เข้าสู่ระบบI open my eyes. The ceiling is high, white, bare, and the light slipping through the heavy curtains is faint. It takes me a second to process that I’m not in my apartment. I’m in Cael’s room.
The bed is massive, soft, dressed in stark white sheets. Two oversized nightstands, a stone floor softened by pale rugs, and a closet big enough to swallow my entire place. This bedroom alone is larger than my whole apartment.
I’m alone. I don’t know where he slept — or if he did.
But the emptiness of the space, its cold decoration, drags me back to last night. To my new, unwanted reality: threatened by some kind of… gangster, and hiding with the two most enigmatic men I’ve ever met. Men who unsettle me… men who draw me in. Especially one of them — the worst of the two.
I step out and explore the apartment: an enormous open-plan space, almost like a studio, with floor-to-ceiling windows framing a breathtaking view of the city. Dark leather sofas, glass-and-metal coffee tables. At the center of it all, raised on a platform two steps higher than the rest of the floor, a grand black piano commands the room.
Everything is black, white, or gray. Beautiful, but far too impersonal for me. It feels like an extension of the club downstairs, except for the thick rugs trying to warm the space. No photos. Just paintings — morbid, heavy — and strange sculptures, clay-like, scattered over the furniture.
The clock on the wall says almost noon. How long did I sleep? And where the hell are they?
I find everything I need in the bathroom, and head down one floor, ready to work, but the place is eerily silent. I check the office, the game room — no Samiel. Then I find them.
In the center of the training hall, Sami and Eryon move in a dance as brutal as Cael’s fight had been — and it’s strange to see the bartender fully recovered already, when Cael had nearly broken him in half. The wall is still cracked, plaster ripped out by his body.
Samiel is shirtless, his defined torso gleaming, his almost-blond hair sticking up with sweat. Beside him, Eryon is a mountain of dark-skinned muscle, moving with impossible speed and flexibility for his size.
The two of them are unreal. And they look dangerous as hell. I bite my lower lip, captivated by the fight. I don’t see the brutality I saw when Eryon fought Cael. Now it looks like something else — an exhibition of strength, a contest perfectly natural between two creatures fueled by testosterone.
God, when did I start thinking this kind of raw aggression was normal? What are these men doing to my head?
Samiel’s the first to notice me. A slow smile spreads across his face. He stills, and both of them turn to look at me.
— Morning, Sleeping Beauty — Sami says, voice dripping with irony. — Sleep well?
Eryon brushes past me, reaching for a towel. His dark eyes rake over me head to toe, and a wicked smile plays at his full lips—lips that look far too easy to imagine against mine. He leans in, his voice low, a whisper meant for me alone.
— Wanted to get to know you better… but you made me hungry.
He pulls back with a laugh, and a shiver runs through me that has nothing to do with the chill in the air.
Hungry? What the hell does he mean by that? The question coils inside me, unsettled.
Samiel steps closer, wiping the sweat from his face with a towel.
— Did you like the fight?
I catch my bottom lip between my teeth again, and his eyes flick down to the movement. But before I can answer, a woman strides into the room.
She’s elegant, with dark hair and startling blue eyes. I recognize her instantly — the woman who’d been sprawled across Cael’s lap the night I first met him.
— Alexia, right? — Her voice is smooth, marked with a heavy European accent. She offers her hand. — I’m Zara. It’s a pleasure to finally meet you.
I take her hand, though something sharp pricks at me. Jealousy? No. That can’t be it. Why the hell would I feel jealous over Cael? And yet the sting is there, a fine needle under my skin. What is she doing here? What’s her role in this place? Or does she come only for him?
Eryon and Zara leave together, and suddenly it’s just me and Samiel.
He tugs me toward the sofa, and a rush of heat prickles my skin at the memory of the last time he and I were on a couch together — my couch, in my apartment.
— So what’s it going to be? — he asks, his voice low, a near purr. His eyes don’t move from mine. — You staying? Drinking our bad wine?
I study him, trying to see past that charming smile, past that angelic voice he’s chosen to use again.
I arch a brow.
— Stop talking like that… with that voice of yours…
His smile widens, and I lose my breath. His gaze drifts slowly across my face, dips to my mouth, slides down my neck… lingers over the silk stretched across my breasts… before climbing back to my eyes.
— I want you to stay.
I hold his gaze for a moment. He knows I don’t have a choice, but he wants me to say yes, as if this were mine to decide and not theirs. Since the moment we met, Samiel’s been luring me into their game — inviting me to surrender — but never spelling out the rules, never saying what they truly want from me.
— Why? — I ask, my voice barely more than a whisper.
Silence.
Then — a noise. From the first floor.
Sami rises and strides quickly toward the back doors of the club.
I follow, heart racing. I reach the doorway just in time to see Cael staggering inside.
The gasp tears out of me so hard it makes a sound.
His suit is shredded across the back, skin split open and slick with ruby-red. His face is streaked with blood, dripping into one eye. He can barely hold himself upright, his body trembling with exhaustion and pain.
— Zara! — His roar shakes the walls, deep and sharp with impatience.
Samiel hauls Cael’s arm over his shoulder, bracing him, carrying his weight down the hall toward the office. Seconds later, Zara rushes past me, horror etched across her face, and the three of them disappear inside.
