Marissa I sigh as I finally drop down on my bed after a late night shower. The time is well past midnight and I am exhausted after tonight's party. If I can call it a party. It wasn’t especially fun. First they wanted to take pictures of me and Antonio. Then of only me, then the ring, then Antonio. Then pictures were taken of Antonio holding my hand and showing off the ring. There were pictures taken on the stairs, next to a fountain and together with his family. Then I was introduced to a million different people. Politicians, rich men, powerful men. And of course take pictures with every one of them. When all of this was done we had to dance, alone, with all eyes on us and of course more pictures were taken. I am happy that Antonio had scheduled for dance lessons the previous week or I am sure that I would have messed up. I had to dance with several other rich and powerful men, but I can’t remember the name of any of them. I rub my aching feet with a groan. I’m not wearing heels a
Marissa “Wh-what contracts?” My mom’s anxious voice cuts off dad's rambling and excuses. “All the contracts. Your membership to his casinos, all the loans. Everything! You signed that you would repay ten million dollars in one year! How did you think that you could gain such a ridiculous amount of money? And how could you agree to the terms? To give yourselves or me in payment if you failed to repay in cash?” My voice is pitched and by the end of my outburst I’m almost screaming. My heart is racing and I’m breathing hard. I rise from the bed to pace back and forth trying to collect myself. They both fall silent on the other side. All I hear are mom’s crying and dad’s heavy breathing. I slump on the bed. The intense emotions draining all my energy. “Why would you sign such a contract? How did you think you would be able to repay ten million dollars in a year? Or ever for that matter? Is this why you wanted me to quit college? Because you owed him money?” My voice breaks at the end an
Antonio “Can I have a drink, please?” Marissa asks as she slumps down on a couch with a view of the back gardens. I look down at her taking in her appearance. Her skin is pale and so are her lips. Her eyes are rimmed red from crying and there are also prominent circles under her eyes, dark and blue. She looks exhausted. The light that usually shines in her beautiful eyes is not there. The only emotions I see in her are sorrow and exhaustion. “I don’t think that is a good idea.” Her eyes light up at that. Not with happiness but anger and defiance. “I think I should be the judge of that!” She grits out between clenched teeth, her hands fisting in her lap. “You are exhausted by everything that has happened this weekend and you are emotionally unstable. Those are both good reasons for not drinking alcohol.” I say and sit down next to her. I choose to not take a drink for myself as well even though I feel like I would need it. She folds her arms across her chest and turns her face aw
Marissa My head hurts, and my throat and my back and everything else as well. I am exhausted and feel cold to the bone. When I look at myself in the mirror I’m pale with dark circles around my eyes. Even my lips are pale. But none of that matters. That is not going to stop me from going to school this morning. I put on some makeup to make sure that I look my normal self when I head down to breakfast. I mostly sit quietly during breakfast, only answering direct questions. Antonio doesn’t question my silence but he throws concerned glances at me from time to time. Maybe he thinks I am still digesting all that happened this weekend. It felt like this weekend lasted forever and I’m glad it’s finally monday. Me and Luca leave for school immediately after breakfast since the first lecture starts early. He keeps sending me worried glances. I guess he’s not used to me being so silent. I hear him getting message after message on his phone but I’m too tired to care who's messaging him. In cl
Marissa I’m confused as I wake up as to where I am before I recognize it as my room. The bed that usually is so comfortable feels too warm and at the same time too cold. The room is dark with the curtains drawn over the windows. By the light that manages to force its way through the cracks in curtains I can see that it’s still daytime. I push off the comforter and struggle to sit up in bed. I’m bathing in my own sweat. My head hurts and feels extremely heavy. I notice the IV connected to my hand and I furrow my brows in confusion. As my feet touch the carpet the door is opened and Antonio steps inside. He looks somber as his eyes search for me. An older gentleman with a bald head and a bushy gray mustache follows behind him. When Antonio sees that I am on my way up from bed, he hurries over and sits down next to me. “How are you feeling?” His voice is full of concern as he gazes into my eyes. “Ehm. Not too good?” My answer comes out more like a question as I throw a glance to the u
Marissa Antonio turns on the shower and then turns to me. “Take off your clothes.” I blink at him. Is he for real? Does he really think that I will shower with him in the room? He sighs and steps closer to me. He reaches for my nightgown (When did I get into the nightgown?) and starts to pull it up. I grab hold of my gown and glare at him. “I’m not showering with you in here!” My voice breaks every other word and some words just come out as a wheeze. “It is only a shower.” He pulls the garment over my head and then proceeds to pull down my panties. I’m too weak to fight against him and within a minute I stand naked under the showerhead. The warm water flows down my body, relaxing my muscles and rinsing away the sweat. It almost feels like the water can cleanse me from my cold. I feel myself swaying and my eyelids feel heavy as if I’m about to fall asleep. Big, calloused hands, slippery with soap start to rub my shoulders and back and I let out a moan. Antonio doesn’t say anything,
Marissa When he has undressed me I make a move to turn and enter the shower but Antonio takes hold of my upper arms. “Undress me.” He commands. I hesitate but he takes my hands and moves them to the hem of his t-shirt. “Undress me.” His voice is firm and dominant as he commands me to do as he says. I bite my lip but grab the hem and slowly drag his shirt up over his head. I avert my eyes once it’s off, uncertain if I dare to look at him. He grabs my chin and tilts my head to look into my eyes. “Look at me. This body is yours. Yours to look at, yours to touch, yours to kiss and worship. Only yours.” He lets go of my chin and slowly I let my eyes fall down his chest and stomach. I have seen him before during my punishments but this time it feels so much more intimate. “Touch me.” My eyes dart up to meet his gaze and I bite my lip. “Touch me. Feel me. Get to know my body.” My hands shake as I raise them to his shoulders. His skin is warm. I slowly drag my hands from his shoulders to hi
Marissa He helps me to stand up. My legs are cold and stiff from my kneeling position on the hard bathroom floor. With my hand in his he leads me over to the counter and easily lifts me up to sit on the very edge of it. Then he crouches in front of me. “I have wanted to do this for a very long time.” He says and tries to pry my knees apart but I resist him. He looks up at me and lifts an eyebrow in question. “Open up, little angel. You got to have your taste and now I want mine.” He doesn’t ask me if it is alright for me. Instead he demands me to allow him to do as he pleases but I feel incredibly uncomfortable. “No. Antonio. Please. I’m not sure-” He gives me a stern look and I nervously bite my lip. “Open up. I’m going to eat you out and you are going to love it.” I shake my head at him and avert my eyes from his intense gaze. “This is your reward for doing a good job. Now open up.” “But.. I haven’t showered yet. And, um, and I haven’t, um, groomed either for a few weeks.” I mu