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Sera Winters pov
Some prisons have bars. Some have mothers who smile when they hand you the key. My mother was lying. I should have known. The coffee was from the good place downtown, the one she never went to because it cost too much. She was wearing lipstick. My mother never wore lipstick before noon. "Sera, sweetheart." She put the cup down on my counter like it was fragile. Like it might break. "I need your help." I was still in my pajamas. My apartment was freezing because the heater barely worked and the landlord kept saying he'd fix it next week. Next week for three months now. I wrapped my arms around myself and looked at the coffee cup. Steam rising. Expensive coffee I didn't ask for. "What happened?" I asked. She laughed. High and too fast. "Nothing happened. Why would something happen?" Because you're here. Because you brought coffee. Because you're lying. "I just need you to do something for me," she said. Her hands were moving, touching the counter, touching her purse, touching everything like she couldn't hold still. "Some old friends need help. They're going through a hard time and I told them you'd stay with them for a while. Just a few weeks." My stomach dropped. "What friends?" "The Thorns. You were little when we knew them. You wouldn't remember." I didn't remember. But I remembered other things. Like how two years ago she told me my stepsister was in Europe studying art. How she smiled when she said it. How I found out six months later from my aunt that there was no art program. That my stepsister wasn't in Europe. That no one had seen her in years and nobody wanted to talk about why. "Mom, I can't just leave. I have work." "You hate that job." She said it so fast. Like she'd been waiting to say it. "You're exhausted all the time. You need a break." I did hate that job. I was exhausted. But that wasn't the point. "Where do they live?" "Upstate. It's beautiful there. Forest and quiet and—" "How far?" She looked at her hands. "A few hours." My throat felt tight. "When?" "Today. We can leave in an hour." Today. An hour. Like my whole life could just be packed up and moved in an hour. "Please, Sera." Her voice cracked. Actually cracked. And when I looked at her I saw my mom. The real one. The one who used to sing to me when I couldn't sleep. Before Dad left. Before she married Marcus. Before everything got complicated and wrong and twisted up. "I wouldn't ask if it wasn't important." And that was it. That was always it with her. The please. The crack in her voice. The little girl inside me that still wanted her mother to love her. "Okay," I said. Her whole body relaxed. "Thank you, baby. Thank you." I nodded and went to pack. My hands were shaking. • • ┈┈┈┈ ๑ ⋅ ⋯ ୨ ୧ ⋯ ⋅ ๑ ┈┈┈┈ • • The trees started about an hour into the drive. At first it was normal. Houses and gas stations and the highway. Then the exits got farther apart. Then there were no exits at all. Just road and trees. Trees so thick I couldn't see past them. Trees so tall they blocked out the sky. My mother hadn't said a word since we left. Her hands were white on the steering wheel. Her jaw was locked. She looked like she was driving to a funeral. "Are you okay?" I asked. "Fine." "You don't seem fine." "I'm fine, Sera." She wasn't fine. And I wasn't fine. And nothing about this was fine but we were doing it anyway because that's what we did. We pretended. My phone died somewhere around mile marker forty-three. No signal for the last hour anyway. I tried to turn it back on but the screen stayed black. "Do you have a charger?" I asked. "No." Of course not. The road got narrower. The trees got closer. And I started feeling it. This weight in my chest. This pressure. Like something was sitting on my lungs and wouldn't get off. "How much longer?" My voice came out smaller than I wanted. "Not long." She was lying again. I could always tell when she lied. Her voice went flat. Empty. Like she'd scooped out all the feeling and left just the words. I wanted to ask her to turn around. I wanted to scream at her to stop the car. But I didn't. Because I never did. Because I was the good daughter. The one who didn't make trouble. The one who fixed things instead of breaking them. So I sat there and watched the trees swallow us whole. • • ┈┈┈┈ ๑ ⋅ ⋯ ୨ ୧ ⋯ ⋅ ๑ ┈┈┈┈ • • The house came out of nowhere. One second there was just forest. The next second there was this massive stone wall covered in vines. And behind the wall was the house. It looked like something from a gothic novel. All dark stone and sharp towers and windows that looked black even in the daylight. It looked like the kind of place where bad things happened and nobody ever found out. My mother stopped the car. Neither of us moved. "This is it?" I asked. "Yes." "This is where your friends live?" "Yes." I stared at the house. At the windows. At the door that looked like it was made of iron. "Mom, I don't—" The door opened. Three men came out. I stopped breathing. The first one was tall. So tall he had to duck under the doorframe. Broad shoulders. Dark hair. He moved like a soldier. Like someone who'd spent his whole life being in control of everything and everyone around him. His eyes were gray. Cold gray. Storm gray. When he looked at me I felt it in my spine. "Mrs. Winters." His voice was deep. Quiet. Dangerous. "Right on time." My mother got out of the car. I didn't. I couldn't. "Caelan," she said. Her voice was shaking. Actually shaking. "This is my daughter. Sera." He looked at me through the windshield. Really looked. Like he was seeing through the glass