The door slams shut in my face without a word of explanation. But in that instant—just a fraction of a second before it closes — Cael’s eyes find mine.
And what I see in that steel isn’t just pain.
It’s hate.
His stare cuts through me with brutal force… the force of an accusation.
For this to end, all I have to do is say “yes.”One word. And no more of this desperation. No more feeling like it’s hard to breathe just because I’m far from someone, the way it was when I was chained by the Council.To be mine again.And then her smile comes, that laugh.I clench my fists and see her perfect face—her soft breathing as she slept on my chest… asking so little of me, when I’d freeze the fucking inferno itself if she wanted.“...you’ll never be a sin. Not to me. Whatever brought you into this world… I’m glad it existed,” she told me.And for the first time in my life, that emptiness I always carried in my chest disappeared.She was the one who filled it.When Arielle called me a buzzkill, saying I’d changed and she wouldn’t want to be in my place, I should’ve told her that before Alexia I was nobody. I had no real purpose.And that no drug, no drink, no woman—not even five or ten of them at once—ever made me feel half as good as her touch does.That somehow, ironically,
Volkov acted alone. No one on this earth can help me find her.So I ditch the car right there on the asphalt and climb down to the thin strip of sand wedged between the rocks on the coast that surrounds the city.The night is cold and wet, but here — with the raw pulse of nature and the absolute solitude — I have my best chance of reaching whoever I need.— Gabriel! — I shout at the sky, every breath in my lungs catching fire. — Where is she?And the waves crash harder against the rocks, spraying over me, mixing my panic with salt and wind. Seagulls scream and dive for food.No answer.— You damned bastard! — I turn the other way, searching for any trace of his light. — Tell me where she is!My body caves. My knees sink into the wet sand, and the pain tearing through my chest forces my torso forward. It feels like someone is ripping my ribs out one by one — I can barely breathe.Rage and helplessness climb my throat like acid.Volkov is going to kill her.And there’s nothing I can do.
For the first time, the world feels right.A child. A family.All I have to do is say out loud that this is what I want.But something pulls me the other way. It feels like a noise under my skin, a sound vibrating at a frequency my mind can’t identify.A feeling that lives outside my awareness but pulses in my nerves, in every bone, humming through my veins every time I close my eyes and focus.And it’s so alive it can only be… love.But love for who?And then I understand it doesn’t need a name or a face — it exists even without presence, even without memory… it doesn’t depend on the physical.It’s born and it pulses… from my soul.And all I know is that it isn’t Caelith living inside my soul. It isn’t his existence that completes mine.Because at the height of pleasure, back in that cabin, that feeling broke through me like my body screaming that the perfect fit comes from another body — another voice, another breath.Another heartbeat syncing with mine.It’s that other person — the
Caelith is asleep beside me and… God, this man is unbelievable even when he’s sleeping.No snoring, no drooling, no weird twisted positions.Just a deep, steady peace on that strong, perfectly symmetrical face while his broad chest rises and falls slow.I really hope he’s never seen me sleep. Worse — I hope he’s never seen me wake up. Hair a mess, creased skin, morning breath.I pull off the boots, and my feet are covered in some thick, gritty powder, but I ignore it and lie back down. Even though the dizziness and the headache are gone — and the cut on my head isn’t bleeding anymore — I know I need rest. Maybe when I wake up in the morning, my memories will finally fall back into place.I close my eyes and my thoughts start drifting, losing shape, until everything goes dark.***The woods are damp and too dark, and the branches and dry leaves prick the soles of my feet as I walk faster, scanning the shadows. The cold makes me rub my arms with both hands, trying to build enough fricti
With his shirt torn and hands covered in blood, Cael walks toward me, crossing the dance floor to the bar.— They took her.It’s automatic. My body just stops responding.— Who? — It’s all I can get out.— Volkov.Not even a burst of quartz to the chest would hit as hard as that name.Something claws its way up my throat, something with no name, heavier than panic.Volkov isn’t after revenge for the Sentinels who died in the Eternal Vigil collapse. He has orders to kill Alexia.They’re not waiting for negotiation. This is an execution.— I took down three of them, but Volkov and another shoved her into a car before I could reach them.I grab Draven by the collar before I even realize what I’m doing.— Call the Primaz. Now. — I spit the words out. — Tell him the Eternal Vigil just signed a death sentence. If they lay one finger on her, I swear by every fallen one I’ll send the Council straight to hell… I’ll wipe out every last Sentinel on this planet.Draven rips my hand off his shirt
The man in front of me, covered in blood, actually has an erection.Unbelievable.Even more unbelievable is that I’m doing everything I can to accidentally brush against the bulge in his pants.Each time I do, he inhales sharp, holds it, then exhales, like pain and desire have somehow merged inside him.My breathing turns shallow, so I start pulling air quietly through my mouth.Then his hand slides into my hair, and my eyes flutter shut for a second on instinct. For heartbeat, I think he’s going to pull my head toward his hardness — but his fingers only glide through the strands stuck with dried blood.— Need to take care of this first — he says, and maybe I’m insane, but I swear his words sound seductive.A hot shiver crawls up my arm, and he smiles. He noticed.I drop the dagger and push a finger inside the wound. Caelith exhales hard through his mouth, but I feel the edge of the bullet scrape my fingertip. I’ve got it. Finally.I barely have time to breathe before he pulls me up i







