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"You lost Dad when I came into this world."

It's all my fault.

Kung hindi dahil sa akin ay malamang buhay pa rin si Dad hanggang ngayon.

If he did not save me from the miscarriage, if he didn't chat about the ritual he might be alive today he should be with Mom right now.

Not me.

I'm supposed to be dead.

"Am I even supposed to be here Mom?"

Do I really belong to this world? Do I belong here?

Do I have a right to live here? I'm supposed to be dead. My father sacrificed his life for me.

"I should be dead. Patay na dapat ako kung hindi lang ginawa yon ni Dad. Hindi niya na dapat pa ginawa yon!"

He shouldn't have done that! Kung hindi ginawa 'yon ni Dad ay malamang buhay pa siya. Baka mayroon pang paraan noon para hindi humantong sa ganoon ang mangyari.

They could have waited for the ambulance to come before they did any ritual. I know that we are near the forest and the hospital is far from here but twenty years ago, all the roads were concrete. They could have easily gone to the