Chapter Thirty Seven

RIVER

After my complete meltdown, Blade took me to his room.

I'm still heated.  He tosses me a bottle of water and I catch it.  "Thanks."

"No problem."  He mumbles.  Grabbing one for himself.  He leans on his dresser.  "Well, this is fucked up."  He takes a drink.

I nod.  "What do I do, Blade?"  I play with the bottle in my hands.

He shrugs.  "What do want to do?"

I grip the shelf I'm leaning on, on either side.  My knuckles turning white.  "I want to fucking murder him."  I grit.

"Ok.  Besides that."  Blade sighs.

I shake my head.  "I mean.  This will break them up for sure, but....."

Blade sighs.  "Emily."

I nod.

He tilts his head.  "It's just a question of who you want more, isn't it."

"Emily's amazing, but Anna's my life, Blade.  I can't picture myself without her."

"But then th