Eleanor's POV
SLAP!
The impact and sound of Damian’s palm hit my cheek with such force that I tumbled backward. For a moment, my vision became blurry, and a strong pain ran through my face. The world around me turned around, the big chandeliers above turning into streaks of gold. Gasps filled the ballroom, followed by a suffocating and usual silence that felt like a heavy weight pressing down on me.
I pressed my fingers to my burning cheek, the sting only adding to my pain. While my ears rang from the blow, tingle tingle, the pounding of my heart was even louder. This couldn’t be real. This couldn’t possibly be happening to me.
Damian Blackwood, my husband, my love, my everything,g stood before me, his gaze filled with cold, unyielding fury, just like that of a dagger.
"You ungrateful whore! You bastard" he roared, his voice moving through my entire being.
I recoiled at the venom in his words. My lips twisted, trying to defend myself, but my throat felt dry and my mind was a blank and sorry slate.
The grand ballroom of the Blackwood Estate was packed with the city's elite wealthy businessmen, influential politicians, and high-society figures all of them were staring at me, their expressions filled with judgment and hate. The celebration was supposed to honor our anniversary, a night to honor our love. But love had vanished at that moment.
Because tonight, love had turned into betrayal, and that really hurt.
Damian held my wrist, drawing me closer with a strong and firm grip that felt like it could crush my bone into piece. "How dare you make me look foolish?" His fingers dug painfully into my skin like a lion claw.
Desperately, I shook my head. "Damian, please, I don’t get it! What are you talking about?" My voice shook, barely above a whisper.
He let out a harsh, mocking laugh. "You don’t get it? Perhaps this will jog your memory, you stupid idiot."
Turning to his right, my stomach dropped as Vincent Moreau, Damian’s closest associate and friend, stepped forward. His sharp, predatory look shined with satisfaction as he handed Damian a thick envelope. Damian tore it open and revealed a series of glossy naughty photographs.
He throws them to the floor at my feet.
I looked down, and the ground beneath me seemed to crumble.
There I was, Eleanor Sinclair Blackwood captured in various naughty images. But the woman in those pictures wasn’t really me. She was in a hotel room, too close to another man's body, to f*cking close, smiling, resting on his shoulder. In one photo, my hand rested against his chest, caressing it; in another, our lips were almost touching each other.
A wave of icy and cold terror washed over me. "No… this can’t be true!" I gasped for breath. "This is fabricated, Damian! I promise you!"
But he wasn’t listening to me. He had already made up his mind.
"You make me sick," Damian spat, his once passionate eyes now void of emotion. "You were carrying another man’s child while pretending to be my wife in my own home."
His words cut through me like a knife. I stumbled back, shaking my head unsteadily. "No, I would never do that"
Vincent sighed with exaggerated disappointment. "Tsk, tsk, Eleanor. Lying at this point is simply sad." He shook his head, smirking. "We have witnesses. The hotel manager saw you check in. The staff verified it was you."
Desperation moved inside me as I faced him. "You’re lying! You set this up! You framed me!"
Vincent just smirked. "Prove it."
As my hands trembled, I reached for Damian. "You know me. You love me. You know I would never betray you!"
But Damian recoiled as if my touch burned him.
"You’re no wife of mine," he said, his voice cold and firm. "You mean nothing to me."
The pain that followed was far worse than the slap. Far worse than all of his accusations. Because Damian wasn’t just ending our marriage he was erasing me from his life entirely.
"Throw her out," he commanded.
Before I could understand what was happening, the guards moved forward. Strong hands seized me, dragging me toward the exit.
"Damian, please!" I cried out, struggling against them. "Just listen to me! I swear, I never betrayed you!"
But he turned his back on me.
He didn’t even glance back as they led me away.
*****
The door was closed behind me, and the chill and freeze of the night air brushed my unprotected skin like needles. My body was shaking from the cold, the shock, and the crushing realization that my world had just been dismantled, that my life had just been totally destroyed.
I stood outside the grand estate, my vision fading by unshed tears.
My life had been torn away.
I had no money, no family, no home.
The dress I wore- a custom piece that Damian had once admired on me- now felt like a cruel mockery. My hair was rough, and my face was swollen from tears and humiliation.
The rain began to fall lightly at first, then heavier, soaking me all through.
I couldn’t move.
I had nowhere to go.
A sickening twist in my stomach served as a bitter reminder that I wasn’t alone in this.
I placed a hand on my lower belly.
Our baby.
I had planned to tell Damian tonight. I had rehearsed the words over and over. But instead of sharing what should have been the happiest news of our lives, I had been discarded like trash, the pain...
I inhaled sharply, forcing myself to stand tall and still.
I needed to think. I needed to
A sharp clicking sound broke the silence.
Footsteps.
I turned just as a black SUV pulled up. The tinted windows rolled down, revealing Vincent’s smirking face.
"Need a ride, sweetheart?" His voice filled with mockery.
I stepped back instantly. "Stay away from me, you bastard."
He laughed lightly. "Now, now, is that any way to speak to the man who just helped ruin your life?" My nails dug into my palms out of frustration. "Why are you doing this?"
Vincent leaned against the window, his smirk widening. "Because, Eleanor… I wanted to witness the moment you will finally fall."
