ログインCeleste POV
The cheers hadn’t stopped. I could still hear them, bleeding through the walls, thundering in my ears like a cruel reminder that I didn’t belong out there anymore. The cheers from the arena still echoed faintly, like they were laughing at me from a distance. I knew that applause wasn’t for me. Not anymore. They were cheering for her. Samantha. I sat on the edge of the locker room bench, arms folded tightly, jaw clenched so hard it ached. My skating bag sat by my feet, untouched. I’d come in earlier, hoping to wish him luck, his lucky charm, remember?, but instead I sat here, invisible, forgotten. The door creaked open. And there he was. Anthony stepped in, flushed from the performance, chest rising and falling beneath his costume. There was sweat on his brow and fire in his eyes, eyes that didn’t even see me at first. Not really. Not until I stood. His eyes lit up when he saw me. And for a moment, I hated him for it. “I didn’t think you’d still be here, You didn’t wait for me after warm-up.” He said, peeling off his gloves. “You watched?” “Of course I watched,” I snapped. “What kind of partner do you take me for?” He blinked, caught off guard by the tone. “Celeste…” “No, really.” I stood slowly, arms crossed over my chest. “I saw your performance,” I said flatly. “Beautiful.” “You were incredible. You and Samantha. Such chemistry. So electric. Even the blind could see it, you two are meant to skate together.” He rubbed the back of his neck, not meeting my eyes. “It was just a performance, Cel.” He said, offering a sheepish smile. I didn’t smile back. “With her,” I cut in. He froze. I let out a sharp, dry laugh. “God, Anthony. You didn’t even try to hide it. The way you looked at her out there? Like she was your whole world.” “It was just the program…” “No, don’t give me that,” I snapped. “You didn’t look at me that way. Not even when we won regionals last year. You didn’t touch me like I was something fragile and precious. You don’t even realize it, do you? How you follow her with your eyes. How you tilt your head when she speaks. How you move like you’ve been waiting for someone like her.” He shifted, uncomfortable, but said nothing. “That should have been me out there, I worked my ass off to get us here,” I whispered. “That program was written for us. I broke my back getting us to Nationals. And the second I’m not perfect, I’m sidelined and she slips into my skates like I never mattered.” “That’s not what happened. You’re not sidelined,” Anthony said quietly. “You got hurt…” “You didn’t even hesitate, Anthony!” I slammed my hand against the locker. “You switched partners before my cast was off. Before I could even heal. And now you two are skating like you’ve been destined from the start.” His eyes darted to the floor. I took a shaky breath, trying to hold in the betrayal that was cracking open inside me. “She’s not me,” I said coldly. “She doesn’t have the experience, the mental stamina, the discipline. I know you. I know your rhythm, your tells, your blind spots.” His jaw tightened, just for a second. “Celeste,” he said quietly, “it’s not about replacing you. You got injured. The team had to move forward.” “Don’t feed me that team crap,” I hissed. “We were the team. And now you’re parading her around like she’s your great comeback story.” I should have walked away then. But I couldn’t. Anthony’s expression hardened. “This isn’t fair.” He muttered. “You know what’s not fair?” I stepped right up to him, nearly nose to nose. “Watching you skate with her like you belong together. Hearing the crowd scream for you and her when it should have been you and me. Do you know what it feels like to become invisible in the sport you gave your body to?” He didn’t answer. Because he couldn’t. “You don’t get to hurt me and still play the good guy,” I whispered. “I was your partner in every sense, and you discarded me the second she showed up.” “I’m warning you, Anthony,” I said, quieter now but colder. “Don’t get comfortable. She’s not permanent. She’s a filler. A substitute. One wrong step and the same people cheering today will rip her apart tomorrow.” I grabbed my jacket and slung it over my shoulder. Anthony’s expression faltered, like he wanted to argue but couldn’t find the words. So I gave him mine. “Enjoy your little fairytale. I hope the crowd’s cheers keep you warm, Anthony,” I said, voice shaking. “Because the way you looked at her today? It wasn’t just acting. And one day, she’ll realize it too.” I didn’t wait for him to reply. I turned before he could see the tears burning in my eyes, and left him standing there, still painted in gold, while I walked away with nothing but bruises no medal could cover.Samantha's POVThe building took a long time to empty.There were media obligations and federation handshakes and photographs and a brief press appearance where Samantha said grateful and extraordinary and we're incredibly proud and Anthony said the program spoke for itself and Vera coached three Olympic pairs and there is a reason for that.By ten thirty the arena had mostly cleared.The cleaning crew was working the upper tiers. The ice had been left as it was, the competition surface, still pristine, the lights above it dimmed to their overnight low setting but not fully off. The overhead panels cast the same pale blue-white glow that made the ice look like it produced its own light.The side door was unlocked.Samantha didn't ask how Anthony had arranged that. She suspected Isaac. She suspected Isaac had anticipated this the way he anticipated most things and had made a quiet phone call to the facilities manager sometime between the trophy ceremony and the press appearance.They c