and through my skin and straight into my bones. "Hello, Sera." Two words. Just two words. But they felt like a hand around my throat. The second man stepped forward. Lean and sharp and wrong. He moved like a wolf. All grace and danger and hunger. His eyes were gold. Bright gold. Inhuman gold. He smiled at me and every cell in my body screamed run. "She's prettier than I thought she'd be," he said. My mother's face went white. "Daxen, please—" "What? I'm complimenting her." He tilted his head. Still smiling. Still looking at me like I was something he wanted to taste. "You did good, Mrs. Winters. Real good." I grabbed the door handle. My hands were slick with sweat. The third man stepped between them. Younger. Softer face. Kind eyes. He put his hand on the wolf-man's shoulder and said something I couldn't hear. Then he looked at me and smiled. A real smile. A gentle smile. "I'm Kieran," he said through the glass. "I know this is scary. But I promise you're safe here." I didn't believe him. My mother opened my door. "Come on, baby," she said. "Let's get your bag." I got out because I didn't know what else to do. My legs felt wrong. Weak. Like they might give out any second. The three men watched me. All three of them. Just standing there. Watching. Caelan's face was unreadable. Daxen was still smiling that hungry smile. Kieran looked concerned. Like he actually cared. Like he wasn't part of whatever this was. My mother got my bag from the trunk. One bag. I'd only packed one bag because she said it was just a few weeks. "I'll walk you in," she said. We went inside. The house was worse inside than outside. High ceilings that made everything echo. Dark wood everywhere. Cold. So cold I could see my breath. "The guest room is upstairs," Caelan said. "Kieran will show you." Guest room. Like I was a guest. Like I'd chosen to be here. My mother put my bag down at the bottom of the stairs. Then she turned to me and I saw it. The goodbye in her eyes. "Wait," I said. "You're not staying?" "I have to go back. I have things to take care of." "What things?" "Just things, Sera." "Mom—" "You'll be fine." She kissed my forehead. Fast. Like she was afraid if she stopped she wouldn't be able to leave. "I'll call you in a few days." "My phone's dead." "Then I'll call the house." She was already walking toward the door. I grabbed her arm. Held on. "Please don't leave me here." She looked at my hand on her arm. Then at my face. And for one second I saw something. Guilt maybe. Regret. Something human. Then it was gone. "You're twenty-two years old, Sera. You can handle a few weeks on your own." She pulled her arm away. Gentle but firm. "Be good." Be good. Like I was five years old and she was dropping me off at school. She walked out the door. I stood there and watched her get in the car. Watched her start the engine. Watched her drive away without looking back once. The door closed behind me. I heard the lock click. "Come on," Kieran said softly. "Let me show you your room." I turned around. All three of them were staring at me. Caelan with his cold gray eyes. Daxen with his hungry smile. Kieran with his kind, lying face. And I knew. My mother didn't bring me here to help her friends. She brought me here for them. • • ┈┈┈┈ ๑ ⋅ ⋯ ୨ ୧ ⋯ ⋅ ๑ ┈┈┈┈ • • The room was nice. Too nice. Big bed with white sheets. Wooden dresser. A vase of flowers on the nightstand. Peonies. My favorite flowers. How did they know peonies were my favorite? "Bathroom's through there," Kieran said, pointing to a door in the corner. "If you need anything just let us know." "When is my mother coming back?" He paused. Just for a second. But I saw it. "Soon," he said. Liar. "Get some rest," he said. "Dinner's at seven." He left. I heard his footsteps fade down the hallway. Heard another door close somewhere. Then silence. I sat on the bed. My whole body was shaking. Not just my hands. Everything. My legs. My arms. My jaw. Like I was freezing from the inside out. I needed to leave. I needed to get out of here and find a phone and call someone. Anyone. But who would I call? My mother just sold me. My stepfather wouldn't care. My stepsister was gone. I had friends from work but not the kind you call when you're trapped in a house in the middle of nowhere with three strange men who look at you like you're food. I had no one. I was alone. I lay down on the bed and stared at the ceiling and tried not to cry. • • ┈┈┈┈ ๑ ⋅ ⋯ ୨ ୧ ⋯ ⋅ ๑ ┈┈┈┈ • • I woke up to voices. The room was dark. I didn't remember falling asleep. My phone was still dead on the nightstand. The voices were coming from downstairs. Male voices. Low and serious. I got up. Pressed my ear to the door. "She doesn't know yet." That was Caelan. "When do we tell her?" Daxen. Silence. Then Kieran. Soft and careful. "Let her sleep. By morning she'll understand what she is." What she is. Not who. What. My heart stopped. Just stopped. And when it started again it was too fast. Too hard. Slamming against my ribs like it was trying to break out. I stepped back from the door. My hand over my mouth. My breath coming in short, sharp gasps that sounded too loud in the dark. My mother wasn't coming back. She wasn't calling in a few days. She sold me. She actually sold me. And tomorrow these men were going to tell me what I was. What I was worth. What they bought. I wanted to scream. I wanted to break something. But I just stood there in the dark with my hand over my mouth and thought about the lock on the front door. About the forest outside. About the fact that I got in the car even though I knew. I knew something was wrong. I knew she was lying. And