LOGINSilence fell so thick in the air that it hung like a cloud above us. So heavy that I could hear the pulse of my own blood as it rushed in my wrist.
The hush had spread through the area, so great that tears pricked my eyes. I looked at the crowd, at their faces wearing various expressions of shock and disbelief, even my best friend. No one made any effort to clap, their hands stiffened from the shock and hung limply beside them. I worked my throat to swallow, tasting copper, and I tried to blink back the tears that had gathered. My throat was so clogged, the lodge so firmly stuck, that my breath was getting labored with every passing minute. Slowly, the spell began to break, their frozen faces now alive as their mouths moved. Little murmurs filled the arena, their eyes vile as they glared at me, and I could almost hear what they said. I had always known my reputation was ruined, but never to that extent. “How can you be mated to her?” A loud voice interrupted from the middle, and my hand flew to my chest, startled from the venom I heard. The accuser, an old fling from when I was still desperate for love. A dark period in my life where I was hopping from dick to dick, thinking it was enough to satisfy the issues I had with my family. “She is a whor—” Suddenly someone began to clap, the sound so loud it swallowed their murmurs, increasing with an intensity that was almost compelling. As if by invisible command, scattered claps began to echo, noticeable in the haphazard joining of hands. However, it was enough for me, just alright to soothe the despair that was forming rising in the heart, and I glanced at the fire starter. Thalia's eyes were still bulging from what she had heard; I could almost hear the words, ‘We need to talk,’ and I gave her a nod. I blinked slowly, trying to convey with my eyes that I was grateful for her saving me from the embarrassment, but she gave me a tight-lipped smile, the annoyance still showing that she wasn’t pleased with me. My gaze shifted to my family that had been glaring at me since they heard the announcement, their intensity neither dimming at all nor their hands moving to join in the applause, and I moved my gaze back. I would deal with them some other time, but right now all I was going to concern myself with was my mate. He had been staring at me staring at the audience, his gaze fastened on me like I was the only one in the world, and all of my worries dissolved like salt on water. “Hello.” I whispered shyly, suddenly tongue-tied from being so close to him. “Ryan.” He sighed like I was his prayer answered, and I slowly shook my head. “It is Raya; I go by Raya now.” I explained, and he nodded. “Raya,” he called after me, and I took a sharp inhale of air as a wave of pleasure danced down my spine. “It is a beautiful name, fitting for a queen like you.” “Y-yes, it is.” “Sit.” He said, pulling me gently to sit beside him, and I settled there while the activities continued. There wasn’t much to do except eat, drink, and sway to the music. As the night wore on, the people loosened up, shedding their earlier restraint. The interaction between the two groups had turned into one of casual friendliness, and everyone had pretty much forgotten all that had happened. Throughout the bonfire, Micah had avoided talking to me, his focus on his packmates. Yet his hands remained on my thighs, slowly burning a hole through them. I managed to sit through the ceremony, trying to pretend like I wasn’t getting turned on with the light brushes on my thighs. Suppressing my urges this time was the hardest I have tried, all too aware of how sensitive our noses are and how I was still walking on a thin line with my pack. Scenting my arousal will be the catalyst of my doom, and I wouldn’t put it past my alpha to try to say something in discouragement. It was no rumor that we never got along, not when he had found my mouth on his son’s cock just behind the packhouse. Of course, his son had been left only with a slight warning, and I got reprimanded and made to serve community service. He became my sworn enemy after that day, and with the way he was glaring at me, there was no telling he was going to do everything to ruin me. However, Micah leaned towards me, his breath fanning my neck. “Are you enjoying the party?” I took a deep breath, steadying myself before I could reply. “It is not really much of a party, but it will do.” And for effect, I reached for the bottle of alcohol, taking a big gulp. “You wouldn’t want to drink too much of that, mate. You have somewhere to be tomorrow.” He reminded me, leaning way too close to me so that I could make out the individual lashes on his eyes. “Ohhh.” I wiggled my brows, my earlier disposition slowly fizzling out. “Where are we going?” My mind had begun to conjure all sorts of rendezvous that could take place, but all seem to end the same way. Me tangled together with him in bed. “We will be leaving tomorrow morning, and I will need you to be as functional and level-headed as possible. Remember, you are the alpha’s mate.” My eyes widened drastically, my brain scrambling to make sense of this new development. I knew he was the alpha; I could remember vaguely that he had been addressed as such. I knew I was going to leave sometime, but it had never occurred to me that I would have to leave with him this early. “Are you alright?” He asked, brown eyes now softened so that they looked like pools of molten chocolate, and slowly my head moved up and down in a single nod. I made the decision in a split second. I was going to miss my family, but thinking of all I had endured from them till this moment, I deserved it. I deserved to be in a place where I was cherished and loved, so I did the best for my future. “Yes, I will leave with you tomorrow.”