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— I heard it’s some kind of sex cult — the girl in black says to the one in red.
The line to get into Nox Trium — the city’s hottest new night spot — almost wraps around the corner, and while I wait for my best friend, Brinna, I tune into the conversation of two girls in front of me.
— A friend told me that her friend was never the same after she started hanging out with them — she goes on. — My friend thinks they stole her soul.
I shake my head to myself. How can people be so superstitious?
— What I heard is they hole up in a room and share women — Red chimes in, instantly catching my attention. — Not that I’d mind being passed around between those two… Look at him, in that leather jacket…
My gaze follows hers to the small black metal door of the club, where a massive bouncer lets only women through. But it’s not the bouncer they’re staring at.
Light jeans, a brown leather jacket. Sun-browned skin, dark hair brushing his jaw. His neck is thick, his jawline… devastatingly masculine.
I nearly forget to breathe just looking at him.
But there’s something… off… about him. The beauty pulls me in, yet a strange unease curls tight inside me, prickling the back of my neck and my arms with goosebumps.
Then he slips out of sight, and the bouncer waves a few more girls inside.
I shove the image of that man out of my head. Damn it, Brinna, birthday or not, you didn’t have to be this late…
And then it happens.
A car screeches to a stop in front of the club, tires screaming against asphalt.
My eyes snap to it just as the passenger window rolls down.
Under the soft glow of the neon sign, the barrel of a gun glints.
Aimed… at me.
In a split second, one single thought: I’m going to die. Alone. Just like I grew up.
The shots crack through the street. Sharp. Two.
Instinct takes over. My body twists, arm flying up to shield my face. The car tears away as fast as it appeared, vanishing around the corner.
And then I feel it — searing heat slicing across my skin. Before I can even name the pain, the bouncer and strangers crowd around me, questions flying.
My gaze follows the path of the burn, and I finally see why they’re panicked. I’m bleeding.
Ruby-red liquid streams hot and thick down my arm, dripping from my fingers onto the pavement.
My stomach lurches, my knees buckle, and darkness closes in, swallowing both my vision and my strength.
And then nothing.
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— Hey… wake up… — A man’s voice,so calm it almost sounds angelic, calls to me as I feel a touch against my cheek.
I blink my eyes open, and the first thing I see are chocolate-brown irises staring into mine. I blink again, and by reflex my body pushes upright.
I’m on a black leather couch, in what looks like a small library. Kneeling on the floor in front of me is the man — and for a moment, my breath catches.
My shoulders lock tight.
It’s him.
— You were hurt, but you’re fine now — he says, his voice sliding over me, stroking my skin.
My gaze drops to my arm. Gauze wrapped in strips of tape covers the spot that had been burning before.
— What is this place? — I’m still dazed.
— The club’s office. I brought you here when you fainted. Do you feel okay?
— Yes. I pass out when I see blood… I’ve always been that way.
He tips his mouth into the most ironic — and the most hypnotic—half-smile I’ve ever seen.
— You faint at the sight of blood? How… interesting.
My eyes lock on that smile, and before I realize it, I’m holding my breath again. I force myself out of the strange trance gripping my mind.
— Did I get shot? Why would someone do that to me?
— Just a graze. They were aiming at me. I was heading back to the door and stopped too close to you.
— And why would anyone be shooting at you?
He shrugs, casual, but his eyes never leave mine.
— Maybe I stepped on a few toes with the opening of the club. Competition’s fierce… this city’s full of mobsters.
— I’m Samiel. — He extends his hand. — My friends call me Sami.
When our fingers touch, his heat invades my skin, and a simple handshake feels… far too intimate for a stranger. Indecent. But in the most delicious way.
I can’t stop staring at him, caught by the shape of his lips.
— Beautiful… — I clear my throat. — Your… name.
He arches a brow and smiles, like he knows exactly the embarrassing effect he has on me.
— Now’s the part where you tell me yours.
A rush of shame floods through me, sharp and sudden.
— Alexia — I say firmly. — Lexi.
— Come, Lexi. There’s someone I want you to meet. — His voice dances over every syllable, and butterflies rise from the pit of my stomach all the way to the back of my neck. My whole body reacts to his presence.
We walk down a dim hallway, apparently on the floor above the club — I can still hear the music pulsing below. The corridor ends at a rough wooden staircase, and when we climb it, an anteroom opens with a set of leather sofas.
But it isn’t the furniture that freezes me where I stand — leaving me utterly stunned.
Right in front of me, two men and a woman are tangled in a threesome so raw, so explicit, I can’t even move.
— Wait here. I’ll be back. — Samiel slips through another door, vanishing from sight.
I can’t answer.
The woman is caught between them — her mouth completely buried on one man’s hardness while the other takes her from behind, driving into her so hard it rocks all three of them. They’re drenched in sweat, their faces so lost in pleasure that for a moment I wonder if they’re high on something.
Heat floods between my thighs, slick enough I swear it could slide down my legs. Every thrust, every movement, hits me like it’s happening to my own body. My pulse races. I can’t look away.
I rub my hands up and down my arms, trying to calm the relentless shivers. They see me too, but don’t care that I’m watching.
— Do you like it? — The voice comes low and hot, right behind me.
I turn, and Samiel is there, his eyes darkened with a gleam I hadn’t seen before. I’d been so lost in the scene, I didn’t even hear him return.
— No — I lie. — It’s vulgar.
He only smiles.