I got in the car anyway. Because somewhere deep down I thought that being wanted—even like this—was better than being nothing at all.Sera WintersThe most terrifying revelations aren't the ones that change who you are. They're the ones that prove you never knew yourself at all.I went downstairs.Not because I wanted to. Not because I'd forgiven anything. But because staying locked in my room meant Daxen would keep hearing me think in circles and I couldn't take that anymore.So I went downstairs. To the kitchen. Where normal people did normal things like make food and pretend their lives weren't completely fucked.The kitchen was empty when I got there. Big. Clean. Windows looking out at the forest that went on forever. I opened cabinets until I found bread. Opened the fridge and found cheese. Normal things. Human things.I could do this. Make a sandwich. Eat it. Go back upstairs. Simple.I found a knife in the drawer. Started slicing the bread.The blade slipped.Sliced right across my palm. Deep. Too deep."Shit." I dropped the knife. Grabbed a tow
Sera WintersPrivacy is the first thing captivity takes. Your body, your choices, your space. But when they take your thoughts too, there's nowhere left to hide.I wasn't leaving this room.Not today. Not tomorrow. Maybe not ever.I sat on the bathroom floor with my back against the door and my knees pulled up to my chest. I'd been here since last night. Since I ran from the library. Since I let Kieran touch me and liked it.My body still remembered. Every place his hands had been felt warmer. Different. Marked.I scrubbed at my skin in the shower until it hurt. Until the hot water ran cold. Until I couldn't feel his touch anymore.But I could still feel the pleasure. The way my body had responded to him. The way I'd begged him not to stop.What was wrong with me?Someone knocked on my bedroom door. I ignored it.They knocked again. Louder this time."Sera." Kieran's voice. Soft. Worried. "Please talk to me."I d
Sera WintersSometimes the worst prison isn't the one that holds your body. It's the one that makes you want to stay.I didn't leave the library.Hours passed. The sun went down completely. The room got dark except for one lamp in the corner that Kieran turned on without asking if I wanted it.We talked. About nothing. About everything. About his life before the curse. About mine before I got sold. Normal things. Human things. Like we were just two people having a conversation instead of captor and captive.And I hated how good it felt. How normal. How almost right.My body was exhausted. My mind was exhausted. But I couldn't make myself get up and leave. Couldn't make myself go back to that empty room and sit alone with my thoughts.So I stayed.Kieran didn't push. Didn't ask questions I didn't want to answer. Just sat there and talked when I wanted to talk and stayed quiet when I didn't.It was the kindes
Sera WintersLoneliness is a weapon. And the cruelest captors know exactly how to use it.My hands stopped glowing.I stared at them in the dim light of my room. At my normal, boring hands that had been burning gold just seconds ago. At the skin that looked the same but felt different. Wrong. Like something had changed underneath that I couldn't see.My eyes were back to hazel when I checked the mirror. Not gold. Not burning. Just regular eyes staring back at a face I barely recognized anymore.What was happening to me?I sat on the edge of the bed and tried to slow my breathing. Tried to make sense of it. The healing. The gold eyes. The glow. The heat that had spread through my body like something waking up.You were born this way.Kieran's words from yesterday. From the confrontation with the shard. From the moment I'd threatened to destroy their cure.Born this way.But I'd lived twenty-two years
Sera WintersPower isn't always about strength. Sometimes it's about knowing exactly what someone else is afraid to lose.I ate everything.Every bite of food Kieran had left outside my door. The bread. The soup. The fruit. All of it. I sat on the floor with the tray in my lap and ate until my stomach hurt. Until I felt sick. Until there was nothing left.Not because I wanted to.Because I had to.Because my body had made that decision in the forest when it responded to Daxen's hands on me. When it trembled under his weight. When it wanted things I didn't want.I couldn't trust my body anymore. Couldn't trust my mind. Couldn't trust anything except the fact that I was still here. Still breathing. Still surviving.Even if surviving felt like losing.I set the empty tray outside my door and locked myself back in. Crawled into bed. Pulled the blanket over my head like I was five years old and afraid of monsters.Except the
Sera Winters Fear and desire are closer than anyone wants to admit. Sometimes they're the same thing wearing different masks.Daxen let go.I stumbled back. Caught myself on the bedpost.“What?”Daxen's arms locked around my waist. Pulled me back through the window. My feet hit the floor but my legs wouldn't hold me.He kept his hands on me. Steadying me. His grip was iron."Let go." I shoved at his chest. Might as well have been shoving a wall."Not yet.""I said let go.""I heard you." He was smiling. That same hungry smile. "Answer's still no."I twisted. Tried to break his grip. He just held on tighter. His hands spanning my waist like it was nothing."You were gonna jump," he said. Almost conversational. "Two stories. Would've broken both legs at least. Maybe your neck if you landed wrong.""Better than staying here.""Is it?" He tilted his head. Studying me. "You really think death's better than us?""Yes.