“I said I look forward to a day we can all run as wolves,” I repeated, smiling, my eyes darting to all three of them. It was comical to watch them lose their shit while I just stood, enjoying it.“W-wait?” Pete basically guffawed, his eyes widened to a point I was sure they would pop out. “You say w-wolves?” He asked, looking between Rowan and me, trying to determine if he had accidentally entered an alternate universe, and I nodded slowly.“Yes, I mean it is tiring to run in our human form all the time.” I shrugged, my lips widening in a smile, and Rowan shook with laughter beside me, completely enjoying it.“Someone pinch me, but I think I am in another universe where Addison just admitted she is one of us.” Harry piped from where he stood, but Morgan gave him the elbow.“She didn’t say it expressly.” Morgan chided him, rolling his eyes. “Now you have exposed us with your loud mouth.”“Hey!” Harry protested, and they both burst into laughter.“Focus, guys,” Pete barked, calling thei
The journey back home—though the meaning of ‘home’ had somehow shifted for me—was smooth. I had completely leaned on Rowan, trying to get as much sleep as I could before we got home.Home.The words still felt so foreign, that somewhere so far, where they were likely only a small percentage of people like me, was a place my heart had claimed as home.However, there was no fear this time; the Florida sun shone down on me with a vengeance. I welcomed it in, my heart merry that I was back to where I belonged and just fit right.The car had brought us to his building, and Rowan had helped with my things, bringing them up the stairs, and now I stood in front of the brown door unsure.My rent had been for a year upfront; it was the only condition Adam was willing to give me, fearing that I would bail. I still had months to stay in the apartment, yet I had reluctance to even do so.To go back to that moldy house would be torture itself, and anything was better than that place; even my place
The walk back home was quiet, a comfortable one, although I was lost in my head, going through what the alpha had already said.Thankfully, darkness covered the area, except for the street light that lit the path, but he couldn’t see my face or the worry that lined it.“Are you alright?” Rowan asked, squeezing my hand, and I nodded. “You are a bit quiet.”“I’m fine. I just… have a lot on my mind. After everything.” I replied in a small voice, and he nodded.“I am still me, Raya. Still the Rowan that you know.” He reassured me, and I swallowed, accepting the truth. It was still hard to believe that Rowan was an alpha, albeit an estranged one that was cut out of his family.Yet, I couldn’t ignore the fear that gripped my heart as the implication of the statement came to mind. I had had my share of Alphas; even the word sent shivers down my spine, and it was not the pleasurable one.I had vowed never to be in contact with them, the pain still fresh in my mind, yet here he was, and I was
I paced around the tiny room of the pack clinic every now and then before my gaze drifted to Rowan, who lay on the bed, stiff as a board. Only the steady rhythm of his heart convinced me that he hadn’t left me for the afterworld, but that didn’t calm my mind either, and not even the fact that the alpha was also here. The first minute he had collapsed, I screamed my lungs out, confused, and I hated the way the fear had paralyzed me. It was like Micah all over, and I had completely shut down. But the people immediately surrounding him, with the directions of the alpha, had helped me get him to the clinic. So here we are. I glanced at him again, at how he looked so small in the hospital bed, despite his legs reaching the end of the bed. As if aware of my presence, Rowan blinked, and I was rushing to his side, eager to spend the first waking moment. “Rowan.” I sighed relief flooding me as I dragged the chair and sat beside him. “Thank goddess.” “Raya.” He spoke, his voice
No sooner had I given him the go-ahead than he joined our lips together, kissing me so hard my head spun, and I reciprocated, kissing him just as he was.Our hands were tangled in each other, his caressing and fondling, while mine was on his shoulders, holding him so tight against the onslaught of pleasure coursing rapidly through me.Rowan was pulling me up, helping me get rid of my shirt and pants, and before long, I stood naked before him. I shifted from foot to foot, not used to being exposed like this.Most times I had sex, it was hurried, just straight to fucking, but there was never a time that they got to admire my body, yet Rowan was doing it.His eyes raked seductively through me, taking in every curve, every deep and red stained my cheeks; my first instinct was to hide.I have never been conscious about my body. I mean, I may not be the most curvy or busy, but I was confident in what I got, but seeing him looking at me with such hunger in his eyes had a way of stirring emot
“Rowan?” My breath hitched, my ears rang, and I was very sure I was hallucinating it or my ears were not working because he couldn’t have said that.Rowan didn’t just say he loved me after he discovered I lied about basically everything, even my fucking name.“Rowan?” I whispered again, blinking slowly, anything to convince myself I wasn’t living in an alternate world where the man that I wasn’t even supposed to like is telling me he loves me, but he nodded his head, his lips revealing a wide smile.“Yes, I do love you, Addison, Raya. Whatever you are called.” He said with so much confidence that every doubt in my mind fled.“But you can’t.” I argued, trying to give reasons why this wasn’t possible yet, but he squeezed my hands, reassuring me over and over. “I am…” ruined, cursed, alone, shattered… “me.”Rowan laughed, as if he could read the words I had uttered in my mind, and he shook his head again, firmly. “And I love every version of you. What is there not to love?” He asked, but