— Come on. He’s not here.
I follow him, my cheeks and neck burning with… I don’t even know what. And then my gaze drops to my hand, where the bandage is gone. I must’ve ripped it off without even noticing.
I look at the spot where the wound should be and…
What?
Where there should be a long graze from a bullet… there’s nothing.
For this to end, all I have to do is say “yes.”One word. And no more of this desperation. No more feeling like it’s hard to breathe just because I’m far from someone, the way it was when I was chained by the Council.To be mine again.And then her smile comes, that laugh.I clench my fists and see her perfect face—her soft breathing as she slept on my chest… asking so little of me, when I’d freeze the fucking inferno itself if she wanted.“...you’ll never be a sin. Not to me. Whatever brought you into this world… I’m glad it existed,” she told me.And for the first time in my life, that emptiness I always carried in my chest disappeared.She was the one who filled it.When Arielle called me a buzzkill, saying I’d changed and she wouldn’t want to be in my place, I should’ve told her that before Alexia I was nobody. I had no real purpose.And that no drug, no drink, no woman—not even five or ten of them at once—ever made me feel half as good as her touch does.That somehow, ironically,
Volkov acted alone. No one on this earth can help me find her.So I ditch the car right there on the asphalt and climb down to the thin strip of sand wedged between the rocks on the coast that surrounds the city.The night is cold and wet, but here — with the raw pulse of nature and the absolute solitude — I have my best chance of reaching whoever I need.— Gabriel! — I shout at the sky, every breath in my lungs catching fire. — Where is she?And the waves crash harder against the rocks, spraying over me, mixing my panic with salt and wind. Seagulls scream and dive for food.No answer.— You damned bastard! — I turn the other way, searching for any trace of his light. — Tell me where she is!My body caves. My knees sink into the wet sand, and the pain tearing through my chest forces my torso forward. It feels like someone is ripping my ribs out one by one — I can barely breathe.Rage and helplessness climb my throat like acid.Volkov is going to kill her.And there’s nothing I can do.
For the first time, the world feels right.A child. A family.All I have to do is say out loud that this is what I want.But something pulls me the other way. It feels like a noise under my skin, a sound vibrating at a frequency my mind can’t identify.A feeling that lives outside my awareness but pulses in my nerves, in every bone, humming through my veins every time I close my eyes and focus.And it’s so alive it can only be… love.But love for who?And then I understand it doesn’t need a name or a face — it exists even without presence, even without memory… it doesn’t depend on the physical.It’s born and it pulses… from my soul.And all I know is that it isn’t Caelith living inside my soul. It isn’t his existence that completes mine.Because at the height of pleasure, back in that cabin, that feeling broke through me like my body screaming that the perfect fit comes from another body — another voice, another breath.Another heartbeat syncing with mine.It’s that other person — the
Caelith is asleep beside me and… God, this man is unbelievable even when he’s sleeping.No snoring, no drooling, no weird twisted positions.Just a deep, steady peace on that strong, perfectly symmetrical face while his broad chest rises and falls slow.I really hope he’s never seen me sleep. Worse — I hope he’s never seen me wake up. Hair a mess, creased skin, morning breath.I pull off the boots, and my feet are covered in some thick, gritty powder, but I ignore it and lie back down. Even though the dizziness and the headache are gone — and the cut on my head isn’t bleeding anymore — I know I need rest. Maybe when I wake up in the morning, my memories will finally fall back into place.I close my eyes and my thoughts start drifting, losing shape, until everything goes dark.***The woods are damp and too dark, and the branches and dry leaves prick the soles of my feet as I walk faster, scanning the shadows. The cold makes me rub my arms with both hands, trying to build enough fricti
With his shirt torn and hands covered in blood, Cael walks toward me, crossing the dance floor to the bar.— They took her.It’s automatic. My body just stops responding.— Who? — It’s all I can get out.— Volkov.Not even a burst of quartz to the chest would hit as hard as that name.Something claws its way up my throat, something with no name, heavier than panic.Volkov isn’t after revenge for the Sentinels who died in the Eternal Vigil collapse. He has orders to kill Alexia.They’re not waiting for negotiation. This is an execution.— I took down three of them, but Volkov and another shoved her into a car before I could reach them.I grab Draven by the collar before I even realize what I’m doing.— Call the Primaz. Now. — I spit the words out. — Tell him the Eternal Vigil just signed a death sentence. If they lay one finger on her, I swear by every fallen one I’ll send the Council straight to hell… I’ll wipe out every last Sentinel on this planet.Draven rips my hand off his shirt
The man in front of me, covered in blood, actually has an erection.Unbelievable.Even more unbelievable is that I’m doing everything I can to accidentally brush against the bulge in his pants.Each time I do, he inhales sharp, holds it, then exhales, like pain and desire have somehow merged inside him.My breathing turns shallow, so I start pulling air quietly through my mouth.Then his hand slides into my hair, and my eyes flutter shut for a second on instinct. For heartbeat, I think he’s going to pull my head toward his hardness — but his fingers only glide through the strands stuck with dried blood.— Need to take care of this first — he says, and maybe I’m insane, but I swear his words sound seductive.A hot shiver crawls up my arm, and he smiles. He noticed.I drop the dagger and push a finger inside the wound. Caelith exhales hard through his mouth, but I feel the edge of the bullet scrape my fingertip. I’ve got it. Finally.I barely have time to breathe before he pulls me up i







