about him anymore. Kung ano man yung nangyari ay wala lang yun. A moment of weakness. Something that should never happen again. Ang dapat kong alalahanin ngayun ay ang sarili. I should ask for forgiveness. But how? Ayaw kong ikumpisal ang nangyari, natatakot ako. I don't want anyone to know what happened.But still, the only place I knew where I could find peace was the church.So the next morning, I woke up earlier than usual and went straight to the chapel. The air inside was cool and quiet. The soft light from the stained glass windows painted colors across the floor. Marami ng tao ang nakaupo sa loob. This place has always calmed me. "Alya, m
Morning light slipped quietly through the thin curtains.I stirred when the sunlight touched my face. My head felt heavy, my body strangely warm beneath the soft sheets. For a moment, I couldn’t remember where she was. Or what happened, ang naalala ko lang ay dinala ako ni Jamaica sa isang club and left me there. I moved, still eyes closed. Pinakiramdaman ko ang paligid. However, I realized someone’s arm was wrapped around my waist. My eyes opened instantly. Kinabahan agad ako. Slowly and carefully I turned my head.Beside me was a man! Bigla akong napaatras sa kinahihigaan. Tinitigan ko siya. He's sleeping soundly. His dark hair was slightly messy, his face relaxed in a way I hadn’t seen before. One arm rested lazily around me like it belonged there.His features are perfect, he has a soft oval face with a clear and smooth look. His eyebrows are thick, giving his face a strong expression. He has a straight and well-defined nose bridge that fits well with his facial shape. His lip