Rage moved within me, but before I could respond, the back door of the SUV swung open. Two masked men came outside. Panic flooded through me. I turned to run.
But it was too late. One of them seized my wrist, pulling me back.
I screamed, kicking and thrashing, but they overpowered me. One of them pressed a cloth over my mouth, the sharp, sickly scent invading my senses. No. Not like this.
Darkness covered my vision. Damian, I thought faintly, before my world slipped into darkness….
ELEANOR SINCLAIR Whatever it was, that was the night I got pregnant again. And we have both agreed that we both wanted to be back with each other. I have seen a few psychology books on the matter, and it sounds like I have a chronic case of Stockholm’s syndrome. Except, that seven months after, we have not had one disagreement. Not a single one. Not even an angry word thrown at the other. We never officially got divorced, Damian often reminds me, after which he calls me Mrs. Blackwood. He insists we only went on a five year hiatus, and that it made us see how much we meant to each other. All I know is that he was being too slow on that night. I asked him to set up the date because I wanted us to be with each other again, because Vincent Moreau was dead and gone and Ailean was back with his mother and Marcus had wished me goodbye, calling our experience and adventure as he did not exactly solve the case and it got solved on its own. If everybody was having their happy endi
DAMIAN BLACKWOOD I let Vincent Moreau go.I planned to. I cared the least about what he would do next. All I knew was that if it had to do with me, I would kill him if he didn't kill me.Until I found out about the baby Eleanor miscarried.I was never big on having children. Sometimes, I wanted to have them, to feel what little versions of you from your body would feel like, but my lifestyle at the time did not allow me the luxury. Besides, I believed I had all the time I wanted. As long as I could get it up, I could have them.Now, five years later, and looking at the thirty-four year old face that stared back at me, I was surprised by how old I looked. All that silver wasn't supposed to be in my hair. I should be younger, and happier. I should be a father, with a mother that was just as happy.Vincent had robbed me of all of that, and I had been stupid enough to believe me. He played me for a fool and made me seem stupid. This drove me into a rage.How could I have let that old fo
ELEANOR SINCLAIR The truth is a bitter pill, most times.And admitting to myself that somewhere, deep inside, I had never stopped loving Damian Blackwood came tough. Five years of suffering without him. Five years had gone without me having to see his face, or to kiss his lips, or to feel him. All that time had passed without the occasional chaos between us, without the fights that felt so beautiful to fix with a caress that would become a session of intense sex. It had to be why I thought I didn't love him anymore.And I was proved wrong when Damian asked to be left alone when we went to plead for him to help find Ailean. When everybody walked away, giving up on him, I stood because I knew that I knew him more than any one of them who had just gone out. They did not know him or his behaviour, did not spend mornings waking up to his sleeping figure, or groan and bite in pleasure as he dug himself into me from above. I alone knew him.I knew that beneath the brute of a man I marrie
DAMIAN BLACKWOOD I took a few seconds to regain my composure, and breathe. No doubt, I was terrified to my bones about facing her. I did not know what to say or how to admit that I now knew the truth about five years ago. I did not know how to apologise, or the words to use, or how best to say that I regretted having her leave. Thinking of what to say felt too much, and I had somehow hoped that she would put off trying to talk to me so that the ugly moment would be postponed, until a better time. I didn't expect that it would be now! "You should have gone with the rest," I said, staring at my feet and turning with my back to her again. "Yes. I should." She replied. Still, there was no sound to show that she had walked away, no departing footsteps, so I turned again and found her there, still waiting. She, too, was not looking at me, but staring at something on the ground, something invisible, something away from me and my profile. Seeing her still there did something to me.
DAMIAN BLACKWOOD I had lived the last five years in misery. Hearing this woman's confession made me even more miserable. I had lost the woman who loved me, and who I had unknowingly loved. I had become as crushed as my father when he did not end up with the woman he loved, with Vanilla Black. I had tried hard to escape that fate but it was mine, now. I had been lied to and betrayed by the man I trusted the most. And I did not consider it overreaching, but I did think I could fix everything in one sweep. I would give this woman her son back, even though I would never know why she had known all that and still gone ahead to have a son with him. I would make Vincent pay for his lies and betrayal. And Eleanor... I did not know what I would do with Eleanor. Take her back, a thought came to my head, but I shook it off. Now, in hindsight, I know I had only been a burden to her, an anchor that kept her grounded. Maybe the truest form of my love for her would be to let her go. So I
DAMIAN BLACKWOOD The only thing constant is change. And I found out too late that I made the same mistake as my father, that I loved Eleanor Sinclair the same way he loved Vanilla Black. I always believed that I did not love her and my treatment of her convinced me that she was simply a woman I put up with, one I was tolerating. Until I woke up and she wasn't there anymore. Hell… seeing those photos hurt because I loved her. I should have known I loved her when I started to try to legalise my business as she wished I would for our children, when I cared less about the women I had been sleeping with before her. I should have known it when it broke me each time I hit her, and I should have run, nipping it in the bud before anything. But I let it grow until kicking her out sent my life down a downward spiral. I woke up and felt alone in my bed, even when I had someone in it. I smelt her even when she wasn't there. And when I tried to look for her, I did not find her. And when I di