Samantha's POVThe trophy was heavier than she expected.Samantha had held trophies before. Smaller ones, regional ones, the kind that lived on shelves in childhood bedrooms and collected dust with quiet dignity. This one was different. Cold metal and real weight and the Grand Prix insignia cut clean into the base. She held it with both hands and looked at it and tried to feel the size of what it meant.She was still working on that when she heard the sound beside her.It was quiet. She almost missed it under the crowd noise and the announcer and the music the arena had started playing over the speaker system. A small, contained sound. The kind a person makes when something breaks through a wall they have spent years building.She turned.Anthony was standing beside her on the podium with his head slightly down and his jaw tight and his eyes wet.She had never seen Anthony Vale cry.She did not think, until this moment, that she ever would.He was not making a production of it. He wa
Samantha's POVThe ice was fast and the lighting was brighter than anything they had practiced under and the crowd sound was a constant low pressure around the edges of everything. None of it touched what was happening in the center.The first movement built the way it was supposed to build. Distance that had weight in it. Two people circling. Coming close. Pulling back. The audience learning the shape of the thing before the key change showed them where it was going.She hit every edge.She felt Anthony hitting every edge six feet away, his movement precise and open in a way that would read from the back row of the upper tier. Vera had said that once. The openness has to be big enough to reach the cheap seats. She had not meant it cynically. She had meant that real feeling, genuine feeling, had a physical size.Anthony was giving it a physical size.She was giving it one too.The key change came.Their bodies turned toward each other and the crowd felt it. She heard the shift in the
Samantha's POVThe noise hit her before the light did.Samantha had competed in large arenas before. She knew the particular pressure of crowd sound, the way it filled a space differently from music or silence, the way it had weight and temperature. She thought she had prepared for it.She had not prepared for this.The Grand Prix final arena held fourteen thousand people and it was full. Not mostly full. Not comfortably full. Every seat taken, standing room at the back of the upper tier, the specific compressed energy of a capacity crowd that had been building since the doors opened and was now looking for somewhere to go.She stood in the tunnel with Anthony beside her and felt the noise before she saw the ice.Her ankle was fine. She had woken up that morning and tested it carefully before she even stood fully, rolling it in slow circles the way the physio had shown her, and it had answered back clean and quiet. Fine. It was fine.Her hands were cold. They were always cold before c
Samantha's POV The hotel room was warm and the city outside the window was lit up against the dark.Samantha sat at the small desk near the window with a pen in her hand and a notebook open in front of her. The notebook was dark green and slightly battered at the corners. She had carried it in the bottom of her skating bag for almost two years without opening it. She had bought it in a small shop near the Westview Arena on a day when she had felt the need to buy something that suggested she might have interior thoughts worth recording, and then had never managed to actually record them.Tonight she opened it.She didn't plan what to write. She just let the pen move.---*I don't know what I expected this to feel like.**I thought I would write about the program. About the elements and what I need to remember tomorrow and what Vera said in the rehearsal rink. That's what I thought this would be.**But I've been sitting here for ten minutes and none of that is what wants to come out.
Samantha's POVThe arena they had been given for dress rehearsal was three blocks from the Grand Prix venue.It was a smaller building, older, with boards that had been repainted too many times and seats that were mostly empty except for a handful of federation officials and two judges who had been approved to observe the run. Not score. Just watch. Vera had been clear about the distinction when she told them."They are not scoring you today," she had said at breakfast. "They are simply present. Do not perform for them. Perform for the program."Samantha had nodded.She had slept well, which surprised her. She had expected the night before dress rehearsal to be the kind of night that ate itself, hours of lying awake running through elements and worst case scenarios. Instead she had gone under quickly and stayed there and woken up feeling something close to ready.That feeling lasted until approximately nine forty-three in the morning.---The first sign was the music.They were three
Anthony’s POVSamantha leaned back, pretending to think deeply, one finger tapping her chin like she was considering a philosophical question. Then, in that dry, deliberate tone of hers, she said, “Number two: I’m grateful I haven’t strangled anyone yet.”My brows lifted. “That’s…” I started to say
Anthony’s POV “Fine,” she said after a pause. “My third… I’m grateful for fire. Not just this one, but… warmth. The light. Reminds me I’m not in complete darkness.”The way she said it, quiet, unguarded, hit me harder than I expected. I don’t think she meant for it to sound so raw, but her voice c
Anthony’s POV “Isaac…”“Don’t even try to deny it. I can hear it in your voice. The great Anthony Vale… rattled.” He whistled low. “Now this, I’ve got to see.”I sighed. I didn’t respond. One thing I was glad about was the fact that Isaac was not in the training camp with them, because he would ha
Anthony’s POV He had to be fucking joking. We we’re not student athletes for Christ’s sake. “Homework?” I repeated, just to make sure I’d heard him right.“Yes.” He reached into his pocket and pulled out two small notecards, holding them up like they were golden tickets to hell. “By tonight’s bonf







